one drawback of social isolation is that you end up getting your idea of "normal" from the media. your frame of reference becomes actors, influencers, politicians, news anchors, journalists, writers and scientists instead of ordinary people. you end up holding yourself and others
to unrealistic standards.
when i have more money than i need to survive, i have a problem. "oh no, what do i do with it?"
it's easy enough to spend it impulsively. the question is where to throw it to avoid that temptation.
we're talking on the order of €200 per month, so it's not enough for anything exciting. i usually blow it on alcohol because i get bored.
would be nice to spend it on something better, because although alcohol takes my mind off things, it's a very expensive, unhealthy and short-lasting way of doing that.
i resort to it partially because it's a really simple way of entertaining yourself and taking your mind off things. unlike other activities, you never grow bored of it, because the very thing it does is take away the boredom (and all your worries too). it's a guaranteed quick fix, with no effort or creativity required.
it's rather hard for me to find anything else that beats it. but it has so many drawbacks. so i would like something else, and i don't know what.
in terms of experiences one can have, the only thing that's better than getting drunk is being with a woman, and by a wide margin. they're far too much trouble to find though. "find" isn't the right word. you come across one by chance, and if you're lucky, she likes you, so you're not really in control of that.
in a way, i never had any hobbies, not even as a kid. every hobby i ever had was also a potential profession, and i lost interest in each one of them as it became clear that my services would not be needed.
i'm very businesslike in that way. "what are we doing now and for what purpose?"
i didn't do well in school because it didn't get right down to business. an apprenticeship model would've worked better for me. why waste time?
the scary thing about the Internet is that if you get vocal against violent regimes and organisations, and people actually start listening, you risk having one of their assassins take you out, even on your home soil.
i wonder what it is that makes the Anglo-Saxon countries such cradles of innovation.
my counsellor at NAV (work/welfare agency) wondered why i had taken a job aptitude test from the UK instead of one from Norway.
because more resources are pooled into things that are in English. because it's a bigger and more successful language and culture.
Norwegians usually prefer things to be from Norway. we're so picky that even Swedish stuff is sometimes seen as lower quality. we see ourselves as superior and the best country in the world, and i think that's ridiculous. massive national ego considering how insignificant we truly are.
sometimes you get the impression that showing music you made to people you know is like this:
friend: i like the track X by Y.
you: here's something i made that's similar.
friend: (doesn't like it very much, because it wasn't made by anybody famous, so it can't be good)
1. foreigner asks question about the Norwegian language on a forum.
2. there are multiple answers that don't quite agree.
3. Norwegians have an argument about how their language actually works.
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my new excuse 🧐
nostr:npub16qct6ge6zdr72yxrw2cc0rsqyp9j9qrjs9pkz3gkydc839jrtk5sj8al6e situational humour. the situation is the joke.
Middle East everyday problems
i was going to search for an email just now and...
https://discussions.apple.com/thread/255191779?page=1
can't search my emails anymore 🤷♂️
salt dough is called trolldeig (trolldough) in Norwegian
it's always funny to look at websites from the 90s and go "that was their idea of graphic design?"
i mean, the reality is that you barely used graphic designers in those days.
imagine looking at this website and investing millions in it.
when your calculations get sinful
this colour doesn't exist in the rainbow. it's equal parts blue and red, which are different wavelengths that are not close to one another. it's a bit like white, in that it's several wavelengths at once, except it's missing the green. it's a colour that your brain creates.
what is it about airlines and constantly going bankrupt
weeeee
i think if you ever have any expectations of anybody and you make this known, you'll be called "demanding" by somebody
how does Europe fund its generous welfare benefits?
simple: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_sovereign_states_by_tax_revenue_to_GDP_ratio
France's tax revenue is 46.2% of its entire GDP. for Sweden, it's 44%. for the United States, it's 27.1%. for Nigeria, it's 3.6%.
the further down the list you get, the lower the taxes are, and the worse off the country is.
i'm not saying that if you just turn up the taxes, this will fix everything. but it's an observation...
crêpes doesn't sound like struggle food but i mean, they're just flour and eggs. also, they're not good for my blood sugar. i usually don't buy flour but needed to make my own roux to save money, and had some eggs. i have forbidden food now and then, and "broke week" seemed like a good time for it.
actually had what i'd describe as a "fine" day yesterday.
am i broke and eating struggle food? yes.
do i have a decent real-life social network? no.
am i still single and jobless? yes.
but i was absolutely fine about it. i posted on here, made dinner and some crêpes, watched a movie and then went to sleep.
was it a *great* day? did i accomplish anything? no. but it was perfecly fine.
nostr:npub16qct6ge6zdr72yxrw2cc0rsqyp9j9qrjs9pkz3gkydc839jrtk5sj8al6e that's a long time. i usually last 6 months. i think freelancing is better for me, but hardly any clients...
does anyone else have a tendency to treat a day job as just another hobby that you drop when you get bored of it?
i don't really know how to treat it differently. pushing myself to keep a job comes no easier to me than pushing yourself to keep a hobby.
i mean, who does that? you just stop doing hobbies when you don't feel motivated for them anymore.
what happens if i keep pushing is that i start shutting down. the heart revolts against the brain.
how do people even stick to their goals?
for me, there's always just The Goal, and if i'm serious about it, everything else starts derailing.
if you're so busy with your goal that you're not showering, eating or paying bills, bad stuff starts happening pretty quickly.
so you have to ruin your focus on the goal to take care of these stupid everyday matters, and by the time you're done with those, you've lost sight of The Goal.
i have a flip switch with two labels on it:
LIFE [O ] GOAL
"why don't you just orchestrate a larger plan that incorporates the goal then?"
i can't have that many thoughts in my head at once!
wtf human?
this is the first image result you get for "gambling addiction"
i can assure you that no one looks this sad while gambling
nostr:npub16qct6ge6zdr72yxrw2cc0rsqyp9j9qrjs9pkz3gkydc839jrtk5sj8al6e from my resume:
Skills: Software development, IT operations, cloud services, electronics, photography, graphic design, video production, sound production, writing, accounting, business finances
Platforms: macOS (System 9, 10+), Linux (Slackware, Debian, Ubuntu, CentOS), Embedded/IoT (PIC16, PIC32, ESP8266, Arduino, Raspberry Pi), Microsoft Windows (3.0 - 3.11, 95, 98, 2000, XP, Vista, 7, 10), Microsoft DOS (4.0, 5.0, 6.0)
Languages: JavaScript/ES6/ES7 (Node.js, Safari, Chrome, Firefox), C/C++ (DJGPP, GCC, MinGW, Clang, Xcode, Emscripten), Pascal (Turbo Pascal, Borland Delphi, Free Pascal), Basic (GWBasic, QBasic, Visual Basic), PHP 4, HTML (HTML4, XHTML, HTML5), CSS, Python, shell-scripting, regular expressions
Software: MySQL/MariaDB, MySQL Workbench, PostgreSQL, Ghost, Apache, Nginx, JIRA, Trello, Vim, Eclipse, OpenSSL, Bitcoin, BitShares, Steem, Postfix, Courier, Dovecot, NFS, KeePass, Adobe Photoshop, Adobe Illustrator, Adobe InDesign, Adobe Premiere, Adobe Animate, Adobe Lightroom, Affinity Photo, Apple Logic Pro X, Apple Final Cut Pro, Avid Media Composer, Reaper.fm, Autotune, Melodyne