Jesus fucking christ!!! I'M AUDHD. I'm just trying to figure out how to start very beginner minimal exercise because I'm really fucking exhausted and WEAK all the time. Did I mention I'm autistic AND have ADHD?! I'm lucky if I remember to EAT most days. And I'm supposed to figure all THIS SHIT out, just to deal with chronic fatigue?? I'M WIPED OUT JUST READING IT. https://cdn.nostrcheck.me/8086853eb6c54b1f3a7205f54f5f107816d01dc4bacf995412f923d9666ad9bd/82ad4511420dacc2590c5e6105df5bac3d5b180ba1440cf0870be5dd37ea9fbf.webp

Connections

Puzzle #7

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#connections #puzzle #daily #crossword

This is what it looks like when I'm writing / composing. Very ugly and bloody. 🗡️🩸🖋️☠️ https://cdn.nostrcheck.me/8086853eb6c54b1f3a7205f54f5f107816d01dc4bacf995412f923d9666ad9bd/94fa24915f023d36759ffe9710fc8b37a685a540b1d2f9ed48b5d0614400a4ec.webp

I may be autistic, but even I can tell when an old coot is asking why I shave my head just to be obnoxious vs someone who is actually digging it and curious.

I guess sometimes you just gotta have insomnia so the bridge that's been eluding you for ~2 yrs to finish a song can suddenly pop into your head like magic at 3am. 🙄

Shout-out to everyone who has left, and to the ones who will leave when they decide I'm too much. Or not enough. Shout-out to everyone who has an opinion on how I need to fix myself before I can be loved. Fuck y'all, you were wrong. I'm just fucking #autistic, and contrary to how y'all have made me feel about myself, that's OK. (2/2)

#autisticmusician https://cdn.nostrcheck.me/8086853eb6c54b1f3a7205f54f5f107816d01dc4bacf995412f923d9666ad9bd/0328e8c0cec21c23bce11598a309ccf7e73dee7d79156c5990314a1040283234.webp

So I missed World #Autism Awareness Day by about a week, but what the heck, shout-out to everyone who has treated me like a broken lazy waste-of-space too-needy too-sensitive freak throughout my entire life. (1/2)

#AuDHD #autismawarenessmonth #autist https://cdn.nostrcheck.me/8086853eb6c54b1f3a7205f54f5f107816d01dc4bacf995412f923d9666ad9bd/2cef01ef91bacacd9054b18d3a7cef7149a45dfe2df7a52745961cb0d6044f54.webp

So I missed World #Autism Awareness Day by about a week, but what the heck, shout-out to everyone who has treated me like a broken lazy waste-of-space too-needy too-sensitive freak throughout my entire life. (1/2)

#AuDHD #autismawarenessmonth #autist https://cdn.nostrcheck.me/8086853eb6c54b1f3a7205f54f5f107816d01dc4bacf995412f923d9666ad9bd/2cef01ef91bacacd9054b18d3a7cef7149a45dfe2df7a52745961cb0d6044f54.webp https://cdn.nostrcheck.me/8086853eb6c54b1f3a7205f54f5f107816d01dc4bacf995412f923d9666ad9bd/5cb6850ea6cdcf2404fbe03a17a201dec57dc6b3602c1e621557bb01544bc091.webp

1) This is beyond bullshit, this is straight up harmful.

2) You can't just... self-sacrifice your way out of depression. So many reasons, but anecdotally: I "help" people all day, and only the people who show gratitude in return fill my emotional tank. "Helping" doesn't automatically give you Feel Good, Moral Superiority cachet. If people are ungrateful wretches, and many are, trying to give and give more and more of yourself leads to burnout and worse depression! Martyrdom is not the opposite of or the antidote to depression. You know what is, if we insist on a one-size-fits-all cure? Connection. Not "charity" or "serving" but CONNECTION WITH AND COMPASSION FOR YOUR FELLOW HUMANS. nostr:note1tssduum38c9cw3cqw2zhfqx0g9e3jnsmcjl3fmqz0lpuyrkuhadsljxzh5

Existential and situational depression is very, very, very real. Not to mention, a person without many tangible resources is also very unlikely to have an emotionally supportive community.