Great, if my experience with being treated like a criminal for simply shopping online while using a VPN and an email proxy service is any indicator, this is going to be a nightmare… 😒 nostr:note1nfyn9egggk7qdsmtv05vmuawdydf243wtm5mknlyfmxllyjrhudqnkvlt9

who is selling? to anyone. at this point, why wouldya?

Be an autodidact

We don't have enough of us

Just realized I’m a moron sometimes. So the “native pear” I grafted into is actually a native peach. Oklahoma doesn’t have a native pear. I was so exideted to try grafting that I totally brain farted. That said, If I were a betting man, I’d say 2 of these grafts aren’t going to take.

Good to laugh at yourself 😜🤪🤣

#doh nostr:note1vev6flmlus47rwr90m0u99zt4zksuapqaevy6t2qarnlnyee3dnqx2tv0y

I haven't worn makeup in a decade in any public context. There was a bitcoin documentary that put some on me but I don't know if they aired it. Or maybe a brief moment. I don't know and don't care.

My husband often says I should wear makeup for special occasions. Which means he'd like to see it and I should practice more. I ignored this for years and he keeps reminding me, but this year I'm going to do better at it, for him. We have our 7-year anniversary coming up. I'm going to try to surprise him with it.

My argument previously was I can't be good at everything. If I'm going to run our main business then maybe it's fine if I'm not great at makeup. It's not that I don't have time, although that's a factor, but mainly I don't have mental bandwidth. I wear the same clothes, I don't wear makeup, I get the same haircut, and focus on finance and tech every day. When I'm alone for a season, separated by him due to travel, rather than figure out makeup I post too much on social media and write a 130k word science fiction novel manuscript (which in retrospective, he ends up really liking) to fill our time apart. So I'm like, "maybe makeup isn't me."

His argument, as a proper method to not insult his own wife, is that it would "be a shame to not ever dabble in make up", given how I could look in it.

Objectively it's a reasonable argument; there are plenty of iconic people that look totally different without makeup. His argument is that I should at least wear it sometimes. I've been meaning to give him that view for years but I keep putting it off. Years now.

But sometimes it's a character rather than a concept that brings us to an idea. Much like novels. It's about characters more-so than plot or worlds that wake you up to something.

So I see Kristi Noem at 53 with great makeup, looking amazing, getting sworn in as Secretary of Homeland Security.

All the politicians are thinking about her new position, but realistically myself and many other women are like, "fuck, that's my new 53 year old benchmark." She looks so good. Partially because she's attractive but also her makeup and hair are just so solid. I assume she'll be weak at the job but she'll look damn good doing it.

And so I think, "Well fuck, I hope I look half as good at 53 as she does. Maybe I can ignore this shit in my 30s but I have to figure it out by my 40s and 50s."

Anyway, that's my random vulnerable mental shit for Nostr.

Watching Star Wars 9 with my kids this weekend it seems to have fully made the transition from whatever Star Wars was ( western?) to a Marvel movie. Instead of telling a story about and for people, suspense is only sustained by more stuff going on onscreen. This is the first Star Wars that I actually feel uncomfortable showing my kids because of the creepiness of the emperor. Plus, I'm bored by it.

Timeline of events for the solar micronova.

Which one are you #gunstr

#memes #nostrmemes

no celestial transfers today

ha

i win

:confusedgirl_sm: We're getting pretty good sleet, the weather app says ice pellets 🤔, coming down now and maybe a few flurries mixed in. It's cold and I want to see the snow so it can warm back up ❄️🥶. #brrr #Texasthings

It really tears me on the insine. My dad was not around too much when I grew up and I always felt I did not matter for him. He was an entrepreneur who was always working. A real workaholic who would spend 12h a day at the office. According to his own words, he now owns 5 million in real-estate property. I always respected him for working hard and being successful.

A few years ago I got an idea for an IOT product and decided to spend every second available to build it. It took me one year of grinding to build the first prototype and manufacture first 1200 units of the product.

With the first version of the product I started a company and it was the first time my dad paid any attention to me. Needless to say, It felt good to have his attention and approval.

My dad offered to help me run the business. He was supposed to handle bookeeping, sales and customer support so I could focus on building and developing the product. He also gave me a 10k loan. I gave him 20% of the company because I tought he was really going to help me a lot. Initially he wanted to have 50% right there on the spot. In hindsight, that was a red flag.

Soon I get a call from the tax office. They cannot let us in goverments prepayment tax register because of my dad had some unpaid tax. The problem was that he is a part of the coverning body of the company. Only option is that he loses his right to represent the company. At the same time I hear he has borrowed 40k from my grandad. He is caught lying to me and customers many times.

At first I give him time to figure things out but after 4 months there is no improvement to the situation. I have been given a green light for a 100k bank loan to the business, but now they wont let me take it with my dad being on the board of directors. I ask him ro resign from the board and I revoke his rights to transfer money in the new bank that gave the loan.

My dad asks me to give him rights to trasfer money in and out. I decide to hold him from having access because I suspect him of not being honest with me. Eventually this escalates into a fight and I have to tell him I don't trust him enough. After that he wants the loaned 10k back. I pay him back.

After a while I notice our customers prefer to call me about everything even though I am not responsible sales or support. At this time, I start taking responsibility for most of the work he issupposded to do. At this time he is clearly not reaching out trying to find new customers. Oftentimes, he is not picking up the phone when existing customers call. I know this, because our existing customers tell me.

Around christmas my dad tells me to hire an accountant because it is too much work for him to do our bookkeeping. I see he stopped doing it after he his position in the board. I also notice he has done mistakes on purpose to cut the amount or work needed. I tell him and he says the mistakes don't matter.

I feel like my dad is not giving a shit about me again. Instead he is just fleecing me. I don't trust him at all anymore. I had hoped that working together would fix our relationship as a father and son, I honestly don't want him working for the company any more. Should I ask him to do the right thing to completely step off and return the 20% stake in the company?