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Would you rather have the trait of invisibility or insensibility, or both, or neither, and why? 🏡 Not here to argue with the infinite opinions. Not here to “build an audience”, but to literally use this for “notes and other stuff” (maybe I’m here to rebuild my sense of self … after a bunch of changes, experienced as traumatic) ❤️‍🩹💝 ✏️ I would like these to not exist: - poverty - pollution in LCOL areas - factory farms, slaughterhouses - war

ohhh I figured it out by clicking things hahaha … 😅 another misunderstanding on my part. I have to click on the upper right icon (see pic) of a person with a check mark.

living 1000 years in a 25 - 35 year old’s body … needing to be careful of accidents. I wonder how it would feel to die after living for such a longer time.

ah the human imagination is such a weird thing

Something to remember: the Zen Buddhism concept of absolute value

“But because we do forget who is doing the creating and the reason for the creation, we become attached to the material or exchange value. This has no value in comparison to the absolute value of something as God’s creation. Even though something has no material or relative value to any ‘small I’, it has absolute value in itself. Not to be attached to something is to be aware of its absolute value. Everything you do should be based on such an awareness, and not on material or self-centered ideas of value.”

(Zen Mind, Beginner’s Mind)

#philosophy ?

Fyi: not a big deal, but my ‘notifications’ section has been weird for a few days … not showing all the notifications, or showing the recent ones … then later when I check they’re not there 😲

#asknostr #damus #introductions

oh boy. I wonder what type of body if it is even possible. Like living to 1000 in the body of like a 90 year old? Or … in like a perpetual “middle aged” body?

i think i know lol. I think i tapped on the zap icon, and it automatically zaps the default amt. (1000), even tho there are no funds in my account, and after a while that number goes away. So possibly just me misunderstanding.

whoaa this analysis. So everything to him is a self-serving narrative? Yikes … what about the Dragon space ship to raise money for St. Jude’s Children’s hospital… Maybe he does outrageous things to draw the attention and engagement, and then each individual then has to make their own choices of how to respond.

heh I was just journaling about being too critical of myself when I’m high, but specifically only critical of my activities on social media.

That Bruce Lee quote reminds me of a scene from the Owl House where the two witch characters have lost their powers and need to switch to drawing symbols in a language-like way.

Chat GPT as a journaling companion is quite nice. 😊

yeeeesssss … although I’m confused why my Coinos account doesn’t show any transactions occurring, even tho I saw some numbers by my ⚡️ and I also tapped someone else’s ⚡️

idk… if any ⚡️ were given, I don’t see it on my coinos page. I think I might’ve accidentally zapped you back 1000 cuz I didn’t set the default amount. 😴💤🥱 GN

I really hope this is done now. Switched from the Alby wallet to coinos … it does seem to be easier … wow what a wallet setup journey.

First, I asked chat GPT what wallets to use with Nostr. The ones it suggested (ex: Wallet of Satoshi) did not work either due to region (USA, NY), or phone (iOS), or was not actually compatible with Nostr (Speed, Strike, Muun).

So then I got the bright idea to see what Nostr recommends, which is how I wound up with Alby. But that one needs Alby Hub, and the free “diy” version apparently requires setting up a node.

So, finally - Coinos.

This felt like I was at work. 🤷🏻‍♀️

#introductions #damus #freedomtech #plebchain

it tends to be I feel that more consistently in digital places where pseudonyms are used, obviously? haha …

with in-person encounters, it really goes on a case by case kind of way … it could depend on each person’s current mood and mental state. But with online interactions, you’re pretty much only interacting when you are ready to or interested to, and usually around a specific topic that you are choosing …

when is individual voice valued and when does it feel like it’s not valued? (something I’ve been thinking about and discussing with my AI app).

I think it tends to feel more valued with social media, esp. decentralized social media.

The times when it felt not valued was in maybe some school settings and workplaces. When those places have power dynamics and a hierarchy.

This is important to me, because I had selective mutism as a kid … and I still have seen times when I don’t want to talk, and times when I do. Places where I don’t feel comfortable, and places where I feel more free.

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I get a ton of questions about my husband. As a somewhat public figure I suck at privacy, while he is a privacy maxi.

He’s my main editor, oversees support on my website, and yet quietly is like “nah, don’t want any attention.”

In 2021 when I went to a dinner/meeting at Saylor’s house, my husband dropped me off and then picked me up as my personal ride. To Saylor’s credit, he came out personally at night to make sure I was safe while I waited on the curb for a ride, as his only female guest that night and Miami at night can be challenging.

The next day my husband dropped me off at some VC event and my friend Elizabeth Stark was aware enough to be like “you got out of the front seat of that uber. It wasn’t an uber, was it?”

And I was like “No, that was my husband, lol.” He dropped me off at every similar event event that year (Ubers were hard to hire in 2021, amid pandemic constraints, so he rented a Camaro, since normal utility cars were sold out, and he drove me around in it to my various events and then wouldn’t enter them even though he could.

For years since then he does stuff like this. Touches events but purposely won’t attend.

We have a ton of pictures, but he doesn’t like them to be public, and allowed a 2022 vacation post, which I still use. Adding a second one here as a Nostr exclusive. The second ever public pic of him.

His first name is Mohamed, the most popular first name in the world, and yet hardly anyone knows his last name. Which is how he wants it.

He had dinner with Peter McCormack in Manhattan once, and then the only side event I ever got him to show up at was in Bedford at Peter’s CheatCode event. So Mohamed met Natalie Brunell, Preston Pysh, and a few other people there. And then went dark again.

In 2022 amid the bitcoin bear market capitulation depths while I was buying, he was like “So, how many do we have? Okay thanks for the breakdown, add way more here.” It’s up 500% since then.

When family members ask me about. Bitcoin, I’m like “well it’s this open source people can…” and then Mohamed intervenes and is like “She’s being polite. And also kind of her robotic retard self. You should buy a lot of it, here’s why.” Then proceeds to orange pill the entire extended family.

He watches some of my podcasts and knows a ton of people in both the bitcoin space and macro space, and then quietly is like “I’ll literally drive you there but then I’ll stay away, privately.”

He’s the GOAT at not drawing attention.

He also lies Nostr but doesn’t post here; or anywhere. He likes hearing updates though.

He unintentionally made himself as a meme by not posting publicly and being private. And yet if he saw it, embed be like “it’s ephemeral. Building a fitness facility is her gets direct sun. Need your input on whether it will meet our goals, since you optimize all these details.”

My favorite bitcoiner, who isn’t a bitcoiner.

I wonder if this is related to social anxiety or introversion … like being a quiet kid

oh why thank you, I’m actually not done with this one yet 😋 just posted it cuz it’s kinda rare to see colored pencil drawings, and also rare for a social media to allow posting photos in the comments (I think only threads and *some* subreddits have that)

Watched parts of the DAS, Digital Assets Summit talks … so weird. Emotional. A lot of very lofty things said … but so weird that those lofty things are actually possible.