I considered quitting nostr.
I considered just creating a personal (real name) account and dropping this one.
I considered converting this one to my real name.
Ultimately I deeply fear rejection.
A deep sense of worthlessness.
Of feeling hated.
I've seen hate here pointed in my direction.
Having been told I "add no value" by a certain user, it caused a wonderful agony. For that I'm grateful.
Self hatred. The part of the ego that cannot be overcome, but must be embraced.
I've said some dumb stuff on this profile.
I also feel attachment to some profound moments I've recorded here. Even if it's just screaming into the void.
Oh what to do.
#asknostr
I've got two kids under 3, a full time job and a mother in-law.
I dgaf about what a relay is or does.
Make it easy to choose like vpns: add-block, malware, spam, porn...
We have two kids at home due to schools being under staffed. Teachers are sick... Mean time we're paying 30% more this year to last year for the kids' education while my pay risise was 5%
GFY, I'm staying home.
The feminine urge to exclude yourself from 50% of the population rather than going to therapy.
I cannot let go.
It's not me that can do the letting go.
Negative vibes are a poison. Avoid those who have not learnt to see their own beliefs for what they are. Self hatred.
Hey I'm following this hash tag. You're coming into my house with your pain story.
You wanted the attention. Here it is. Hello.
Everything's perfectly managed in the unborn.
Or GFY, whatever lady.
Have you awoken from the dream of separation?
It's because it's true. You never change. You never become "more". You are. The thought of you is not you.
"To be" anything is the illusion of a mind that has mistaken its fantasies for the real world.
Strike has made pretty much any other KYC platform obsolete imho
A wall of doubt.
An unfathomable chasm of fear.
A rage so primal it has no words.
There is no violence at its core.
Its before action.
Its before thought.
Unbearable ringing in my ears.
Nothing is happening.
The phrase "no one is going to save you" hits hardest when you realise, through direct seeing, that you dont exist. That you are literally no one. That we all are one and that we are all no one.
"No one" is all of us.
We're all on this rick together. We are this fucking rock. We are life as one.
There is nothing to save. We're already here.
Firstly, Thanks!
It worked but only after I removed the [" "] that come in the copied text.
Perhaps you could implement a quick check and removal of them from the string in a future update.
Cheers!
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If you’re not happy all the time, do you feel like you have a problem?
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Happiness is what remains when thoughts are seen for what they are and fall away.
It's our base existence. It's not a state or a point of view. It's when they too are seen as illusions.
I used to be an athlete at international level.
Now I'm older I have injuries I will never recover from but can only manage.
2024 has been a year where it all finally caught up to this body.
It was a gift.
Running again. Calisthenics. Yoga.
A lifetime of sport has given this body the ability to ramp up surprisingly quickly, even now in middle age.
Finally I can train without anger. Without ego.