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I'm going through a hard time the past few days because of yet another episode my mom threw at me.

Dug out this song and reading the comments.

God has given me so much. I need to get better and not give up for him and for all the ones that love me and are rooting for me.

I have so much to give and I'm not going to let what my mother did and is still doing to me mold me into a person I don't want to be.

Feel free to suggest whatever you know that helps with childhood and current emotional abuse and dealing with bipolar/borderline/narcissistic people. Thank you!

#healstr

#endthecycle

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ra-Om7UMSJc

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Matt 1y ago

Dealing with a parent like that can be so difficult, I think only age helps, as you grow separately and as an individual

JoySun 1y ago

Thank you for telling that.

And yes, I didn't want enmeshment but usually in these situations, it happens. And I need to be more vigilant in not having that.

MAHDOOD 1y ago

The best thing to do is maintain distance. If she isnt around you then she can't hurt you.

Catty_McCatface 1y ago

Hey Joy, I am sorry to hear about your troubles. If it helps I had a psychotic bipolar mother who regularly told me she didn’t love me and abandoned me as a child with no contact for over 4 years. She only came back into my life when I got a job and she could try to leech off me.

Her emotional abuse was pretty devastating.

I don’t have any advice for you other than perhaps to get help for yourself.

It took me years to stick up for myself and tell my mom to go away and to tell her that her life was a mess because of her (she always blamed the world and could never take responsibility).

She died in 2022, but the week before she died I forced her to apologise to me and forgave her for everything.

I’m still glad she’s dead.

Sending love and hugs 🫂 I hope it gets better 💜

JoySun 1y ago

Thank you for sharing your experience and your kind words, Catty!

I'm sorry to hear what happened to you as well.

And yes indeed, my mom is the same about it's everyone's fault but never her own.

She also fluctuates between love bombing and abandonment so that made it even harder.

I'm glad you're better off now. ❤️💖

Catty_McCatface 1y ago

I shared it so you would know that you are not alone in this and that no matter how awful you think you are or feel about it, we’ve been there at the coal face too. You ARE a good person, you ARE enough and deserve to be loved and supported, everything you feel you should want but are too afraid of, you deserve ALL the good things.

But if you can get help for yourself 💜

JoySun 1y ago

Thank you!

💖

Did you find therapy helpful?

Catty_McCatface 1y ago

Yes it helped me a lot but also it took me a long time to get around to it. 💜🫂

JoySun 1y ago

I'm glad it helped you.

Yea I had a bad experience where I got more triggered so I have been thinking about it but not ready to go for it yet.

Catty_McCatface 1y ago

It takes time to get to a place where you feel ready. That’s also part of the process 🫂