I could be wrong, but it sounds like it caused you some pain and that's not good.
The way God created you and all people to work, as opposed to a "Christian" cult (which if it truly is a cult simply isn't from God but from deeply unhealthy and dysfunctional people who don't know God) , is encapsulated well by this quote from Victor E. Frankl:
"Between stimulus and response there is a space. In that space is our power to choose our response. In our response lies our growth and our freedom."
God's heart for you is freedom and growth through your choices relative to your innate design, reality, people, and Him.
Not control, fear, shame, arrogance, condemnation, ostracism, coercion and manipulation that unhealthy and dysfunctional people in that cult represented to you.
As you may already know, you alone get to choose who you become.
And God doesn't make your life choices for you.
