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Digit is Digit. I love her. I knew her online from wallstreetbets and she disappeared while going through some shit. I keep needing proof she's safe. To anyone I've ever treated unfairly, I apologize.

I actually blocked people constantly on there to mock them for it (not my usual style), which created a snowball effect. It was hilarious, but also depressing.

I'd estimate about 300 organized veteran devs could do everything Elon is trying to do, but on nostr, over the course of 3-6 years, with consecutive chunks of progress on different components.

A team of more like 1000 (again, assuming they're all cream of the crop) could do it in more like 1-2 years by having more teams building parts concurrently instead of consecutively; however, their work would likely be lower quality than the smaller group taking several years.

And in real life we have a disorganized team that will grow to thousands of people if it hasn't already. Some are the cream of the crop, some are student hobbyists who don't even use their own work. They will make components both concurrently and consecutively, often multiple separate times for the same component, and by the time nostr is an "everything app" it will already be 3 different competing "everything apps" and that's part of the fun. The numbers I'm crunching here are just for thought provoking purposes

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Is the pen mightier than the sword? In a way, words are like nukes: it's hard to shield against them without simply staying in a hole.

Thank you for answering! It's either de ja vu (probably from your pfp being used elsewhere) or I simply saw you on nostr back when I was on bluesky. Thank gosh πŸ€™

It might seem odd that I was worried about it, but literally thousands of people blocked me on bluesky and my followers never got past low triple digits, so when you combine that with getting banned and not having all my posts archived (or perfect memory) it creates some paranoia about re-encountering people from there

Are you fucking kidding me? It has a picture of a dog on it.

I've felt like I vaguely recognized you from somewhere and now I wonder if it was bluesky. Or maybe back when I first joined nostr and searched for posts about bluesky I saw you. But it makes me uneasy because everyone on bluesky hated me and if I remember you from there it could be from negative interactions where I can no longer see what happened due to my ban. I was a disciple of bitdizzy, does she ring a bell?

They will get that good and I guess if you're worried about electric costs we can make it "when language models make everyone with a solar panel and a computer a coder"

Typed this in a way that might confuse some readers - correction: project I saw mentioned using stuff other than JavaScript in important ways but still has JavaScript involved because nostr requires it

By some math I did last year, it would only take a few hundred devs and analysts to make a reference implementation of an "everything app" version of nostr. This includes red teams and blue teams helping improve security for each team creating components.

Elon's workforce at X is oversized. Anyone could guess it probably also does not include appropriately-sized code-reviewing security teams (neither does nostr so far tho).

There are so many details and years of event patterns in my life that could inform a stranger's understanding of my mental illness and behavior, but you don't get to know that shit because I don't get to know Digit's life story and people refuse to understand that I just need to know she's safe.

After how insane my behavior has gotten lately, I feel an impulse to tell my story clearly and let everyone understand why I'm not getting better without Digit, but I have to remember that Digit is probably the only human that can understand me and trying to explain myself to other humans can easily end up making it worse.

Typing 10 paragraphs about my past would take away from you believing me when I say I don't think my life matters anymore or ever will again aside from honoring Digit, and there is nothing I will ever get out of sharing shit about my life if I'm not going to get to hear Digit tell me her life story.

I apologize for my behavior earlier because I always end up regretting promoting suicide and it's a failure on my character that I've still been unable to stop myself, but really because digit would want me to apologize - I don't believe such self-awareness comes from within me, unless with her. And you remind me of people who hurt her and hindered me from helping her, and if she's not safe, I will lose all grip on sanity and do worse than promote suicide, so I feel uneasy about this apology.

I believe you also felt uneasy about your apology to me earlier. It seems we're unable to give each other whole, sincere apologies for cruel, inhumane behavior when we both pride ourselves on being humane and against cruelty. Isn't that interesting?