I heard someone refer to scrolling social media as away of dissociating.
I wonder how often my behavior would fall under that description 🤔
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I notice when I do it. Waiting rooms, boring conversations I'm present for but not included in, when the dishes are staring at me 😅
I think I'm going to be more aware of it now 🫂
🫂 its a worthwhile endeavor. I feel a lot less guilty about wasting some time when I can acknowledge it & weigh my justifications against the alternatives in that moment.
I guess the only time I might have a problem with it is if I am using it as a substitute for something more productive (which happens often tbh)
But there have been tangible benefits to the time I have spent on nostr. I can't say that for any other social media really.
That's not too bad. I give myself a pass on productivity if I've already been fairly busy & nothing is urgent. My bad one is the social settings. I'm quiet anyway so I tend to get looped out of conversations easily. Once I try to say something & get passed over, I'm on my phone scrolling to keep myself out of it so I don't get frustrated. 😂 Nostr is definitely different. It's not so much of a passive activity so I have to stay off when I'm around people.
Sounds like you have a lot of self awareness. Painful sometimes isn't it? 😅
I've been ruthlessly cutting back on the things I use to distract myself, but if I do that long enough I'll find myself meditating on a mountain...so there's a balance to be found for sure.
😂 painful is a good word for it.
Less distraction is one of my main focuses currently too. I suppose that's probably why your note resonated with me. I hope you end up on that mountain. The distractions will still be here when you get back. 😁
wondering about it mightn't be that different as the practice of epoché
to be aware of the 'change of behavior' would vanish the initial goal of catching the plain behavior 'as it is'
Having done it unconsciously for a long time I am glad to be noticing it.
I don't necessarily feel a need to make a judgment call on the behavior, but it's worth noting. Sort of like noticing the moments I feel an urge to eat fast food, drink alcohol, or engage in some other avoidant behavior.
That'd match the definition of 'habitus', not the repetition or say, le quotidian, of an act (either a hobby or an addiction) but rather, the drives (or context if one says so) that firstly had lead towards 'doing something' and later on, its criticism (or looking back to, noticing)
What's left is what to do with such criticism, in the case of doom-scrolling, Nostr itself seems like a good effort on handling the experience