can a disney movie influence a kid at a young age? i have an early probably 4 year old memory of Disney's little mermaid confronting her studly merman father. this scene stuck in my memory as something I would pretend with friends at school. I was conflicted as I wanted to be the mermaid and I was attracted to the merman father.

Could it be that all the princess disney movies could be confusing to male children trying to detach from mothers and attach to fathers?

if this is true, it would be doubly unlucky because I was not allowed to see Disney movies as a kid. I must have seen this scene at someone else's house or at school.

his theory about how a trauma or attachment to mother can cause a guy to be gay is intriguing. So i could be straight if i could just find where it all went wrong. in my case my mother was not anxious or attached. she did however complain to me about my father frequently. I have always excused this as my role in the family because I understood my father's obsessive tendencies with his work and emotional neglect of my mother through my own personality.

I was also the 3rd son in the family and 5 son in the broader structure. my mom was surrounded by athletic, hard-working men who were not to be found when child-care, housework was to be done. i was the "kitchen window son" looking out at the guys playing soccer in the yard. but someone had to help mom.

I don't think this is the cause of sexual preference as my sexual preference started probably around 4-5 with my earliest memories.

this therapist also mentioned that 30% of his patience probably suffer from OCD symptoms, even though it's 1-3% in general population. THis is a very interesting statistic to me because it's something that I'm confronting.

when i step back and observe my own behavior relating to my self-identification of "being gay"

1. it's an appetite which i can either indulge or deny.

2. indulging tends to look like an "obsession"

3. denying takes work but it has a silver lining of restoring a part of my self that wants to connect to men in a deeper friend way. "wait, i don't have to objectify a man sexually? really, this is so freeing"

according to therapist part of this excessive objectifying and "acting-out" is a counter-balance of the "good little boy" that gay men frequently hide behind. this is something i started recognizing as "not normal". there are plenty of straight men that objectify women, however this is also not good or desirable.

some things that stood out to me

1. boy has to detach from mother and attach to father at some age between 2-5

2. what the boy is attracted to is who he wants to be

3. narcissism/compulsive behavior play a part

4. no such thing as a stable monogamous gay relationship

I find much of what he says to be spot-on in my situation. where I am still trying to figure out is why did I fail to attach to father, and did I really fail to attach to my father.

after all, i had a dad that most kids could only dream of. he built an entire model train set that I loved, and he expanded it when he saw that I enjoyed it so much. He also helped me build a model boat, a model airplane. and he gave me precious basement space to build my own train set. if anything I was spoiled.

my older brothers were not bullies either. apparently the father has to make sure that he stands up for the younger son to make sure he is "affirmed" and "one of the guys" as i understand it.

i did get tickled a lot as a kid and it was like torture to me bc i would laugh uncontrollably but I don't think this had anything to do with it.

It's a pill to swallow to be called narcissistic. But why else do I tend to care so much about what other people think about me. being a people-pleaser at some point leads right around to being narcissistic manipulator of people's emotions so I can avoid the pain of confrontation.

being authentic and being a "disagreeable" male is going to result in conflicts. The idea of straight young men plopping down in a chair and being unconcerned of how they are perceived versus a gay guy being completely aware of how they look and what the impression they are giving off is.

I have met one man who throws himself around without appearing to care, but it does jive with my general experience of straight versus gay males. "Why can't i just stop caring about what people think", but then being repulsed in turn by a dude who clearly doesn't care what people think .

This is kinda a stereotype. there are plenty of very sensitive straight men and I'm friends with a few. they are absolute treasures as there's no sexual trickery.

digesting this info. not endorsing this 100% but it's thought provoking info for sure.

https://youtu.be/UJur1jDGlqE

the first note of the day is leaving me no quarter.

"growing heart's net worth" is a very wonderful concept

It's always sad when they fly inside, and they are too wild to understand you're trying to help.

2hoever made this Amethyst App should be so proud.

It's very beautiful. Twitter app looks so busy in comparison.

Amethyst is smooth and fast too.

we are moving in the right direction then...

By the time the solar system is getting too close to some other star, we'll be able to harness a tug boat starship to drag the sun out farther into space.

Just reread the thread... Are you suggesting that electrical grid looks like a macro computer and can be used to accelerate the planet thru space?

I think best bet for traversing space is using electrical/gravitation manipulation and also wormholes.

Is there any meaning in the waiting for him in the dark void.

I watched UFO videos for months and ended up disappointed that they are just demons driving flashy cars

I just had this same pat down,except there was an added pat on each of my pecs at the end (first time ever).

They were noticing my 10 pushups a day til 100k

No early Xmas presents

This week's Microstrategy call options. This riverboat gambler is wading in the river

Incredible what mold can do

It does sound romantic. It probably speeds up innovation to have an element of danger. Less precaution and more invention.

Move fast and break things.

and smoke next to the gunpowder

"The greatest danger was fire. Mi- chael Chevalier, a Frenchman who traveled in the West, was amazed at the carelessness he saw. "The Americans show a singular indifference in regard to fires," he wrote. "They smoke without the least concern in the midst of half-open cotton-bales, with which a boat is loaded; they ship gunpowder with no more precaution than if it were so much maize or salt pork, and leave objects packed in straw right in the torrent of sparks that issue from the chimneys." Chevalier added that the important thing seemed to be not the safety of people but to have steam- boats moving as fast as possible and at the least expense (Steamboats on the Mississippi)."

It's crazy to think how dangerous it was. The captains usually owned their own boats and tried to fit them out as expensively as possible...