If loving something more than you fear worked, then no child that unconditionally loves their mother would experience fear.
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Try the things and more that might work better for you (that book has ideas) for a solid year. A lot of us have been through a lot and it’s a lot of work to heal. Anyone can do it. Lots of people on nostr have good ideas/ things that work for them as well.
You seem to be having a different conversation. I'm not asking for help or healing.