sorry i deleted the post impulsively before i noticed you replied lol
wait it hasn't been ages, it's been two weeks. time is fake and nothing really happens
need to get my foot caught in a bear trap so i have an excuse to gnaw my own leg off
at least there's bots in my replies to make me feel less alone :/
nobody cares about me, and that's good because being cared about feels awful for me, but the sense of isolation feels like it's killing me sometimes
the spam on nostr has gotten way worse since i wasast here :/
i don't want to exist, but i don't want to die. i hate everything but i refuse to give up
social media sucks, i deleted most of it but i miss it. which is why i keep coming back to nostr, even though i kinda feel like it's not much better. it's like the least bad option
always tired at all times
Topophobia by Dylan Trigg, it's a philosophical exploration of anxiety and its relationship to the phenomenology of space. #bookstr
free speech absolutists, learn the difference between action and passion. speaking is an action, receiving speech is a passion. because one is active and the other is passive. language is a material force consisting of actions and passions, bodies affecting and being affected. free speech comes with responsibility: the actions you take and the passions you produce in others can bring retaliations from others, actions from them which produce unwanted passions in your own body. think before you act
control is not a universal need
do not understand. understanding is the ultimate form of submission
there's no point in anything is there
putting out a hit on myself then using a time machine to go into the future and make out with the hitman after he kills me
if wilhelm reich was right there must be huge accumulations of orgone in government and military buildings. which might explain a lot tbh
alcohol doesn't mix well with the medication I'm on. but I'm drinking anyway. it's not deadly or anything. I'm so fucking miserable all the time and nobody cares
highly trained idea assassin murders new insight in the halls of a university to prevent it from becoming doctrine of a terrorist cult. however similar insights dwell in the imagination of a small child in Missouri and will soon lead to disaster. the horrors were not prevented only delayed