I appologize, you didn't accuse me of hiding the fact that I'm a pedophile, you accused me of "covering up" the fact that I am a pedophile. I wasn't covering up the fact that I'm a pedophile so much as it just wasn't relevant. It still isn't relevant by the way, you were just being proactive and looking for excuses to dismiss my position just in case I have actually good arguments.
I also don't see what practice has to do with anything. Maybe you are talking about when I referred to the general life inexperience of children, or ridiculous idea that children (or anyone else) could improve at life in general from sex. Could you clarify what I said that you were referring to when you brought up practice?
There's evidence that says all kinds of things. I would never "try to lie about it" because what really matters is interpreting that evidence. When many children who are molested grow up to become child molesters, you interpret that to mean it's better for those children to die so that you can avoid any intellectual confrontation that might result.
When many children who are molested grow up to become child molesters, I on the other hand, interpret that to mean society is systematically incapable of addressing the questions that are raised by child molestation and the ideas that contribute to it. I genuinely appologize for going off on you; I should have tailored my response more closely to what you actually said rather than trying to present a broader criticism.
The argument that viewing child pornography contributes to the kidnapping and murder of kids is one I've heard before. Even when I was a minor I read that argument and rolled my eyes. It's no surprise that I ended up viewing photographs and videos sexualizing children with all the dogshit arguments that I was surrounded by. I was very careful so that my watching child pornography caused zero tangible harm to actual children. No cryptocurrency changed hands and no comments were posted on the dark web. Maybe I should feel guilty about all the pedophiles whose private and intimate moments I intruded on or for all the criminal evidence that nobody should have paid any attention to. But to this day I feel zero guilt about how much people like you are harmed by the psychic pedophile waves my porn habits gave off. I'm a real Scoundrel for that one.
No, because society only gave me dogshit reasons not to watch real child porn, I had to come up with the argument MYSELF. And yes, I'm ashamed I ever stooped to pirating child porn. Now I stick to animated loli hentai, like some kind of fucked up degenerate vegan equivalent, lol.
To answer your question, I can't lie; I love porn. I think sex is fascinating, aesthetically and thematically, especially sex involving anything cute. I'm not weighed down by the fact that some people see sex as some kind of status measurement. I actually came up with that idea on the spot as a possible explanation for why people come up with so many weird rationalizations for not having sex with kids instead of having a more robust reason.
Does that help answer the questions you asked me? Does that help you to figure out better where to place me in your worldview? Can you give me any new or updated insults or criticisms? Thanks in advance.