the moment you realize you don’t need more motivation, more information, or another “biohacked” version of yourself is quite unsettling because all you need subtraction. you need silence. you need to stop rehearsing who you think you should be. most people don’t burn out because “life is hard” blah blah blah. they burn out because they NEVER stop performing. they carry identities that no longer fit, habits that once protected them, beliefs borrowed from systems that were never designed for human nervous systems. letting go feels like death because in a way, it is. but underneath the collapse is relief. space. breath. the body remembers how to settle. clarity returns without effort and slowly, life stops feeling like something to survive. it becomes something you inhabit again.

Most people don’t lose their health dramatically. They trade it away. Late nights for productivity. Convenience and shit processed junk for nourishment. Stimulation for rest. Then, one random day the mirror feels unfamiliar and they search for biohacks, pills, shortcuts. Health got buried under habits that once helped you cope. Restoring vitality isn’t this sexy quick thing. It’s repetitive. Honest. And sometimes it can be “boring”. YET slowly, posture changes. Skin clears. Thoughts slow. You return to who you were before compensation.

You don’t just “date” a person.

You quietly merge calendars, grocery carts, screen habits and stress responses.

If they eat real meals, move their body, build something meaningful and can sit without a phone for five minutes, life feels lighter.

If not, you’ll feel it… daily.

Chemistry is fun but shared daily habits are what ACTUALLY last.

You can't run away from pain...

so change your relationship to it.

Normalize saying NO without needing to over-explain yourself.

If someone is offended by your boundaries, that's their problem. The best weight you'll ever lose is the weight of other people's opinion of you.

Christmas dinner is just a social experiment: how many inflammatory foods can one table hold before someone starts talking politics, vaccines, or why you “look healthier but weird.” Pass the gravy. And the deep breathing through it all.

All I want for Christmas is sunlight, no more chemtrails, good sleep, a calm nervous system, and the ability to eat a cookie without spiraling into a health identity crisis.

Wish you a merry Christmas. Hydrate with minerals, be a silly goose, and touch grass tomorrow.

The holidays are wild. People will spend three months stressed, broke, under-slept, and overstimulated… just to give each other plastic objects that end up in a drawer by New Year’s. But yeah, I’m the crazy one.

Nothing like Christmas to remind you health is optional when surrounded by cookies, seed oils, and relatives asking why you don’t drink anymore. I’ll be in the corner chewing on raw cheese, explaining why God is everywhere, why tap water turns frogs gay, all while pretending this is “normal” behavior.

Not enough “biOhAcKeRs” & health influencers talk about “Boredom-Maxxing” and doing absolutely nothing.

Sitting there. Standing there. Eyes closed. Eyes open. No doing. Just being. HUGE reset on motivation, energy levels, mood, contentment, and overall way of life. Do no thing

If you feel overstimulated and under-rested, it’s not “you.” It’s bright lights, cold air, deadlines, screens, travel, and relationship chaos. A simple routine fixes EVERYTHING: morning light, evening red light, warm meals, sauna, slow walks, 3 breaths before food, more yin time, and letting conversations stay fun instead of confrontational.

Lift weights.

Learn to fight.

Read books.

Learn to write.

If you want to optimize, don’t do it for success. Do it for your nervous system. That’s the prerequisite. You can’t enjoy anything if you don’t have inner peace.

Protein bar (brick of raw aged gouda)

The masculine urge to build enough wealth so I can walk into every home I love and quietly remove EVERY LED blue-light bulb, replace them with warm incandescents, fix their sleep & lower their stress without explaining circadian biology and watch everyone feel 1000% better while thinking “huh, must be a coincidence”

Goodbyes after the retreat are always some of the most difficult moments

Because being together in a like minded community is so rare these days

You never know when those bonds and memories will be made again since we are all living our own lives and on our own path

But as someone once said, don’t cry because its over, be happy that it happened.

Affirm with me now (out loud & proud, holding authority in your tonality for maxx-law-of-attraction alignment):

WHY DO I HAVE RELENTLESS ENERGY?

WHY DOES MONEY FLOW TO ME?

WHY IS MY LIFE FILLED WITH LOVING ABUNDANCE?

WHY DO I RECEIVE EXACTLY WHAT I NEED BY GOD & THE UNIVERSE?

Blue light?

Chemtrails?

EMFs & 5G?

Microplastics?

Social isolation?

Inflammatory ‘foods’?

Experimental 💉 over the past years?

The feminist “I don’t need no man” movement?

Toxins in our environment, like glyphosate?

Lack of quality men?

Lack of quality women?

I think it's a mixture of everything.

The fertility crisis will be one of the biggest economic disasters we've ever seen on this planet.

I believe we are just at the cusp of this.

I've helped hundreds of clients in my career do the natural things to boost fertility levels & passionate financial freedom, so that they can have beautiful, healthy, stress-free babies.

Curious to hear your thoughts?

What are you seeing?

Those bright blinding LED headlights can burn into oblivion.

Bring warm incandescents / halogens back!! Who’s with me?!

Women in winter need warmth, minerals, stable fats, and MAYBE (just maybe!) a break from the “girlboss” birth control hustle. Raw honey, uncooked meat, broths, citrus, gentle dance… THIS is how the feminine thrives. Not five shots of espresso & a 14-tab browser of corporate 💩

Flipped through old art magazines.

A volcano on one page with some gnarly eruption. Check. Flip. Flowers with softness, vibrant colors and blooming. Check.

So I grabbed the watercolors & pencils, sat with my sister at the dinner table, and let my wild psyche leak onto the page.

No goal and no judgement for my “accidents.” Just presence and conversation. AND ethereal music gently playing that made the whole experience quite psychedelic.

10/10 recommend as a nervous system reset (way better than any standard American therapy).

Especially when shared in stillness with someone you love.

Cultivate an eye for aesthetics. Raw, high vibrational material aesthetics — away from fast fashion sludge. Life force is more than what meets the eye. It’s the life force frequency within the matter.

Cotton. Linen. Hemp. Wool. Leather. Toss the polyester petrochemical rubber poo poo.

The same person who says raw meat will kill you will drink a soda with 40 grams of corn syrup, synthetic colors, and chemical preservatives. Bacteria aren’t the enemy. Industrial food is. Eat raw, eat real, eat like humans have for millennia.

Admitting when you were wrong is a beautiful thing

I used to obsess over every bite. No nuts, no greens, no grains… because some health guy said so. It drove me mad.

My gut didn’t heal from restriction, it healed when I stopped fearing food and tuned into what felt right for me.

Now in Europe, I savor a damn good chocolate croissant, walk the streets, and feel more vibrant than ever.

And blue light after dark? It’s fine occasionally too. Get out of your own way. LIVE without being so critical on yourself. Flexibility & sovereignty = VITALITY.

Incredible sunny stay in Corfu, Greece the past 10 days.

Just landed in Prague, Czech for the next 4 days until another nomadic trip to Austria.

Anything fun around here to ‘czech’ out?

They’re in 60%+ of fast fashion, leeching microplastics into your skin, blood, and the ocean. These synthetic threads vibrate at 0–15 Hz, literally dimming your field. Low vibe.

Avoid at all costs polyester, nylon, and acrylic. They’re cheap, toxic fabrics made from petroleum.

I wear organic cotton (150 Hz), linen (5,000 Hz), and wool—materials that breathe style.

They don’t just look good… they feel like you’re wrapped in ancient codes.

Fast fashion contracts your aura. Conscious clothing expands it.

The more I sun my full body during the day, the deeper I sleep at night. It’s magic. It’s circadian biology.

UV + infrared light boosts serotonin (which converts to melatonin later), balances cortisol, and resets your internal clock. Real light = real rest.

I’ve chosen to go the past 3 weeks with zero caffeine.

As an avid buttered, heavy-whipping-cream, raw honey dolloping coffee enthusiast, this was quite interesting. But I’m holding true to it to test out my physiology, nervous system & mindset.

My report:

- feeling at least 20% more presence in daily motions (less rushed/antsy eyes)

- sleeping & dreaming deeper (even though I’ve always capped caffeine by 2pm, and I’ve never had that troubling of sleep throughout life)

- waking up more dopamine-balanced and less go go go-y

- meditation is significantly easier

- feeling more hydrated & naturally energized & joyful all day

- less cravings (surprisingly)

- realized coffee is just a normalized version of cocaine for 93% of people

- depressed (I sure do miss the flavor. Yes, I could get quality Swiss water decaf, but ehhhhh)

If you’ve been enjoying coffee daily for some time — I highly encourage you to take a step back and cycle off. It can broaden your lifestyle perspectives.

This does more for your health than:

Mouth taping & ice face baths

$300 IV drips of glutathione

Meditation apps

Hyperbaric oxygen chambers

Overpriced whoop/oura rings

Red light all over your body

NAD+ infusions

$400/month supp stacks

Cryotherapy chambers

12-step morning rituals

https://m.primal.net/RFTd.mp4

Bored and stuck in scroll mode with your group?

Try this instead: grab some paper, markers, pencils, pens, whatever.

Each person draws one random squiggle or shape.

Then pass it to the next, everyone gets a minute or two to add onto it.

Keep rotating until it transforms into a hilarious, layered creation straight from the collective imagination.

No rules, no pressure.

Just creativity and weird extensions of everyone’s mind.

Play some music in the background. Chat a bit. It’s hilarious what comes out. 😂

If your phone isn’t on “Do Not Disturb” 24/7 and you’re still letting social media ping you all day…

are you actually present, or just pretending to be?

Happy Sunday & salutations to all the people who woke up without a hangover!