nostr:npub1pt6l3a97fvywrxdlr7j0q8j2klwntng35c40cuhj2xmsxmz696uqfr6mf6 nostr:npub175dlmjzxq6fgswh73qym7epwcll0dlrkpvcd479u9fc3yrzgxrqsjdwrtj nostr:npub1d58lvrjmr4lgpsvh88lx28ujp0nyggc5m3wvrzyf7qqtmu0udrlss4jv5f Actually his chink genes ensure he keeps on WINNING
nostr:npub1g0uss0sjsgxwmhqxgnvlj0zv9ru89xwfyktkcjc0kgy8syxj79ss383vfw I would never sleep in a transparent box though. Another primal fear of mine
nostr:npub1pt6l3a97fvywrxdlr7j0q8j2klwntng35c40cuhj2xmsxmz696uqfr6mf6 What about a Japanese pod hotel
This video triggers some primal fear in me, and I figured out what it is: the woman is a giant spider
https://twitter.com/jtrebach/status/1544410778136190981
( nostr:npub1g0uss0sjsgxwmhqxgnvlj0zv9ru89xwfyktkcjc0kgy8syxj79ss383vfw I found this ecological disaster from the ice-cream making data pscientist )
nostr:npub1pt6l3a97fvywrxdlr7j0q8j2klwntng35c40cuhj2xmsxmz696uqfr6mf6 That looks like so much fun even though it's objectively the most spiritually destitute and disgusting thing I've ever seen in my entire life
nostr:npub1g0uss0sjsgxwmhqxgnvlj0zv9ru89xwfyktkcjc0kgy8syxj79ss383vfw nostr:npub1pt6l3a97fvywrxdlr7j0q8j2klwntng35c40cuhj2xmsxmz696uqfr6mf6 nostr:npub1jacntdqvalt27vngj9hwhjyqzppeayq7hnm2xmf7747t84yz32as4czppv nostr:npub175dlmjzxq6fgswh73qym7epwcll0dlrkpvcd479u9fc3yrzgxrqsjdwrtj gabrials horn that is a hole in a sphere of radius infinity
nostr:npub1g0uss0sjsgxwmhqxgnvlj0zv9ru89xwfyktkcjc0kgy8syxj79ss383vfw
> stimuli floating in the abstract
That's exactly right. She also explicitly said that she saw no difference between pleasure and pain. Although that is similar to a viewpoint I've heard expressed by prostitutes generally...
nostr:npub1pt6l3a97fvywrxdlr7j0q8j2klwntng35c40cuhj2xmsxmz696uqfr6mf6 Yeah, although I assume it's different for other prostitutes since they simply go through something so terrible that it's the only way they can psychologically keep existing. Whereas Aella was like durr what if i durrr hurr rdurrr explodered my brainerrr druhdrdfsd
nostr:npub1wkwhx86vqdp2zel4uepr0uhs8rzm9mmn4jhdsnw4vnn5gy8zdedsh2y9sj nostr:npub1pt6l3a97fvywrxdlr7j0q8j2klwntng35c40cuhj2xmsxmz696uqfr6mf6 nostr:npub175dlmjzxq6fgswh73qym7epwcll0dlrkpvcd479u9fc3yrzgxrqsjdwrtj nostr:npub1jacntdqvalt27vngj9hwhjyqzppeayq7hnm2xmf7747t84yz32as4czppv I just don't trust people on fedi to not use tiny pieces of information to hunt me down and kill me
nostr:npub1g0uss0sjsgxwmhqxgnvlj0zv9ru89xwfyktkcjc0kgy8syxj79ss383vfw nostr:npub1jacntdqvalt27vngj9hwhjyqzppeayq7hnm2xmf7747t84yz32as4czppv nostr:npub175dlmjzxq6fgswh73qym7epwcll0dlrkpvcd479u9fc3yrzgxrqsjdwrtj if it's so accessible, why haven't I played it, huh? checkmate
nostr:npub1pt6l3a97fvywrxdlr7j0q8j2klwntng35c40cuhj2xmsxmz696uqfr6mf6 nostr:npub1jacntdqvalt27vngj9hwhjyqzppeayq7hnm2xmf7747t84yz32as4czppv nostr:npub175dlmjzxq6fgswh73qym7epwcll0dlrkpvcd479u9fc3yrzgxrqsjdwrtj Because you don't have me on Steam so you weren't there when I gave it to all of my Steam friends (It was 1 dollar)
nostr:npub1g0uss0sjsgxwmhqxgnvlj0zv9ru89xwfyktkcjc0kgy8syxj79ss383vfw nostr:npub1jacntdqvalt27vngj9hwhjyqzppeayq7hnm2xmf7747t84yz32as4czppv nostr:npub175dlmjzxq6fgswh73qym7epwcll0dlrkpvcd479u9fc3yrzgxrqsjdwrtj literally just one solid calcified bone. Goes to get an x-ray machine and breaks the machine
nostr:npub1pt6l3a97fvywrxdlr7j0q8j2klwntng35c40cuhj2xmsxmz696uqfr6mf6 nostr:npub1jacntdqvalt27vngj9hwhjyqzppeayq7hnm2xmf7747t84yz32as4czppv nostr:npub175dlmjzxq6fgswh73qym7epwcll0dlrkpvcd479u9fc3yrzgxrqsjdwrtj Also the gameplay mechanics are not opaque it's very accessible !!!!!!!!
nostr:npub1g0uss0sjsgxwmhqxgnvlj0zv9ru89xwfyktkcjc0kgy8syxj79ss383vfw nostr:npub1jacntdqvalt27vngj9hwhjyqzppeayq7hnm2xmf7747t84yz32as4czppv nostr:npub175dlmjzxq6fgswh73qym7epwcll0dlrkpvcd479u9fc3yrzgxrqsjdwrtj literally just one solid calcified bone. Goes to get an x-ray machine and breaks the machine
nostr:npub1pt6l3a97fvywrxdlr7j0q8j2klwntng35c40cuhj2xmsxmz696uqfr6mf6 nostr:npub1jacntdqvalt27vngj9hwhjyqzppeayq7hnm2xmf7747t84yz32as4czppv nostr:npub175dlmjzxq6fgswh73qym7epwcll0dlrkpvcd479u9fc3yrzgxrqsjdwrtj >One solid calcified bone
You're thinking of rural Chinese tea farmer fluoride exposure buddy
nostr:npub1g0uss0sjsgxwmhqxgnvlj0zv9ru89xwfyktkcjc0kgy8syxj79ss383vfw nostr:npub1jacntdqvalt27vngj9hwhjyqzppeayq7hnm2xmf7747t84yz32as4czppv nostr:npub175dlmjzxq6fgswh73qym7epwcll0dlrkpvcd479u9fc3yrzgxrqsjdwrtj My autism is actually being inflamed by this, because the colors come from subtractive color mixing (think "paint" not "light") where red, yellow, and blue are the primary colors, and they mix in twos to make purple, green, and orange. Mixing all of them will give black, while having none of them will give white. SO SPIRITUALITY AND HUMILITY SHOULD BE SWITCHED
(Technically the subtractive primary colors are cyan, magenta, and yellow, which is why color printer ink is labeled CMYK, and the K stands for the normal black ink.)
nostr:npub1pt6l3a97fvywrxdlr7j0q8j2klwntng35c40cuhj2xmsxmz696uqfr6mf6 nostr:npub1jacntdqvalt27vngj9hwhjyqzppeayq7hnm2xmf7747t84yz32as4czppv nostr:npub175dlmjzxq6fgswh73qym7epwcll0dlrkpvcd479u9fc3yrzgxrqsjdwrtj Yeah I always found it weird that in art theory the primary colours are different from from the cones in your balls
nostr:npub1g0uss0sjsgxwmhqxgnvlj0zv9ru89xwfyktkcjc0kgy8syxj79ss383vfw nostr:npub175dlmjzxq6fgswh73qym7epwcll0dlrkpvcd479u9fc3yrzgxrqsjdwrtj nostr:npub1jacntdqvalt27vngj9hwhjyqzppeayq7hnm2xmf7747t84yz32as4czppv if this guy's body can somehow retain water-soluble vitamins and use them to his advantage, that would explain a lot
nostr:npub1pt6l3a97fvywrxdlr7j0q8j2klwntng35c40cuhj2xmsxmz696uqfr6mf6 nostr:npub1jacntdqvalt27vngj9hwhjyqzppeayq7hnm2xmf7747t84yz32as4czppv nostr:npub175dlmjzxq6fgswh73qym7epwcll0dlrkpvcd479u9fc3yrzgxrqsjdwrtj >Dry fasts
>Takes vitamins
>No water to solule the vitamins
>Gains titanium neanderthal bones
nostr:npub1g0uss0sjsgxwmhqxgnvlj0zv9ru89xwfyktkcjc0kgy8syxj79ss383vfw nostr:npub1jacntdqvalt27vngj9hwhjyqzppeayq7hnm2xmf7747t84yz32as4czppv nostr:npub175dlmjzxq6fgswh73qym7epwcll0dlrkpvcd479u9fc3yrzgxrqsjdwrtj Another way to depict it would be through the 8 circles which are tangent to 3 given circles. It's *kind of* how the game depicts it (namely each virtue is *tangent* to those 3 components (Truth, Love, Courage) which it includes), but it's not exactly the same
(See "problem of apollonius")
nostr:npub1g0uss0sjsgxwmhqxgnvlj0zv9ru89xwfyktkcjc0kgy8syxj79ss383vfw nostr:npub1jacntdqvalt27vngj9hwhjyqzppeayq7hnm2xmf7747t84yz32as4czppv nostr:npub175dlmjzxq6fgswh73qym7epwcll0dlrkpvcd479u9fc3yrzgxrqsjdwrtj Another way to depict it would be through the 8 circles which are tangent to 3 given circles. It's *kind of* how the game depicts it (namely each virtue is *tangent* to those 3 components (Truth, Love, Courage) which it includes), but it's not exactly the same
(See "problem of apollonius")
nostr:npub1wkwhx86vqdp2zel4uepr0uhs8rzm9mmn4jhdsnw4vnn5gy8zdedsh2y9sj nostr:npub1pt6l3a97fvywrxdlr7j0q8j2klwntng35c40cuhj2xmsxmz696uqfr6mf6 nostr:npub1scjc2e839xfmmsjfqr87huvu9qxenptmamfrcj6s98gv6frq5wgqh0el3p > LSD makes you shit like crazy and it really hurts. It also makes you nauseated.
I heard about that with Ayahuasca but never LSD. Or is that just because you took such huge doses?
nostr:npub175dlmjzxq6fgswh73qym7epwcll0dlrkpvcd479u9fc3yrzgxrqsjdwrtj nostr:npub1jacntdqvalt27vngj9hwhjyqzppeayq7hnm2xmf7747t84yz32as4czppv nostr:npub1pt6l3a97fvywrxdlr7j0q8j2klwntng35c40cuhj2xmsxmz696uqfr6mf6 It's also a game that really does feel like those 20 years were worthwhile. A single playthrough will probably take like 60 hours but when Cleve advertises it as "600 hours," it really is that big if you were to do everything. You won't do everything of course but it makes it a lot of fun to replay the game since it can be completely different.
nostr:npub1g0uss0sjsgxwmhqxgnvlj0zv9ru89xwfyktkcjc0kgy8syxj79ss383vfw I mislead you with poor sentence construction. I meant that Aella thinks that she is special because she is "nonchalant about death", that she sees no difference between being dead and being alive. As for how your two viewpoints differ, it's too obvious to comment on that much, but I want to say that another thing that struck me about her is how "flat" her worldview seemed. It was like seeing a greyed-out 2D image of buddhism. Makes sense from a neuro perspective, with fried dopamine receptors and all that
nostr:npub1pt6l3a97fvywrxdlr7j0q8j2klwntng35c40cuhj2xmsxmz696uqfr6mf6 :apuhammer: Thank you for clearing that up. That is really scary honestly, but it explains why she's so fascinated with torture. She's tortured her brain to the point that it isn't even tortured, merely stimuli floating in the abstract
nostr:npub1g0uss0sjsgxwmhqxgnvlj0zv9ru89xwfyktkcjc0kgy8syxj79ss383vfw nostr:npub1jacntdqvalt27vngj9hwhjyqzppeayq7hnm2xmf7747t84yz32as4czppv nostr:npub1pt6l3a97fvywrxdlr7j0q8j2klwntng35c40cuhj2xmsxmz696uqfr6mf6 the nerds of yore were just built different. thanks though, I'll keep this in my bookmarks if I ever want to give it a shot again
that reminds me of something else - is Grimoire actually good and worth playing or were you just shilling it as a meme?
nostr:npub175dlmjzxq6fgswh73qym7epwcll0dlrkpvcd479u9fc3yrzgxrqsjdwrtj nostr:npub1jacntdqvalt27vngj9hwhjyqzppeayq7hnm2xmf7747t84yz32as4czppv nostr:npub1pt6l3a97fvywrxdlr7j0q8j2klwntng35c40cuhj2xmsxmz696uqfr6mf6 Yeah Grimoire is absolutely fantastic if you're into Wizardry style games. It has issues, namely that the art style and tone is about as schizophrenic as the person who created it, but it's an amazing game.
nostr:npub1g0uss0sjsgxwmhqxgnvlj0zv9ru89xwfyktkcjc0kgy8syxj79ss383vfw slapping myself in the head rn for posting screenshots that I didn't bother to read myself. But who needs to read when his pfp vibes are screaming out at you?
I read one of Aella's blog posts about what it's like to do LSD for a year without knowing it was her. I felt this overwhelming sense of bleakness, especially in her description of experiencing the texture of the world as akin to a cracked desert.
It's normal for depressed people to be nonchalant about death, but she seemed to think it was so special, and that was the most pitiable thing. A mind happy to be ending in a pitchblack desert which leads nowhere, a body lying and waiting for death in between the bouts of prostitution.
And then I read enough to figure out that this was Aella (I didn't know she did so much LSD before this either) and I just felt contempt
nostr:npub1pt6l3a97fvywrxdlr7j0q8j2klwntng35c40cuhj2xmsxmz696uqfr6mf6 >description of experiencing the texture of the world as akin to a cracked desert.
The dangers of being attracted to experiencing novel stimuli above all else
I think death is special too, although presumably in a very different way from Aella