I’m here to tell you that nostr:npub12rze589jx0gg6kslkjfl2gxxkhtlw73t5shyve5qrglrv6c2qflqejj7ns is my fucking brother as real as if we shared a mother. Anyone fucks with him they fuck with me.
And nostr:npub1el3mgvtdjpfntdkwq446pmprpdv85v6rs85zh7dq9gvy7tgx37xs2kl27r is my sister no matter how far away or confused about which direction is up she is.
Saying it loud and in public so nobody ever doubts who my family is.
I don’t anymore. This has become about mitigating impact to the dependents in my life. Aside from that, they finally killed any emotional investment I have.
I struggle with the strategy and believing I can do better though, you were right about that - but my family’s needs trump my feelings. They need me to do better, so I fucking will.
I’ve been constantly referred to as useless, stupid, overpaid, threatened with my job, denied benefits for several years (until this month after a fight) all while having three new roles added to me in the last year.
When I go, it’s going to hurt them. Nobody is irreplaceable, but I’m doing four people’s jobs, at less than half the going rate for one of them.
Some fucked up misplaced sense of loyalty has kept me there for 20+ years. Insane. My family deserves better.
Unfortunately it’s the two owners, both of which are direct reports for me due to the way my position works. The actual owners of a 50 year old family owned business are fixing to wreck this company because they woke up and decided they were broke and needed more money.
Keep in mind, the one I work with the most owns three houses and six vehicles - all paid in cash.
It always works out. Thankfully I have them bent over a barrel even if they don’t realize it, so the exit will be on my terms. Just going to be rough until I find a replacement job because they’ve created a very hostile environment that crossed over the line into truly unacceptable a long time ago.
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Faced with the strange possibility of needing to exit my current job in the middle of one of the worst times to find a tech job. 😬
Being emotionally abused at work is not acceptable though. If I didn’t have a little lady at home depending on me for healthcare and stability I would go work in a factory for a while and say fuck it.
Productivity guilt is so real! It takes real effort to even talk myself into spending a day without coding something or fixing something. Then I wonder why I’m so burnt out all the time!
Still kickin and chasing mice. Putting the fires out in my life and trying to be ready for the next big thing.
How about you?
So happy to hear you’re in full ass kicking mode! Mental health is something I struggle with as well - taking care of that is essential! Sounds like you’re doing a great job girl!
First week we had an accident. They’re breaking me in good.
Thanks Dr. Frog. I’m glad you’re here with us this weekend.
Sounds like a good Sunday!
May I ask for a health update? How are you doing there?
