Avatar
Jeroen Ubbink
765609c7ece4a9a5262ace318801e4798394a5908723ec7d4b48f841b488a3e9
Software developer, bitcoin enthusiast

Without struggle, there can be no strength!

That's the whole point of the boiling frogs method isn't it?

I think the timing is pretty good. There is ptobably less than 1% alive of the people who actually remember being in WW2. For others a war seems unimaginable, while there has always been active memories of war on anybody's mind and there have been very few people in all of the existence of Europe.

I've also stopped talking about it or trying to convince people that things are going in a wrong direction. They just think i'm crazy while i am not even going into how bad things might become, but mostly summing up why 1980-2000 was wildly different than 2000-2020. People still wave it away, like war in Europe cannot possibly ever happen again.

Anybody with a position in power will gladly abuse this docile behavior because they have loads of time to do whatever they please. Nobody is complaining and human capabilities to remember the past are not good enough to separate fact from fiction.

Yesterday was weird. I kept thinking I need to check on the dog in case she needs something. I went to her grave like 6 times even though logically I know she's not going to wake up and need me. My brain just kept prodding me since she has needed me so much for so long now (even to walk to do her business) and it felt like I was disloyal if I didn't sit by her grave.

Today the wind was blowing heavy, the winds of change.

Everything I rest my eyes upon in my house and outside, it seems like I'm seeing it for the first time. I actually think about what I should do about that thing -- clean it, move it, etc -- things that haven't caught my attention in years.

And all the "dog stuff" is being cleaned and packed into a big "dog stuff" box.... collars and leashes, toys, medicines, dog bowls, dog bed.

I did sleep last night, but today is still not normal. I'm getting through it.

I did even get some nostr work done, I finally got an annoying problem sorted, but the details aren't worth talking about.

In a way, as much as I loved my dog, she was really holding me back. Taking too much of my time. Taking far too much of my expenses for medicines and operations. I couldn't travel anywhere. My ability to focus deeply (needed for the kind of programming I do) had slowly deteriorated for a long time due to the interruptions she needed and also the ones she didn't. And so had my sleep deteriorated, especially near the end (turns out she had a lot of nighttime activity I didn't know about and needed me to pick up and hold up her rump so she could get to the places she insisted on smelling... at multiple times during the night... else the barking wouldn't stop).

It is just very different now without her, and I'm adjusting. 😢

nostr:nevent1qqsxckr2mk09fnym7qmacx7s3ft2yfg7aw7a53fnhlcgs5qurwfsm7gpypmhxue69uhkx6r0wf6hxtndd94k2erfd3nk2u3wvdhk6w35xs6z7qgwwaehxw309ahx7uewd3hkctcpypmhxue69uhkummnw3ezuetfde6kuer6wasku7nfvuh8xurpvdjj7nv6shn

Losing a great companion, be it human or animal, can invoke so much sadness.

I think you are dealing with it well though and people do things others consider weird when trying to deal with those feelings, while nothing really can make it go away except the passage of time.

Our dog died about 2 years after i left my parents' house. After that i have been visiting them every day for at least a month. While before i came by mostly every week.

About 2 years later when i was watching this pretty mediocre called "Marley and me" which also fearured a blonde lab i still had to cry very bad at the end.

Our dog was also in pretty bad health near the end. Could hardly walk and fell over constantly. Started bed wetting and pooping. Always giving my parents that super guilty "i'm so sorry" face when they woke up and found wet spots or some poop on her bench. So sad.

I hope you'll start feeling better soon.

Of course i was being sarcastic. I do like touching grass and the older i get the more i enjoy it but i don't think i would really want to live full Pandora style either. I think there's a good balance in between somewhere.

I dunno. It feels like engagement farming to me.

Just because you tag buzzbot all of a sudden people start saying stuff to try to win some sats.

No i don't think i really like buzzbot.

Everything blue and tail sex vs regular genetalia and being fat but with flying chairs and floating displays.. 🤔

I am slowly reading through "Think fast and slow" and everytime it makes me feel really dumb. I love it.

Battleropes comes in second just after pushing or pulling the sled 💀💀💀⚰️

Replying to Avatar Egge

Is there a market for attention? How can we make sure that people focus on the “right” things?

Organizations like nostr:npub10pensatlcfwktnvjjw2dtem38n6rvw8g6fv73h84cuacxn4c28eqyfn34f help developers focus on the (arguably/subjectively) right things, but is this a sustainable and stainable approach? I feel like the demand for shitcoin developers is higher than the demand for based-af bitcoin devs. What is our solve?

I hope slow and steady. Shitcoins will blow up sooner or later. Hopefully there will be transferable skills.

Damn, i've never found any so far. *Jealous*