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no gods no masters no borders no taxers skeptic and nonsense believer ✨πŸͺ· Κ…οΌˆβ—žβ€Ώβ—ŸοΌ‰Κƒ πŸ›πŸ«‚ #bave #jefffree #gsbam #samo

And I get so frustrated with myself because like if I can't remember where it is it obviously wasn't that important 😭

Permed my hair finally.

I truly love my natural hair, but that shit is THICK, I'm talking straight out of Africa, so the maintenance is too much for me to deal with while I'm still learning to braid my own hair.

Heres a speed run of me putting the relaxer in and the before/after of my hair once I rinsed it.

Right now I'm conditioning my hair and I will post pictures when I'm finished and styled.

#blackisbeautiful #hairstr #selfcare #haircare

https://video.nostr.build/1805347cb0400824d705cbcdff5ed8463268dd2c88ca7c6288882eaff94ea906.mp4

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amphetamine sulfate - it doesn't realy crystallise very well, at best it can be dried to a faintly yellowish, sweet smelling powder, most of the street amphetamine in europe comes in zip-loc bags or similar full of this damp off-white paste that usually people will then smear onto a mirror and agitate it, maybe hairdrier or something, until it is dry enough that you can sniff it

i'm sure taht if you took 10mg of xanax you'd be off with the fairies but i'm not used to these things and i took a single bar and drank a few vodka mixers and the night was a blur, and it really wasn't repeatable, i was completely vulnerable, and even though i didn't feel it, i knew it

gotta be careful with the whole family of diazepines tho... really bad to run out suddenly, and lowering the dose can be quite unpleasant, you literally have like epileptic fits, i've heard some nasty stories from junkies i knew over the years trying to use it to get through withdrawal and then - this one guy, he was stuck on the diazepam and decided to stop and less than half a day later he had a fit, smashed his head on the front of a car, and he said "the irony was that i stopped using heroin so i didn't lose my teeth from" or something like that? maybe he was on methadone actually, idk

anyhow, yeah, the drug scenes and chemicals and forms of administration vary widely... australia it was meth and heroin and injection and lots of yellow and white diazepam and nitrazepam, in europe this amphetamine paste, and injecting heroin and a bit of ketamine and PCP here and there, lots of amphetamine paste in the UK

oof man, some bad memories

BlessπŸ«‚ Thank you for sharing your experience.

I don't take them at the same time lol

I do feel a lot better. I just got up and did everything I needed to after my nap. NOW I can take a Xanax and work on some art.

I’m on 3mgs of Xanax a day now, it use to be 4 but it had been so long since I wasn’t on my meds my doctor lowered my dosage for now.

Even if I took them all at once I still remember everything lmao. (If I take nothing at all, I can’t remember a damn thing, hence the need for meds)

I don’t really get fucked up like other people do that’s why I never understood the β€œxandemic” here in the states.

Amphetamine paste? Is it like an actual paste you squeeze out of a tube? Or do you mix it? I’m so curious now lol I gotta do some research.

The delivery drivers don’t take bitcoin 😩

I gotta agree with nostr:npub1fjqqy4a93z5zsjwsfxqhc2764kvykfdyttvldkkkdera8dr78vhsmmleku , I use to shoot meth (5years sober now) and NEVER got sleepy like I do with amphetamine salts/adderall.

I usually take the adderall, take a nap, and then I wake up able to do anything and everything.

Even when I’ve drank an energy drink like monster or red Bull I get sleepy soon after.

The dopamine in my brain craves the overstimulation because of my nervous system is use to trauma.

If I only take a Xanax, I’m able to stay awake my anxiety is just dramatically reduced but I’m not productive in the ways I need to be.

But it happens every time for me, it’s common for people who have ADHD to get calm after taking their medication because the dopamine relaxes their brain.

The only thing I don’t like about my meds is that my adderall makes me SOOO SLEEPY right after I take it and then I get food aversion so it’s hard for me to eat (which my eating disorder loves.

It’s only day 3 I hope my other meds can help stabilize things.

PuraVida, good morning every pleb πŸ«‚πŸŒ…

Me after finally getting my meds

This is absolutely incredible, I remember seeing them in 2016 at voodoo music festival but never got this close.

I'm glad you got to experience this!