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Alex Budaev
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Replying to Avatar franny

Another day at my job. The sun is shining, and that is lifting my mood… at least a little bit 💛

but still, it’s hard for me to get up every day and do a job I really don’t like. I feel stuck, for way too long now. There are days I wake up and could cry, there are days I just fight myself through, and there are days that are okay, but overall, it makes me feel bad. It feels like I am not the person I really am, I can’t express myself the way I want to. I am far away from home. Distracted with things I don’t like. This job is not fulfilling me, and it’s hard for me to not let that affect my private life. I am coming home from work and feeling exhausted, I have a hard time to motivate myself for going outside, caring for my garden, cooking, showering, meeting my fam and friends. All these beautiful things feel annoying. At least yoga is fun atm and releases some tension.

I am at a point where I underestimate my skills. Thats making it difficult to just moving on. I blame myself a lot, for not moving on. Everyday. And still, I am trying my best so the stuff I am working with… works… even with my bad attitude. Something I can be proud of… ugh it’s destroying me. Finding a new job is harder than I thought. The job education I accomplished is nothing I like to do all day, it does not fulfill me. I don’t feel like starting another 3 year job education. I feel unskilled for every job application I am interested in, I am at the beginning of my twenties. My dream is it to work on my own… but it’s much work to actually do it. And that’s where my mind is when I think of the next years. I am missing a lot of energy. I feel weak, like never before. Writing this is giving me energy.

Days like these show me that I have to take action. I am the only person that can guide myself. I am responsible for me. All these negative feelings are pushing me out of my comfort zone, urging me to move. But it is still difficult for me to move on… I don’t know… I am facing one of life's challenges... it’s getting better.

Waking up in the morning and actually wanting to wake up, no more days where I want to bury myself between pillows in my bed. The great amount of love and joy that I feel for life wants to be unconditionally shared. All of that will come back to me. And I am getting closer to that every day. I believe in myself. Push those walls, break through. Visions are highly set.

Any advice is welcome 💜 Thank you for your time. And yeah I know I could be grateful for having a… job…, but… I am fighting here for a really really long time and I don’t know how long I can keep up a positive attitude anymore… honestly I can’t. I don’t like the upset me. I am tired of blaming myself for not just moving on and try something new.

I can’t keep that in my mind anymore so I wanted to share it with the world. Maybe someone is fighting the same fight, you’re not alone and you will break yourself out of these chains, just like me… very soon… building strength. 💜

I don't know how to help you right now. I know that feelings. It's hard to accept the fact that your life is not what you imagined when you were young. I hope you'll find a new job and/or start own business. Don't forget to love yourself for who you are.

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Hello everyone. When introducing #Bitcoin to my Russian peers, there’s a recurring skepticism: it's seen as an "American scheme." While many here might not have faced this challenge, here's how I tackle it:

Have you ever pondered if #Bitcoin could be an offspring of the NSA? Was it secretly forged as the fragility of fiat currencies globally became evident? Or did the U.S. simply catch the #Bitcoin wave early?

The next question often thrown my way is, "Should we really entrust our assets to this possibly suspect American venture that could be covertly fueling undisclosed operations?" To this, I answer: The true origin of #Bitcoin, be it American, Chinese, Russian, or Japanese, is essentially inconsequential. Due to its decentralized essence, it now operates beyond any single nation's grasp. Halting its momentum would require subduing every advocate—an undertaking too ambitious even for the U.S.

Of course, I elaborate on its core principles: decentralization, immutability, and its inherent resistance to censorship. However, apprehensions surrounding its "American" birthright persist. To address this, I narrate an intriguing tale:

Ever heard about Hal Finney's enigmatic neighbor, possibly a certain Satoshi Nakamoto, with speculated NSA connections? Russians, with their innate skepticism of official accounts, find this tidbit irresistible.

Let’s delve deeper: For a century, the U.S., with its unparalleled control over the money press, capitalized on this edge. They've printed vast sums, virtually out of thin air. This monetary dominance allowed them to acquire the best talent, technology, intellectual property, and strategic advantages from across the globe. However, they're acutely aware of the dollar's diminishing stature. They seem to be actively diluting its power, printing it in excessive quantities. This move seems strategic — exhausting its utility to the fullest, buying everything in sight, until it hyperinflates.

And in this strategic shift, lies #Bitcoin’s ascension. If we consider the possibility of Satoshi's million-#BTC wallet, it could feasibly offset the U.S. national debt.

Think about this: Beyond a select faction within the American elite, who else could witness an asset like #BTC soar from nothing to $69,420 without spending a portion? Most would've exited much earlier.

On the regulatory front, there's a notable bias: favoring #Bitcoin and seemingly sidelining crypto. Consider the broader crypto landscape as a case in point: many, like LUNA, are scams, with its founder now under legal scrutiny. Then there's CZ, the figure behind what's considered an underground crypto gambling hub. It's apparent that the elites aren't keen on welcoming these upstarts.

To clarify, when I reference "Americans," I'm pinpointing the shadowy power-brokers, not everyday citizens or the figureheads in office. They're the true orchestrators.

Sharing this narrative has yielded profound results, spurring #Bitcoin investments amounting to billions.

#nostr #orangepilling #hyperbitcoinization #plebs #plebchain #Bitcoin

Nice one! Very convincing.

Legislative regulation in favor of Bitcoin is also dictated by the fact that many cryptocurrencies are potentially securities. Unlike Bitcoin, which is recognized by many governments as a commodity.

Самое трудное в Ностре - заставить его забыть о твоих постах. У вас в клиенте него нет, а другие его прекрасно видят. Через некоторое время он у вас снова может появиться.

Упс, сорри, не прогрузились реплаи

I don't tell anyone what they should do or what to think. If you can tell me that you're using exactly ZDB platform instead of using Nostr, it's your problem.

Google and Facebook made their chatrooms only for their users, no matter XMPP or something. And direct connection between Facebook users and Google users inside their ecosystem never was the feature for the understandable reasons.

Today I'm using Nostr. I don't care if it will die, or there will be cool fork, or bigtech will develop a new superapp. And I don't care if everybody will forget the word Nostr. I don't care what is going on in Google's or Facebook's or ZBD apps. Now you're user of Nostr protocol, and zbdists too, just like me. That's what I'm talking about. If they wanna pretending that they are in some kind of universe is their business. I'm not trying to convince anyone, I'm talking about the actual situation.

Again you attract what is not there. If a Nostr trademark is not registered, then there is nothing to talk about it. What does the ZBD brand have to do with it? There are millions of registered brands in the world, so what? We're talking about the current state of affairs, and I don't understand why you keep insisting that Nostr as a name/brand doesn't matter. This is not true, maybe for now, but it is not true. Stop inventing things that haven’t happened and probably won’t happen.

About Zebedee and their strategy you are speaking for them to justify your position. Briana expressed the company's position, and that's enough. Whether they think about the risks of the disappearance of Nostr or not, you do not know and cannot know.

Вот попробуй найди по такому названию. Автора тоже кириллицей можно по-разному написать. Спасибо большое, скачивал английскую версию, но ты уже понял мой уровень языка, не осилил. Почитаю на русском!

Sorry Brianna, I didn't want to bother you, this conversation went on a little long. You are making a great work with orange- and purple-pilling. I don't know if you officially represent ZBD, but anyways for me it's pretty clear what is going on, so I don't have any questions 😉 Good luck to Zebedee and satellites!

Всё, Иван, пора завязывать! Я спать, я в Сибири живу))

Is it trademark? Is HTTP or WebSocket are trademarks? Nostr protocol is licenced under public domain. https://github.com/nostr-protocol/nostr

Are we talking about some mythical businesses? Zebedee is doing it right now, but not for reasons you are claimed. It's only marketing. Anyway if they had developed the protocol and made a unique, outstanding client, I would probably use it myself and enjoy the ZBD universe 🙂

Unfortunately, ZBD doesn't work in Russia.

How does the number of users affect current statistics? Are you trying to predict the future and claim that this situation will change with the growth of the user base of some client or app like ZBD? How can you know that? "Ultimacy of hashtag" right now is real. I'm based on a fact. And Brianna admits it

nostr:nevent1qqsp3kzn6wr0pryy34w3ks54fmpmdvy9s5yshs7uzt68yrl2342clmgpzdmhxue69uhhyetvv9ukzcnvv5hx7un8qgswmf5ytnpzdxl2zrcpqaz2672qnt9hz2wedptaf0ceuqnkjc5e9ysrqsqqqqqptj269g

Meta made Threads. Coinbase (or affiliates, idk) made friends(.)tech on Base blockchain. Both failed at the moment. Anyway for Nostr it will be breakthrough if corps are interested in it (imo unlikely, corps needs more content control and centralized monetization system). Will see if it'll happen. How does this affect the opinion I voiced today, if this did not happen?

Like I said, there is nothing wrong with attracting users through your own rich application. I just don’t understand why pretend that your users are in some kind of magic "ZBD universe".

Nostr is a protocol. Zebedee is an app. True. But Nostr is a brand also. Like Twitter or Telegram. At least for now.

By the way never heard of mIRC. Used Pidgin for XMPP/IRC/GTalk. It's a client. And no more.