I have not heard of these hawthorns will have to look into them

They’re related to apples and popular in China. Here are pics of my favorite Chinese hawthorn sweets, 糖葫芦 and 山楂条

I have a dandelion tincture that’s probably ready. I have never tried a vinaigrette. How long does it take usually for the infusion?

Kyra, we are just getting started. I am glad to have you along.

Btw just took a second look, are you making dandelion vinegar in your profie?

The Fall of Wedge. The Rise of Organics.

Tldr

My life is getting better i have found purpose beyond what my family provides but the lingering effects of not living my life for me still grabs me. Thank you for loosening the grip on my war.

Until I was 35 I was not living my life. I was living, trying to live up to, everyone else's version of me.

The result was a degree in fine arts, two amazing kids and a very understanding wife so I got lucky. But my life was a Minimum-Value Worker pushing hard to be a manager or someone who could be proud of my paycheck and in providing for my family.

When it became apparent that I was only to be an MVW it crushed me as I would not make the worlds goal for me. I sank with the weight of alcohol weed and depression.

It came together to form a bottom where I was a first-time blackout drunk with puke on my suit, my car, and my wife. That was almost 2 years ago. I think I just had my last drink recently and coffee and processed food is next on the list.

The farm. I read “Rich Dad Poor Dad” in my teens I never met someone who could model it so it was a dream. Then I saw an opportunity, that I wanted. A farm to give me something to be proud of, to work on and build that provides for my family. And so it starts and not even a full year in I can see the momentum starting to build.

I still carry the weight of old Dan, I don’t like saying yes as it brings responsibility. I hate responsibility to other people. It was never something I chose, it was always delegated. I feel even though I am an adult I had to do many things that I had no heart for, or else. It crushes me some days usually when the shoulda have started, procrastination is a curse. I should have said this, called this person, put in for this. It all feels like it's not for me but for them.

When the shouldas don't plague me I find the “meaning crisis” does. What do I want to do? How? Why?

I know the answer is my kids, wife, the farm. It doesn’t make the feeling any better though. So I go out to the farm, on my own to be alone.

I found a group that supports me and pushes me like I have never felt. Thank you each of you have put more in my energy than you know. Don't stop, I can't.

Thank you

Thank you! I was looking at simply starting with btc core on an old laptop. We'll see, thanks for your input.

May i ask what kind of setup you use? Umbrel, start9, etc?

Good morning nostr, getting a slow start on this sunday morning. Its chilly outside, and i'm sippin my coffee as i think about the day ahead. We'll be heading to church a little later, then i'll need to start cleaning the bnb cabin sometime today. Right now i'm watching a BTC Sessions video on how to set up my own btc node, so that's what i'm looking into. Yall have a great Sunday nostr friends, and remember that today is a gift. #coffeechain #grownostr #bnbstr #homesteading

collage #artstr

title: Yay, yay, bicycle

Trying to figure my way around Primal on desktop to decrease my use/dependence upon a smartphone. It was the more reasonable thing to do (vs. using a hammer upon my iPhone).

I'm also looking into a separate camera. If you have a recommendation for a small one that takes great pics, lemmeno.

Is anyone here living life without a smartphone? I want to learn from you 👇

#grownostr

As for which software I like better, I like the one with better support, which IMO is start9.

GM nostr. Question -

I'm thinking of buying or putting together a small computer/server to be a dedicated node and upgrading from my raspberry pi node that's been chugging along nicely for 4 years without fail but its getting a little maxed out. My first thought is buying a used Mac Mini to accomplish this easily and efficiently. No funds will be kept on this node. What are people's favorite node setups for high performance and longevity?

Also interested in prebuilt server/node projects such as Start9 or Umbrel's dedicated servers. What's your favorite or least favorite?

Really hoping to jump on the FutureBit Apollo II train once that's available but may be a bit by the sounds of it.

Max Brooks' World War Z is one of those great books I've read several times. It has a unique and immersive storytelling style I've not read before. My fav being the web of perspectives and experiences of the characters that made the fictional world incredibly real.

Might even be a good basis for foretelling how shit people can be and how good they can be when they're desperate to survive.

One of my favorite artists, someone I was raised on, is Marvin Gaye.

This kid Jalen Ngonda sounds identical to him. Worth a listen