that's where pepe likes to be kissed

pepe's head

maybe that is lucky

i really dont even know

kinda just come up with stuff on the fly

maybe i'll just bump into you first

maybe il start drawing my own rare pepes & kissing them

if something comes to me

to dm you i will 😌

had to make do

doing whatever i could

by myself & with any friends who could hear me to help me

lucky in that way

in friendships

thankfully

& if i tried to get help?

with that story?

what would have happened to me.

medication certainly at bare minimum

i cannot even begin to say

what it is to emotionally embody what is not your own life in the present

like was i supposed to go to grief counseling for parents who lost children as someone who has never even been a mom?

no. insanely disrespectful to do that.

but i was in agony for years.

it is one thing

to by logic have math that tracks

it is another to watch it like a movie

like eyes stolen forced to watch

it is another to feel it embodied

emotionally

lions starving too

just suffering across the board

with a cheering crowd

i could not handle

you as a small child

torn apart by lions

in front of an audience with your family

i am truly telling you

i would make a time machine

before i was forced to helplessly watch that

people who have been here

a lot & often

on balance of scales

have had some

easy deaths, fast ones, slow ones,

& truly catastrophic ones

cos i actually would

make a time machine

i actually would

i couldnt bear it

if you ever

had a life

dying in a coliseum

of any kind

i would absolutely lose it

to see it

i quite seriously dont want to know

he is a babyboomer dude

i am not the grand inquisitor

like i said earlier

i literally know no one's past lives

which is a thing in my head canon

i do not woke march around my house

or control my family

at all at all

my dad works really hard

& loves football

i would never shame him into turning the game off

he is aware about palestine

he reads yahoo news & aol stuff

like how i didnt

wreck the superbowl

for him

how i just sat there

so he wasnt alone

in the middle of absolute

levels of insane

unintentional

fuckery

how my mind hasnt broken

is only due

to being

an ndn

im

pretty

sure

no one deserves that

was never ever ever ever ever gonna do that

so just sat there for a bit

watching the halftime show with him so he wasnt alone

also glancing at horrific tweets coming in

in real time