Gallows humour is a thing.

I spent too long in my younger years with a suicidal disposition.

I still don’t understand it - but I basically wanted off the planet I went out of my way to avoid participating in things I objected to, it made things difficult but I found some solace in it.

Later I found the sentiment that if it were inevitable that I could delay the act and try at least to accomplish anything of value before wrapping things up.

Don’t give up.

Don’t do it , we love you.

An older man that I deeply respect recognizing my position phoned me at a very dark time. I didn’t take the call, but I did hear his message, and the conviction in his voice.

Since then my life has changed course. I’ve invested in myself. Things have gotten slowly better

Bitcoin is helping. I feel less pessimistic about the corruption. Nostr is helping. I feel less disconnected seeing others being genuine.

You got this.

Just keep breathing .

Hope you have a good holiday - or at least not too bad.