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Oh, sure, possible. But I think he probably committed suicide. He had a life with beautiful homes, beautiful everything. All of a sudden he in incarcerated and not doing very well.

I would say he probably did (commit suicide) but a lot of people think he was killed including you.

I've exited the sexual market since I broke up with my ex-wife (sort of, we were to get married before COVID shit kicked in) last year. I admitted that staying alone after living with her for almost a decade hit harder than expected. So I kind of step back into the market to see what's in store for a guy like me (not in the top 5% that women look up to for sure). As after I studied Bitcoin, I always wanted a peaceful life starting a family, and putting my time and energy into providing value for them and other plebs. And yes, I'd love to have someone to inherit my wealth to create more value for the next generation.

Here is some of what I have experienced. This is my perspective on specific encounters. Do not take it personally.

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#1 Re-visiting bars

Old habits. I know this is not where you typically find a wife and I kept that in mind. So I just sit up there enjoy drinks and music. Not giving any attention or validation to any girls there (and there are a lot of them!) Just before the bar closed, 2 girls approached me. They asked this and that. And asked me if I wanted to go to the next party with them. I politely rejected the offer as I am now a morning person. I knew that I would get easy and wild sex with them if I accepted the invitation. But that could be me in my 20s. Now sex is not what I seek. Welp, I can hire a professional anywhere, anytime if I want to.

I saw their face looked devasted like they'd never been rejected before. Well, I couldn't care less as I used to get a shitload of rejection and friendzoning in the sexual market before I met my ex-wife. They will get used to it like I did. So I said goodbye, went back home, and had a good night's sleep. Never got back to bars again since.

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#2 Randomness

Now I had the courage to talk to girls as I don't feel inferior to most girls compared to my early 20s. This one girl is a musician. I always have a thing with people who can do music. Just after a short convo, we clicked. Too easy I felt. Then she insisted that I add her on IG, which is the last platform I would use if I wanted to contact anyone. Then she said that we can fuck, but I need to pay her for that because she's so tired with guys hooking up with her for free. WTH?

I deactivated my IG account afterward and never met her again.

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#3 The dreamgirl

We met when I was at the university, and that was almost 2 decades ago. We had some sort of this connection and never actually dated each other. Fast-forward, now we are both single. So I approach and she seems to consider me as a potential partner. The most important aspect is she respects me and my beliefs. She even encourages me to do what I do today. The worst aspect is that we live in different parts of the country.

But finally, we met in the flesh. In her late 30s, She still looks great and beautiful like I always remember her. It was like a dream come true and it was such a great time. We talked like there'd be no tomorrow, discussing things here and there--including our life's purpose. Yeah, we "did it" that night as I couldn't resist. Could you resist your dream girl?

Things sound great and destined to be, right?

Nope, that night was the pinnacle of it. Things went downhill. She ghosted me as she misunderstood me as using her as a backup plan. She wouldn't pick up calls and read messages anymore. I wrote her an online letter explaining the points that she got it all wrong and how I highly regard her as my potential wife to start a family with. She didn't reply.

A few months later, she called. What a surprise. She said she'd read that letter, understood all of it, and apologized if she made me feel bad. But then she said she barely remembered anything that night. (WTH?) And she was seeing another guy right now. I was not in her consideration at all. Well.. that was it. The wall every man faces at least once. The dreamgirl went chasing her dream man. (And as far as I knew, that man is in the top 5-10% pool for sure, considering her luxurious career and society.)

It took a while for me to move on. But since I have red-pilled myself this year, I saw it was for my best that she faded away. Now I can re-focus on myself and my contribution to the Bitcoin spaces in #Thailand. I still think of her from time to time. But the thought of her dating another man turned me off completely.

Things should end this way, right?

Nope, again, she started texting me after a short while. Doing this small talk like nothing happened. From my experiences, I sensed immediately that her "dream man" dumped her already. I ignored her texts and would only replied after 24 hours later. Then I have had enough. I told her that I had moved on from her and there was nothing she could offer me that would be worth my time and energy. (She was in her late 30s like I am, and she doesn't want to have kids now. So what's in it for me, right?) So I told her politely "Please go away." I have a big mission to achieve. Do not become noises and distractions in my life.

We've never talked since. And now I am living a more peaceful life.

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This note doesn't intend to blame and criticize the girls I met. It was just my experience re-visiting the market in my late 30s. In my POV, the market when I was in my 20s, when social medias are not this damaging, was a lot more rewarding. Women back then tended to know they were in the market to seek long-term relationships, be it living together, getting married, or starting a family. Now some of them seek to climb corporate ladders, be strong independent women, earn tons of (fiat) money, etc. That was not things I, and most men, value the most in women.

I would not re-enter this market for a while for sure. And now I understand more why there are many young, and old, men across the globe who insist on staying single. Some became passport bros. Some avoid girls at all costs. Some become red-pillers on the Internet. If the market doesn't have any value for you to trade in, why bother anymore?

This is quite sad as I saw a lot of my male friends who are quite successful in life choose to stay single as well. Some claimed that girls these days don't bring anything to the table in the relationship. Some claimed that they are tired of girls addicted to social medias seeking unrealistic attention and validation from hundreds and thousands of simps online.

I still believe the market will fix itself in the long run. Because humanity will need to reproduce and bring more babies into the world for it to thrive. And now we have #bitcoin and #Nostr, I believe the world will fix itself sooner rather than later.

Thank you for reading to this very last sentence. I hope you have a peaceful, happy life you deserve. Cheers, pleb.