Nostr Web Client

I lost my temper this morning

Really shouted

Threw a bag at the floor

Stormed off

As I start to mellow down, everything I’ve learnt lately points to the fact that it’s my problem to solve, my issues, my trauma, the stories I tell myself, cycling around my brain, causing friction

So where next?

Well, on reflection, it’s healthy to get upset, to be angry, to flare up, to show emotion, life is not an even keel

But I have to take responsibility

I am a creator of my reality

So it’s time to tweak it

To craft it

To focus on what I want to create

For the collateral damage, cause this morning, I’m sorry, I forgive myself, and everyone involved

Tomorrow will be better

Reply to this note

Please Login to reply.

Discussion

SuiGenerisJohn 1mo ago

I felt this one brother. Godspeed.

BitcoinSandy 1mo ago

Don’t give yourself a hard time. We’ve all been there. The main thing is be open with those who are with you so they can understand. Especially if children are around. Vital to chill and show love 🤙

Chris 1mo ago

🌱🪬💓🧬

Kip Ashlynn 1mo ago

Good on you for taking a moment to reflect and correct the behavior, good luck friend 🫂

The Wrathful ₿uddha 1mo ago

Anger is one of the most destructive of the negative emotions. The trick is to catch it before as a thought before you loose control. Easier said than done of course!

https://njump.to/nevent1qqsyt3stz2cfjjrh9p7eglmf0k0cfnr9w03zdnavdzavfn873dmr8zcpz4mhxue69uhhyetvv9ujuerpd46hxtnfduhsygy82xv8jmpnw76lp28t2emmdj5sn58khhutc7356cyf22dcctezlupsgqqqqqqslhjfe2

Nymmo 1mo ago

Pain and joy. One and the same.

Be carefree and enjoy this play we call life.

If holding Bitcoin makes you stressed out it's time to stop buying. Time to forget you even own any and check back in 10 years.

If Bitcoin goes to zero at least we tell ourselves that out of principle we tried what we could to fix this broke and unjust system. At least we put our own money on the line to stand for a better future.

Jake Woodhouse 1mo ago

In this instance I wasn’t referring to Bitcoin interestingly

Relationships in my life, plus some poor time planning, and boom insulted

Nymmo 1mo ago

Sorry to hear that mate.

All we can do is wake up tmr and try again.

Treecjd 1mo ago

Hey perv

Brisket 1mo ago

You are THE creator of your own reality.

On some level, you chose it all.

Be discerning.

Jake Woodhouse 1mo ago

How do you interpret “be discerning”?

Ie watch where you point your attention?

Brisket 1mo ago

Nobody should put your interests above their own. Nobody has a right to your energy/attention/resources. Give them freely & without conditions but do it because you choose to & not because you're asleep.

Do nothing out of a sense of duty or obligation & do nothing out of fear, greed or guilt.

For me it's about listening to my heart. What emotions are flowing through me? Why did I get that uneasy feeling? Your heart & conscious mind should work together.

It's not about judgement, it's about identifying the divergence & then choosing how to respond.

Jake Woodhouse 1mo ago

“Do nothing out of a sense of duty or obligation & do nothing out of fear, greed or guilt.”

As a hunch, 50% of my decision making in the past was driven by one of these

Nice insights

Lots of work still to be dine!

Brisket 1mo ago

There's always work to be done, if there wasn't you'd cease to exist in physical form. That's why you need many teachers. The best teachers will take the form of a perfect mirror, clearly reflecting your own flaws & distortions.

If you seek validation in the external, you become easy to manipulate.

The trick is first observing those unconscious reactions in the moment. Step into the role of your inner witness. Resist the urge to intervene & just observe (without judgement).

Then look to your beliefs to help better understand your actions.

🫂💚

Jake Woodhouse 1mo ago

Ok on it. Brisket the mirror 😜

Thetreesckd 1mo ago

Perv

Mathias 1mo ago

Episodes like this is perfect for self-reflection in journal format. I’ve found, the earlier i get to write things like this down, the more details, honesty and experience gets written down.

Reflecting upon these types of situations have given me the most over the years. ⚡️ kudos to your self-awareness🤘🏼

Jake Woodhouse 1mo ago

I’ve been really enjoying the journalling I must say. Especially writing on paper. It just flows out of me like I am speaking to myself

Mathias 1mo ago

Really good to hear man! Happy that you find it worth the time⚡️