Shame is one of the biggest things that holds us back in our lives, whether we’re conscious of it or not. The more conscious of this we are, the more we can work through it and release it. Learning to do this has been one of the most life altering things I’ve done. The good news is that this is a skill anyone can learn to do.
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Spending time on the road by myself is one of my favorite places in the world. Time to myself to think and listen to podcasts and audiobooks. There’s also a part I love about the constraints of driving. You can’t do too many things other than think and learn and drive. Beautiful day with my favorite person. I’ve learned to really love me and as a result spending time with me.
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They feel entitled to always getting more and there's never enough of that. They won't like it, but we must start giving to ourselves. First a little and slowly building. This will give begin giving us the strength and capacity we need to finally get out of this toxic cycle. #grownostr

Narcissists know what they are doing. At least to some extent, whether they are consciously aware of it or not.
Otherwise they wouldn’t hide it, excuse it, or deny it, and they certainly wouldn’t continue doing it.
Forgive yourself. This is where the real power is. Having compassion for yourself allows you to focus back on you and your life. This is part of the process of changing your life and healing yourself. #grownostr
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Being out of a narcissistic relationship feels a lot like a hangover. Mind is fuzzy, might have a headache and you definitely feel like crap.
You might be thinking I’ll never do that again, or you may wonder if you just need someone else in your life to distract you from feeling this way.
Either way, there doesn’t seem to be a clear path to feeling better. Unlike a hangover from alcohol, it lasts for more than a day or 2. It can last for months, years, or even decades especially if you find yourself in another relationship with another narcissist.
Detoxing our lives from the toxicity of these relationships takes time and it often doesn’t feel good. It is the path to being healthy again though.
Take the time. Do the work. You are worth it!
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Reactive abuse is a regular tactic they use to shame and blame you for their behavior. Like everything else, it's usually subtle and unseen by anyone else. This leads us to question ourselves. You didn't imagine it or make it up. Just because no one else saw it, doesn't mean it didn't happen! #grownostr
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Just a beautiful little trip across the state and back. Lots of alone time with me, some podcasts and audio books. Some music and a lot of reflection. Pretty awesome day. #grownostr https://video.nostr.build/c792418e9352c0c6e228c6d19341959031e381f9d673f688d4e6a3f3dd0d9916.mp4
Every single thing a narcissist ever does for anyone else always comes with an expectation.
Narcissists are calculated in many things they do. Even when they aren't though, they always expect more from us. It's because to them, no one else matters. Nothing could be further from the truth! We all matter! #grownostr
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We all make mistakes and mess up. The big thing is how we treat ourselves and each other when that happens. It's going to happen. It's always ok to choose kindness even if it means choosing yourself over someone who doesn't choose to be kind. #grownostr
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Narcissists only really care about power and control. It's how they ensure they will get supply. There is nothing you can ever give them that will be enough. They will always push for more. You don't ever need to give more than you have no matter what they tell you!
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Narcissists rob you of your peace, but actually sneak in to steal all the control in your life. They don’t actually care about anything other than control. If they have control over you, they can get supply from you. We don’t have to respond or allow them to control us though.
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It's not logical someone would take joy in hurting others. Unfortunately narcissists enjoy watching us suffer. It's not right or ok, but it's true with most of them. You do not need people like this in your life. Find people who celebrate you, not your suffering. #grownostr

I laughed a lot for a long time thinking that I had cheated de@th in escaping narcissists. Some of this I realize was a trauma response, but it was also a healthy way of me releasing emotions that had been stuck in my body.
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Narcissists will never admit or own the negative things they do because it would shatter the illusion they live in. It’s their home and they’re unwilling to move out. Nothing we can do will change that. We don’t have to live there though. We can move out whether we shatter their illusion or not.
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Everything for them and nothing for you. They get to take everything and complain about everything and you'd better not say anything about anything other than how wonderful they are and how lucky you are to have them. This is all a lie and complete BS! We don't have to live with live with or deal with this! #grownostr

Narcissists live in an illusion of thinking that if everyone just did what they said that the world would be a wonderful place and they, of course, never do anything wrong. None of this is actually true, but it’s the illusion they live in. You don’t have to live there though!
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Narcissists will remove and erase you from their lives faster than even seems possible. They love social media, because they can just erase all memories and evidence you even existed in their lives. This isn’t normal, except for narcissists. The good news then is, hopefully, they’re actually gone from our lives.
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They train and program us into isolation. Once we're there, in many ways it becomes more and more difficult to really know how bad our lives are. This is what they want. They can then do or say anything they want without us hearing that it's not ok. None of this is ok or healthy! #grownostr

Beautiful day. Not much else to say. #grownostr 
Those are definitely not the people I'm referring to. If it was only the language that's one thing. This is just another layer of the crazy making chaos with these people. They use it in a very particular way. I and others didn't think I was mispronouncing a word, but they would continously tell me and make fun of me for that. Unfortunately this was a very small part of the rest of the abuse and manipulation.