this podcast speaks well to how I feel about christianity, and my frustration with the forms of it I grew up with

#christian #theology

https://youtu.be/q8VEa-OEz9w?si=FuXYvrfXl-ast1ut

fun fact about me: I was homeschooled and technically didn't finish high school

yeah no I get how it works lol, and it's not like I haven't seen it all before. I spent my teenage years on 4chan, I'm desensitized. it still disappoints to see so much racist nonsense and random homophobia and transphobia on the global feed. looking forward to more specialized relays I guess, idk

i don't mind insults, people can insult me all they want. i'm talking about how it's hard to avoid seeing hate, makes it hard to have faith in humanity (and i'm already a bit of a nihilist) seeing how eager so many people are to use their freedom of speech to make others feel unwelcome and narrate their own supremacy. kinda reads as hypocritical and self-defeating, to me

i barely sleep. i'm basically nocturnal

agree with this, also kinda bummed out by all the bigotry and slurs tbh lol, even though i fully expect it from anything 'censorship resistant' like nostr

nostr:nevent1qqswrduwzrv9tl8ysge75ye265t6qqseprne7q38epfjlxx6lhmmkgcpz3mhxue69uhhyetvv9ujuerpd46hxtnfdupzqqwxkaeshujec53p770zw5eyhtxdrmtvqqk8e7jpwmg5udf6dsecqvzqqqqqqykyz0gw

"Remember those who are in prison, as though you were in prison with them; those who are being tortured, as though you yourselves were being tortured." Hebrews 13:3, NRSV

"Your Honor, years ago I recognized my kinship with all living beings, and I made up my mind that I was not one bit better than the meanest on earth. I said then, and I say now, that while there is a lower class, I am in it, and while there is a criminal element I am of it, and while there is a soul in prison, I am not free." Eugene Debs, at his sentencing for sedition, September 18, 1918

i don't disagree, but useful doesn't automatically mean good

i now have political reasons for being skeptical of money, but even when i was a kid i hated receiving gifts or cash for my birthday and i've been asking people not to give me stuff for most of my life (despite the fact that for the few years when i was able to be employed, i gave away most of my disposable income, feeling too guilty to spend it on myself). i guess my politics to some extent are just an excuse to indulge my childhood intuitions, which i've retroactively propped up with a philosophical and moral framework that nobody else seems to take seriously. lol.

i never much cared for money tbh. it's a mechanism of social control, and i don't trust decentralized control any more than i trust centralized control

Sources from the book:

https://www.salon.com/2014/05/28/elliot_rodger_and_the_nra_myth_how_the_gun_lobby_scapegoats_mental_illness/

https://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-11911373/Trans-Nashville-school-shooter-appears-eerie-college-graduation-video-smiling.html

https://www.nytimes.com/2022/05/28/us/politics/nra-convention-guns.html

G. Thornicroft, “Danger or Disinformation: The Facts About Violence and Mental Illness,” in Shunned: Discrimination Against People with Mental Illness (Oxford, UK: Oxford University Press, 2006), 125–49

V. Rossa-Roccor, P. Schmid, and T. Steinert, “Victimization of People with Severe Mental Illness Outside and Within the Mental Health Care System: Results on Prevalence and Risk Factors from a Multicenter Study,” Frontiers in Psychiatry 11 (2020): 932

H. Stuart, “Violence and Mental Illness: An Overview,” World Psychiatry: Official Journal of the World Psychiatric Association (WPA) 2, no. 2 (2003): 121–24; G. Thornicroft, “People with Severe Mental Illness as the Perpetrators and Victims of Violence: Time for a New Public Health Approach,” Lancet Public Health 5, no. 2: (2020): e72—e73

"When Elliot Rogers shot and killed six people in Isla Vista, California, in 2014, Rogers’s Autism was presented by news outlets as a contributing cause. Autism was yet again blamed (along with transness) in the 2023 shooting at the Covenant School, just outside Nashville. At an NRA conference held shortly after the 2022 mass shooting at Robb Elementary School in Uvalde, Texas, gun advocates echoed that 'evil' people and mental illness were the true cause. By explaining mass shootings as a phenomenon of mental illness rather than one of hopelessness, hatred, and easy access to guns, the NRA managed to effectively distance itself from holding responsibility for the ongoing crisis. And by linking mental illness and disability with violence, they managed to worsen the stigma that already leaves so many neurodivergent people lonesome and disaffected."

"From empirical research, we know that people with mental illness are far more likely to be in danger of violence than to be violent ourselves. We also know that mentally ill folks suffer from theft, sexual assault, battery, and police violence at extremely elevated rates. Nearly half of all people with mental illnesses experience at least one of those acts of violence in their lives. On the flip side, only 3 percent of all violent crimes are committed by someone with a mental health diagnosis."

Devon Price, Unlearning Shame: How We Can Reject Self-Blame Culture and Reclaim Our Power

well, I'm not a very social person, and I tend to be very selective about who I follow or interact with on social media (and I have been on social media since I deleted my twitter over a year ago!) I appreciate it and I'll follow for now, but idk how much I'll actually communicate or do stuff lol

this morning I started David Bentley Hart's translation of the New Testament. before last year, I haven't read the bible since I was a teenager. I read through the "inclusive bible" translation, finishing it up last night. it was interesting and new, and I want to read other translations that deviate from the king james version I was mostly exposed to growing up

uhhh, philosophy and poetry, feminist and anarchist theory, extreme horror/splatterpunk, recently some occult stuff lol, also both christian and pagan theology/religious stuff. I guess I spend more time reading than just about anything else

I'll follow more people if I see anything I'm interested in. I don't care much for bitcoin lol, but maybe I'll change my mind eventually idk

welp. seems that there's very little on nostr that interests me. guess I'll keep to myself, same as always online and off

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=fIY64norZqY&pp=ygUVc2tpbiBvZiB0aGUgbmlnaHQgbTgz

nostr is confusing, no idea what I'm doing :/