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Before I knew that "the line" was spiritual awakenings, I used to say that "the fine line between crazy and genius is talking to yourself".

Yeah, the insane hobo aggressively wandering through the streets gesticulating wildly at the sky, declaring "I CAN'T! GET SOMEONE ELSE DO IT!" would seem to be talking to himself.

On the other hand, speaking one's own thoughts aloud has benefits in terms of both information processing and retention. The more senses that are involved in an event, the stronger the memory of that event. I think smart people have a tendency to figure this out and leverage the tactic to their advantage.

I think both geniuses and crazy people talk to themselves. I would point out that genius derives from djinn which derives connects to kundalini via the "dj" which is the serpent hieroglyph. Also, Gopi Krishna wrote a book called "The Biological Basis of Religion and Genius". I'm pretty sure the origin of genius relates to wisdom chakra activation.

Kip Ashlynn 3mo ago 💬 2

Yea I've long since come to peace with being "crazy" 🤣 I have some moments of intelligence but I'm pretty uncomfortable with saying genius as it applies to me 🤣🤣🤣

I did have a few frightened and shouting at the sky moments a few years ago and worked on it with my doctor. I had become insanely paranoid about a specific cloud, I was convinced it was the same weird cloud and that it was watching us. Not a great look, no one wants to be the person shouting at the sky!

It came out later that when that was happening to me was the same time the Chinese spy balloon had been over Seattle 🙃

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RedTailHawk 3mo ago

Literally the first thing I did after my awakening was scream at the sky/universe/God.

I didn't understand that what I had just experienced was a result of my surrender. I thought I had just surrendered and then I was "being told to do something" but I didn't know what to do, given that I had just surrendered so I screamed "WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME?!?!?!?"

In hind sight, as a positively polarized soul, the words "what do you want from me" if stripped of emotion, is exactly what a "service to others oriented" person would say.

Kip Ashlynn 3mo ago 💬 2

Beautifully said 🫂

Do you have friends on the other side, like do you hear things? Or are your sky questions hypothetical?

I hear things, sometimes insightful spiritual things. Other times just fart jokes from dogs or crows teasing me 🤣 Once I was able to discern and understand my own "voice" from others it became a lot easier to manage my situation.

RedTailHawk 3mo ago 💬 1

Thank you. 🫂

I've never heard anything. I think that phenomenon, when manifest in the experience of an awakened being, could potentially be labeled "clairaudience" which would be considered a "siddhi". Siddhis are basically guru superpowers.

This is pure speculation, but it feels like the universe would provide siddhis in a karmically balanced manner. In my case, I believe my most significant work in which I earned positive karma was the service to others I rendered at the learning center where I worked as the math and critical thinking lead.

Given that the nature of my service was to help children learn how to think clearly, it would be appropriate if I received a siddhi like "claircognizance".

If I had been of service to others by way of making visual art, perhaps I would have earned clairvoyance.

If I had been of service to others by way of counseling which entails a lot of listening, perhaps I would have earned clairaudience.

If I had been of service to others as a masseur, perhaps I would have earned clairsentience.

That said, I can pretty confidently assert that I receive insights/inspiration from "Intelligent Infinity" and I think claircognizance is my best answer. Multiple examples of this exist in my research.

-the alternative spelling of jinn (djinn) that I intuited as existing,

-the guess I put forth that Magi should have a "dj" in it was both right and wrong. I guessed "Madji" but after I wrote that article, I found out that the Medjay were a thing.

-At one point I intuited that, in Hindu ceremonies to Ganesha, turmeric is involved. I knew both were removers of obstacles but did not know they were also connected.

-figuring out that Tarot card 20's image contains an occult blind

There have been many insights. That's why I think it's claircog but that's just speculation.

RedTailHawk 3mo ago

I forgot the biggest example: the poem I wrote the week after the awakening. Today is actually the 7 year anniversary of completing the poem as best as I can figure. I know I wrote it over the course of the week following the awakening roughly speaking.

This is of interest because I know what was going through my mind when I was writing this and I turned out to be very wrong about what I thought I was writing.

When "stars align with lightning flash, someone sees right through my masks" that was apparently me predicting my future encounter with Medicine Man.

https://medium.com/@redtailhawk1923/the-light-in-the-mirror-13a93a655e1e

Kip Ashlynn 3mo ago 💬 3

I can't get writing the words right enough to type but here's a 7 minute ramble because it feels important to respond to this 💖

https://v.nostr.build/omPrBSXEFyB5DsSE.mp4

RedTailHawk 3mo ago

I also have severe difficulty parsing noise streams. Cross talk blends together. Misophonia can be bad especially with repetitive noises, especially when they're unnecessary.

I don't mean to suggest that anything traumatic or abusive was deserved.

I also don't mean to suggest when I use the word karma that I'm attached to the Hindu caste system or anything like that. Karma is a useful term for shifts in polarity between service to others or service to self. Moving along that axis in any direction is a karmic thing.

I haven't gone through what you have (as far as I know) but let's just say that I have the stars (astrological birth chart) to back me up when I say I've been through a childhood gauntlet of sorts as well.

As an adult, I've been homeless before. Eaten expired free food. Worked multiple jobs though. It was just that I graduated right into the financial crisis that gave rise to Bitcoin and nobody was hiring. Didn't matter if I was smart. They were all in damage control.

That said, here is what my research has yielded.

Kids mad at their parents may say something like "I didn't choose to be born to you." Basically, that's not exactly true. Both Dr. Ian Stevenson MD's research and Dolores Cannon's research suggest that we have a say in where we incarnate. We choose the conditions into which we will be born because we think those conditions offer us catalyst we need to polarize in the way we wish to continue to polarize.

So, from that perspective, I chose to have a very difficult childhood by choosing to be born then, there, to those people.

Now here's the flip side.

I wouldn't trade any of the suffering I've endured between now and my birth because without it...the butterfly effect...would I even be the me that I am today without it? Conceivably, no, which means I wouldn't feel like I understand things I never thought I would.

From what I've seen, we almost preprogram our subconscious mind to offer us experiences that are helpful for the ways that we want to develop so to a certain extent, the challenges we fight are self imposed pre-incarnation.

Here is one way I think about karma. If someone commits suicide, they likely still had unfinished goals for this life that were established pre-incarnation. If that's the case, as soon as they get back to the other side, they're gonna be like "Damn! Why did I do that? Now I have to go start all over as a baby, forget EVERYthing, and work through the same lessons I didn't complete because I hit the exit button." Our own desire to develop is its own form of karma between lives and it 100% includes our free will.

I wouldn't be surprised if some of the things you endured as a child were the origin of any of your clairs. My awakening was one of the most stressful moments of my life but all I could do was surrender.

Births are often traumatic. It would make sense for "death" (da'ath in Kabbalah, Gnosis, Vishuddha, etc.) and rebirth (born again, Phoenix rising from its own ashes, etc.) to, as above so below, be traumatic.

Kip Ashlynn 3mo ago 💬 3

From what you describe that you hear, it's probably in the same family of skills as the way I hear. I think it's an ability you can develop if you're curious about the clairs.

A polarity is a simple hueristic, but it is a bit oversimplified. For example, I am a very generous person with my resources and do a lot of volunteering etc. That could be interpreted service to others, and it is. But also it makes me feel good to do, it serves me by creating healthy social networks, and I have a superstition that the more I give the more I receive. So I could also be interpreted as service to self, and it is. Most intentions are more complicated than black and white.

I have seen a lot of people get a lot of comfort from the philosophy that they chose their abuse when they were on the other side. But it's something I flatly reject. The idea of us as a separate individual is ego. Claiming we chose this is the ego's attempt to maintain a semblance of control within something they cannot control. My belief is that on the other side we are ultimately one, and the past life memories and other support for the karmic cycle are real but misunderstood. That's why so many can have memories of a past life of being Cleopatra or whatever other glamorous celebrity. I think we all can access memories of anyone, because ultimately we are all one.

The suicide question is also different in my interpretation. I think that while we have free will, it's constrained within a system of fate. Time as we understand it isn't the full picture, I think reality is like an object and our perception of time is us as an ant crawling along the outside of that object. The ant experiences each moment of time as they walk the perimeter, but the object exists as a whole independent of the ant's experience of the object being slowly revealed to it. I think on some level past, present, and future are simultaneously existing and there is no time. This explains why people can remote view any when as well as any where.

So within a fated experience, an individual might learn life can be unbearable. If there was an understanding choice about life beforehand, then they would have also been aware of the whole possibilities including death. I think if the suicide was not within the fated life contract, then it wouldn't be successful. If it was, then it was meant to be.

I think these things can be really interesting to think about, but runs the risk of becoming a distraction. It seems to me if we focus better on each moment and choosing love and light, then we'll be doing our part to lower the entropy of the overall system. And we would avoid slippery slopes within our logic about the consequences of our actions within our current lives that I've seen lead to an acceptance of evil and victim blaming.

Brisket 3mo ago

I've loved reading this whole discussion thank you for having it in public. 🫂

None of this is a punishment.

I choose everything in my life on some level, whether I'm aware of it or not.

ArkonaFan 3mo ago 💬 1

So from my understanding from Kria Yoga and others almost everything you said matches up. At the same time Karma at it really is still does set up your parent relationships and many life events. So there is a you in common with past incarnations that has karmic burdens, relationships, and surpluses that set up your life. Now it’s not just you setting up your life, but higher beings working the complex web of connections and events. Some individuals incarnate into a family to fix the family karma towards something. My boss for example has a horder parent and a neatfreak parent. He has been fighting the balance for much of his work struggles. My grandmother is a lifelong welfare recipient and has other issues that her children all struggled and overcame to now have all grandchildren successfully rid of the issue that keep her stuck like that.

Karma is just more complex than most understand. That’s why it can appear cruel or unfair in its blessings. https://youtu.be/TvEFn7kTNvk?si=qooj3OIJ_b8KzYVw

(I do Not usually recommend ai voiced videos but this one does a great job with Karma and relationship to one’s mother)

PS lots of sensitivities in my family to sound, chemicals, exc and a few examples of Clair’s but mostly one off events

RedTailHawk 3mo ago

Yeah, that's why the Yin has a dot of Yang in it and vice versa. When I'm talking about shifting in one direction or another along the polarity spectrum, the shift is often consistent of 2 components which, to varying degrees dependent upon particulars, offset one another. For the sake of discussion, here's a totally arbitrary example: if you go plus 5 but minus 2, all we see is a net shift of +3. on your karma/polarity.

Also it is important to account for the thresholds. 50+% service to others is the threshold for positive harvest and 95+% service to self is the threshold for negative harvest. Some amount of service to self is expected...baked in...necessary. Frankly, someone who is so badass that they only need to serve themselves 1% of the time and can spend 99% of their time serving others is clearly "more Divine" than someone who is at 50.1% service to others and 49.9% service to self. This speaks to capabilities which are virtues as forms of power.

As I told nostr:nprofile1qy88wumn8ghj7mn0wvhxcmmv9uq3wamnwvaz7tmjv4kxz7fwdehhxarj9e3xzmny9uqzp9kgwajajq93d86lmk9urxle00vvd5trlaqk4zw5tjahetzge9pnz0pukc recently, talking with other mystics is weird. We live on Earth as individual human beings and that's baked into the linguistic operating systems we use. To deny that isn't going to get anyone very far in the world. Try walking into a bank and telling them that Warren Buffett is really you because we're all one and security will be escorting you out of the bank in short order. So, we live with one foot in the real world and one foot in a based cosmology of unity. It's a really hard conversation to have so I usually don't bother with discussion of that apparent contradiction unless the other person is brand new to the concept and has never considered it before.

I don't know what your precise definition of fate is but I don't believe in fate as my definition of fate is directly contradictory to free will and without free will creation does not occur. Creation was not a one time event. It is an ongoing process. What people perceive as "fate" is coincidence, chance, karma, entropy, physics, etc. You are a creator as am I. We participate in the ongoing process of creation and in order to do so we exercise our will. Again, if you want to zoom out to the perspective of the One Infinite Creator, we can talk about how free will is a distortion but that's not really applicable to us living this life here now. Fate, as a concept, is a great way to rugpull motivation leading to a descent into general apathy, depression, and nihilism. Fate is a reductive boil down of a very complex equation and I don't like ignoring the nuance offered by the equation when attempting to establish causality.

We do agree on time being a sort of construct and that all time exists all of the time in the same way that a movie reel's frames all exist all the time but by displaying them in a certain order you get the illusion of time based action. This negates free will about as much as selecting a multiple choice response on a test negates free will. You're selecting from a pool of options, it's just that the pool is basically infinite instead of a, b, c, & d.

I think we're all evolving closer to Divinity so if someone can't deal with a life's struggles they need to become better and overcome in whatever ways they can. The Divine is all Wise, all Understanding, all Powerful, all Merciful, all Victorious, and all Glorious. Giving up because a mortal life was hard to bear is not wise, understanding, powerful, victorious, or glorious. It's merciful for about 2 seconds until the soul gets to the other side at which point it realizes what a huge mistake it has made.

Consider that, if you wanted to learn certain lessons in a particular incarnation but then you peace out, when you get back to the other side, you're still gonna want to learn those same lessons. Maybe you take a little time off between lives...maybe you save those lessons for 5 lives from now, but eventually you're going to put yourself into situations just like the one that you exited. Suicide is like punching yourself in the face. It does absolutely no good.

Dolores Cannon begs your attention. The concept of "imprints" is something that "residents" of higher densities can access to experience an incarnation that was originally lived by another soul. It's kind of like Blockbuster but for life experiences. You check out a movie. Bring it back, check out another one, etc. Sometimes these entities choose to actually incarnate in 3rd density but I could imagine that a wanderer/starseed would choose to live a few imprints on a particular planet as a particular self-aware species before actually incarnating.

In my post about siddhis/clairs, please note that I used lots of wiggle room words very intentionally, e.g. "I think...", "...could potentially...", and multiple instances of "...perhaps...". I'm usually pretty good about qualifying speculations as speculations.

Brisket 3mo ago 💬 5

The solar eclipse has just passed & I suspect this marks another turning point in our earthly experience.

This dimenion is one of duality/polarity. I find that the deepest truths are always wrapped in a contradiction that makes it very difficult to discuss with people who are cemented only in the physical. It's often not one or the other, but both.

I don't think there's any value in concerning yourself about how divine you are. We are all divine, all experiencing the result of our choices & deciding whether or not we prefer them. I think the internal frequency that we carry into our action is a combination of one of Agape (unconditional love) or Fear. It's a spectrum not a boolean. The more we resonate with the frequency of Agape, the more we also tend to operate in the service of others. I see this as selfish action while holding the belief that we are all One. I see our "task" then is to hold that frequency while moving through this reality & experiencing everything that is presented without judgement. Part of the gift (and difficulty) of being human on Earth is the intensity & range of emotions felt.

A side note - I think Agape is an example of how language was used to obscure our divinity. Agape is an ancient Greek word & one of 8 Greek words that translates into the English word love.

There's no right or wrong frequency of action, you choose & then you experience the result. What you put out, you get back (in terms of frequency). Joy & pain are 2 sides of the same coin & both sides of that coin can be experienced simultaneously. I feel I have previously experienced life as the both the tormenter & the tormented. I more acutely remember the feeling of tormenting others & I would prefer not to experience that again. If I have to choose between one or the other, I'll choose to experience the pain. Yes that decision currently scares me deeply but I think it's a part of the themes I'm choosing to explore.

Like many mystics I think we are in the midst of a shift. A lifting of the veil that has kept us from experiencing our own divinity for so long. We've played out themes of extreme seperation & obsession with physicality for a whole cycle. What will we each now choose? Agape or more Fear? They say we're in a spiritual battle but I find that framing turns it into a zero sum game. Light cannot exist without darkness. I believe it's more about finding balance in this dualistic realm. That these decisions will reverberate throughout the densities. As above, so below.

I find the promise of decentralisation exciting. Can we exist in peace without having to trust that one entity will exercise power with compassion? Can we achieve decentralisation on the physical that will allow decentralisation in the spiritual? I see Bitcoin as a bit of a blueprint & example of how this might manifest.

I never expected to be expressing these ideas in words. I've previously spent time locked in a psych unit against my will & talking like this makes me a little nervous.

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RedTailHawk 3mo ago

Astrology is, as best as I can figure, pattern recognition and physics Tesla would approve of. Nothing crazy there.

Some form of both is often the way as opposed to one or the other.

If the "how divine you are" comment pertains to the percentages I listed, those are from the Law of One which is what we're studying in the study group sessions. The positive polarity harvestability threshold of 50% makes a lot of sense to me because that's the bare minimum threshold of being majority service to others. Anything less than that is technically service to self polarity. The 95% threshold seems a bit arbitrary to me but given that some amount of service to the self is baked into subsistence itself, and survival can be challenging depending on circumstances, setting the bar at majority service to others is a line that is not arbitrary. That said, not everyone who is polarized towards service to self is polarized strongly towards service to self. They're not the really vicious dogs in the dog eat dog world. It's those really vicious dogs that can "flourish", i.e. "super-villains"...the "evil genius/djinnius" trope. It doesn't seem right to put someone who is at 49.9% service to others in the same category as someone who is 99.999% service to self. I think the reason for this is that the Creator is interested in rich experiences of limited perspective and so, in the same way we watch Batman movies, we also watch Joker movies. These characters are interesting. They are "super".

(Re: side note-My February 2024 article was about the 8 Greek words for love :)

In that way, every path taken by each drop of consciousness of the Creator we each "call our own" is a gift to the Creator in its novelty of experience. In that way, good and bad are judgements like flowers and weeds.

In the singularity there is no change. Change is creation. Creation is an ongoing process. Creation exists therefore the Creator wants creation to exist. In order for you or I to create, say, a piece of art, we have to use our will. Creation is predicated upon will. That's why free will is so important. There would be no change without it and that would be super boring just like the omniscient singularity state is probably pretty boring, devoid of novelty and discovery.

In the Law of One, we get to polarize towards service to others or service to self which sort of determines our paths for the next several "grades of universe school". 4th density bifurcates. 5th density remains bifurcated. Mid 6th density the paths reconverge as that density is about perfectly balancing love and wisdom. In 4th density, which is a density of love, there's fighting that goes on. In 5th density, which is a density of wisdom, the fighting tends to stop. Go figure. Broken window fallacy is wise lol.

I think I would seek very hard for a 3rd option with respect to the tormenter/tormentee issue. I don't like that game lol. I'm going with Kobayashi Maru. As a Bitcoiner, you get that lol.

Yes, midst of a shift. Dolores Cannon and Law of One agree on that. Mayan long count too. Lo1 says we are shifting as a planet from 3rd density to 4th density. Cannon called it the "New Earth".

Basically, I think people want to know the rules of the game we're playing but many aren't sure where to look. I think we have a revelatory source material that gives us insights from outside the box which is necessarily a more holistic perspective. I think about Buddha being kept in that walled garden by his father. Who had a more accurate worldview prior to Buddha's departure? Almost certainly his father did, right? He had perspective of more than just the walled garden. That's one of the reasons I like the Law of One. It seems to validate a lot of the traditions we have on Earth in ways that seem logical and, at times, are scientifically verifiable, which is huge for the quest for truth.

Decentralization is the way. Do no harm, but take no shit means having power...power to physically defend yourself from 4 legged predators that think you are lunch as you tend to your garden...power to provide nourishment for yourself and your dependents so you aren't beholden to "trusted 3rd parties". Power is a good thing to continue to develop everywhere in everyone. We all do well when we all do well.

You're not crazy. You're on the fringe though, which happens to be where all the cool shit is including crazies and geniuses alike.

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Brisket 3mo ago 💬 1

I've seen how Buddhists live in service of others. They seem to have relinquished their role as creators & have resigned to a largely passive existence. It's a beautiful example of the other duality that our western culture promotes. As you hinted at, there's always the third option & I'm deeply grateful that they've managed to hold what is in my mind unscaleable & undesirable. There is so much to learn from the path they have chosen.

Thank you. There's much you have mentioned that requires further exploration on my part. I recently abandoned the search for more knowledge & focused purely on the heart side (the feeling, intuitive side). I'm now being shown partly through yourself, that I need to find balance in both. Heart-Brain coherence as Dr Dispenza says.

ArkonaFan 3mo ago

I recently made a similar decision. There are initiations that link you to specific higher beings and groups on a karmic level. Instead of focusing on completing the initiation into the stream that is my primary source of information I intend to find/join a different one. The feminine focused streams have been suppressed/attacked for a very long time. So not only is there a need for numbers, but being more developed on the masculine side I can provide a clarity of understanding not common with them. Also it’s been quite exciting developing the lower chakras and my intuitive ability. Life is so much more colorful now.

RedTailHawk 3mo ago

Also GM (I'm so bad at small talk and GM is internet small talk...I think my brain filters it out at this point lol)

Brisket 3mo ago

Social etiquette is so cumbersome & counter to the sharing of ideas sometimes.

I often choose to ignore them & I don't ever expect them to be reciprocated.

I find interacting with fellow autists refreshing in this regard.

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Dune Messias 3mo ago

Interesting GM!