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JayByte
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Software Engineer. I love slow/async life, privacy, freedom, nature, pantheism and art. Nostr relay fork: https://gitlab.com/jbyte777/nostr-rs-relay-x Tutorials on programming: https://medium.com/@jzx777 PGP: 6D12 369B 03ED 0C5C 835B F71F 8945 685A 7F70 B06E

Hah. These bots never change: "dear friends", small quotes with shallow meaning. Classics...

P.S. Unfortunately, there are still retards who think that you can build good things by forcing cohesion between people.

Thank you! ❀️

I'm safe. Though having very stressful days. I drank a bit of whiskey for this xD

Java was just very popular among newbies back then. I know him IRL and I studied with him in the same university. At the first grade of uni when I met him, I was junior dev who just finished one year of working at small local company. I never coded in Java back then, but in JavaScript, Python and some PHP. Probably we matched by shared interest in programming, Eastern philosophies and by some degree of a fact that he's vegetarian. I was not vegetarian and am not. Though I tried go veg for 3 years straight prior to the first date year, to find an "inner peace" in chronic depression while lacking F things.

What did you share in common with your (former?) friend?

Just broke up with a "friend" who wasted my attention on pseudo-philosophical discussions and was indirectly threatening me with a possibility of hard physical damage through poetic mentions. I asked him to be clear in his questions but he still rejected it with arcane quotes. Then he completely deleted our dialogue. Two months ago he indirectly threatened me with AI deepfakes. In December of 2025 he offered me creative collaboration without clear agenda/idea (or at least offer a channel where it can be discussed clearly). Even tho we were friends.

In the previous year I knew intuitively that something was wrong in our relationship. We made one small real project on which I tutored him. In 2020 I also tutored him on another collaborative Java project with depth of programming patterns. However, he lacked genuine interest and consistency and he abandoned his learning with no useful or creative/interesting results in pet projects. He could not even consciously admit what were the problems in his path, why he even needed to start programming at all. Then after failure he just jumped to producing AI "art" with no original value or effort in sharing it. With all that he was not even bothered by a fact that I have autism spectrum disorder and I needed to put in more effort in understanding cues than so-called "normies". But I needed to confirm my clues.

I have known him for 6 years 😞️

I trust my friends like all people do.

#blog #relationship

Happy New Year! πŸŽ„οΈπŸŽ‰β­οΈπŸŽοΈβ€οΈπŸŽ‰πŸ•ŠοΈπŸŽοΈπŸ’œοΈπŸŽ‰β„οΈβœ΄οΈ

I've written about it yet in my Christmas&New Year congratulation post

Merry Christmas! πŸŽ„ 🎁

Thank you very much! This track feels like it tells a story of the Universe. Also I listened to other Blablarism tracks. They are denser in sounding patterns than chilling "Boards of Canada". Love them!

Merry Christmas πŸŽ„οΈπŸŽ‰β­οΈπŸŽοΈβ€οΈπŸŽ‰πŸ•ŠοΈπŸŽοΈπŸ’œοΈπŸŽ‰β„οΈβœ΄οΈ

I hope it's more interesting, prosperous and open than what Max Caulfield was supposed to do πŸ™οΈπŸ±οΈ

I'm not scared and happy to share my thoughts on 2026 year publicly. This year was the most nervous and harshest since 2020. Poverty, uncertainty and hardship of finding a job with which I can live more than a slave with the only end. Several doubts if I do thing in right and optimal way in big and hard tasks without certain boundaries in a legacy system. While I was doing these things, my motivation was bumpy, sometimes going to extremes of "I won't do job today, it's completely worthless" and "I can implement this right and quickly because it's very fun and complex". Several electric blackouts, rent price increasing, eshurt blockades. When these waves combined into polycrisis moments, I went to think that my life is completely worthless. But every time I was close to the darkness, it felt that the Angel woke me up. Since this I have released that life still has meaning, until you literally has nothing to pursue your own path for your credo/(para-)ego. That's also why open communities and personalization simultaneously matters, like what I have found in Nostr. Thank you very much, guys! You are cute, cool, smart, strong and kind! You post interesting stuff valuable for learning.

However, the journey was interesting for me. I became more like a cat person, sleeping longer hours per day (siestas for warm months and longer monophasic sleeps in colder months). I has fallen in love for playing chess with myself. Sometimes lucid dreams happened with which did like watching and acting in episodes. I has gained clearer understanding from software practice in why freedom is different from anarchy, why harmony and love is different from obedience and complete passivity. It is a time when even autistic person like me needed to break a doubt wall towards more sociability and integrate it with existing logical, mechanistic, probabilistic, fuzzy thinking styles. I started to maintain my own relay, modified it to make Nostr more interesting and prosperous. Kinda meta-game.

Merry Christmas and Happy 2026 year! I wish you peaceful, fun and interesting 2026 year. Make handcrafted stuff, make open source, self-host Nostr relays, your sites and AI models, participate in discoveries, keep your peace and curiosity. Only all the gods of the Universe know what is right, starting from the lowest levels and going further in infinitely open nature towards love. Time to extend (meta-)thinking to emergentism and multivariate/open reductionism. Forgot FOMO and cons retardation, chill, have a fun and do right thing =^.^=

P.S. Remember SOPA, PIPA and ACTA back in 2011-2013. They were threatening shared media and then the entire Internet. They did not happen...

Not in the same way tho. Compilers are mechanically deterministic and they replace very dumb copy-paste work. AI is probablistically deterministic. I see it mere as an enhanced search engine, prototypes and dialogue minion

(this was an irony given AI brief review and your previous advocacy for "AI will replace programmers")

Utopia is ultimative. It relates to your complete trust to a teller of narrative. For me the Plato's utopia is not new, Western/IE civilizations already experienced its image in different forms of feudalism and dictatorships. So I recently fall for buddhism and individual microcultures which are more interesting for modern state of things.

I still see many posts which fail to understand an essence of polycrisis: sorta "we need revolution", "we need to peacefully disobey", "we just need new coin/tool X which enhances privacy" etc. No, this time won't be like past times. They can still employ AI, IoT surv. even when ordinary people will struggle with access to Free Global Internet, they can enforce people to work harder for less with combination of this plus retardy think tanks. Polycrisis is exactly an antagonist to diversity and dynamic, fundamentally non-deterministic nature of evolution in open systems. Best you can do is copying <<>> behavioral patterns and do better than them, including making new stuff for Nostr with your own relays, glue protocols etc. (that's why dying civilizations always want to increase wealth inequality, worsen education and medicine and tighten surveillance). The thing is that they see entire world as closed system and try to convey this meme in different forms, including pseudo-scientific speculations on nature of Universe.

2026 will be even more interesting**

Wax toys made on my birthday from hot liquid candle wax

The base and octagram icon were generated with the AI Fursona generator which uses SD prompts: https://perchance.org/furry-ai

I've never thought that magical thinking will be once called "vibe thinking" xD

#memeΒ #memes

#newepochΒ #2025Β #art

I periodically laugh from absolutized linear-logical thinking of some CEOs in a way like: "if this worked for X, then it will work for Y". For example: "if regular and strict schedule worked for factory workers, then it should work for software engineering professionals". "If on-site work is necessary for factory and land workers, then it's necessary for all workers (including software engineers)". The thing is that generally you can't predict future events and results based solely on past experience, which is even a classic example of pulling an owl onto a globe (though past experience is a good bias). Software engineering requires different cognitive-energetic load than linear factory working. I notice it for myself and when I mentor junior developers. Software engineering does not need commute to be performed efficiently (commute even contributes negatively to it). And I know that there are another sides of forcing on-site work and time tracking, for example. But they don't benefit in terms longer than several days. And this particularly raises a question on sanity of forcing on-site work. Deciding costs for SWE employs different models and strategies than for linear working. For this reason probably we can't automate even coding to so-called AI. AI helps with boilerplates but this is enough.

#blog #thoughts #thinking #softwareengineering #work

I had a weird dream. I saw an old interface of DeviantArt. This good ol' and cute greenish thing. All the website had it. I miss it. I miss good ol' Instagram with its quirky and cozy interface and couple of creative hipster guys with vibes of true green economy. I miss times when "diversity" meant a variety of cool, cute, creative and free things. Not that stinky, weak, jealous and stupid clown garbage...

#blog #thoughts #nostalgia #ergodicity #diversity

Coz main purpose of encapsulation is in dealing with too much load on combinatoric complexity which if increased too much could lead to something like God Object.