Some watercolor practice. I would like to make a sky that doesn’t look like tye-dye.

The headlines about the Trump tariffs as showcased on my phone’s Apple News+ is so cartoonish. One will sound super serious, then another one is “Buzzfeed’s list of the 22 funniest signs at a Hands Off protest”, then right below it is “Elon Musk takes the exact opposite stance and says there should be 0 tariffs”.

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#watercolor 😌

oh interesting! I was not expecting such a specific title (that i’ve never heard of) 😋 I have no experience with Catholicism

avocados are soooo good. It’s been hard finding good avocados in stores that will ripen nicely in a brown paper bag

wow! Talk about persistence paying off 📚

I’m hoping that all the other countries besides the US start to, or continue to expand on what they do with Bitcoin. Since Trump is drawing attention to two things in a really big way - 1) A country’s leader can do/say really bizarre things, and 2) various big problems involving money

So, Bitcoin.

Then if the other countries continue to expand on how Bitcoin is used, it’ll continue to be stable / rally, which will benefit everyone no matter which country they’re in.

Moss + 🍿 is such a good image 😆 Similarly, “the memory of a goldfish” never gets old. It always sounds hilarious.

wow since high school… what got you into it?

unfinished The Owl House drawings. I just outline parts of it in ink when I feel like it. The first one is from s1e1, when Luz first arrives at the titular Owl House (changed Luz to look more like me), and the 2nd one is from s2, when the kids get to pick their spirit animals (aka palismans).

#slowart #theowlhouse #artstr #watercolor

Omg relationship complexities. Getting through a big conflict with boyfriend … it felt like it was impossible to resolve due to individual complexities. But it actually did get resolved. He calmed down, stopped the pattern of angry defensiveness, and actually listened. We went to the gym for some cardio and resistance training. Leaving the gym, the sun came out, making it feel like a different day.

#benignexistence

lol I would’ve felt a little embarrassed to share it with the previous title.

I agree, factual title better. The other one was a bit sensational (negative emotions, violence)

#my2cents

hmm I haven’t experienced any spam or explicit content so far …

Just wondering, if you think moderation is important, why are you using Nostr? You mean like, in general, it’s important?

yeah probably just doesn’t like the repetitiveness of being at a cash register all day. Aaannnd is also thinking about the various unpleasant news headlines … relating to high cost of living maybe. That’s how I would feel anyway as a late adolescent working as a cashier.

I think he’s admitting that he does this … ? But yeah I think it’s well known that hierarchical companies, organizations have this “control” aspect to them. And part of that is to make the ‘lower level’ people feel like there is something wrong with them, like they are not understanding something, like those higher-ups understand something important that you don’t. (Re: toxic “professional” cultures 🤢)

I was reading an article which discusses the difference(s) between Blue Sky and Nostr. And it seems the main difference is moderation. Blue Sky has moderation, and Nostr doesn’t believe in having any moderators.

This doesn’t seem like such a big deal to me… because doesn’t this mean individuals can just use the ‘mute/block, mute convo’ options whenever they feel the need to?

#asknostr #introductions

I think often authority figures in hierarchical organizations would have you believe otherwise.

it seems like every rich person eventually gets into beekeeping and harvesting the honey from that … David Beckham… Meghan …

ugh yeah … I have not encountered so many males who label themselves as “carnivores” on their profile about me until I joined Nostr.

A few years ago, for Earth Day, I learned that farming large animals for meat contributes more to excessive amounts of carbon than “all vehicles combined”.

Although, probably the main problem is all the restaurants in densely populated areas that keep on pushing meaty and oily dishes to make money.

part 2

I think I have a tendency that when I feel something that doesn’t feel too bad, to wait and see if the body can heal from it on its own. Like with the ophthalmic migraines, and with the little bump under the left eyelid.

I had a whole narrative / rationale for each of these things.

Narrative 1: The ophthalmic migraines are related to being in a toxic work culture during a stressful time, and maybe the fluorescent lights in the room I worked in plus increased screen time led to it … and it just stuck even after I’m not working at that job anymore.

Narrative 2: As for the intermittent irritation in the left corner of my left eye, one time, I peeled back my eyelid and actually saw a tiny bump there. So even though recently, I looked for that bump and didn’t see it there anymore, I was like, well what else could it be? Maybe the bump shifted inward.

So, what I need to remember is that - yes even though there are many things doctors cannot do, there are also a whole range of milder things that doctors have specific tools and treatments for, which can actually fix / resolve things. Like, finding out that the left lens prescription is too high, and seeing the cause of irritation under the eyelid and removing the “debris”.

So, if you feel something, even if small, make an appt with an appropriate doctor to check it out.

In that spirit, I will be also making an appointment to check out my left ear, and to get a dental cleaning. And … overcome the fear/anxiety associated with potentially discovering more serious health problems. *sigh*

#eyehealth #vision

I was thinking about that phrase “raison d’etre” this morning. Reason for being. Looked up the origin -

“Philosophically, it connects to existentialist and teleological (purpose-driven) thought. Existentialists like Jean-Paul Sartre argued that humans must define their own raison d’être because life has no inherent meaning. In contrast, religious or spiritual views might say that a raison d’être is given by a higher power or a natural order.”

I think both are valid and needed.

the March cover page is about the main experience of March. Going to the eye doctor for the first time since April 2019 (before COVID happened). So it’s been … almost 6 years 😖

The two visits solved two major issues. I feel like quality of life has been majorly improved.

The eye doctor found out that my left lens was overpowered by 2 “steps”. This was important because my main worry were ophthalmic migraines I’d get once a month, coinciding with my period. It would usually start with an “aura” in the right eye, followed by a migraine on the left side. Then a full day of feeling fatigued and a ‘migraine residue’ feeling. He said the over-powered left lens could be contributing because then there’s an imbalance? So first I got a basic free pair with the correct prescription (golden frames) which was covered by my health insurance. Then I got some $20 frames from Zenni.com and found a place that could make transition lenses for a lower price (clear purple frames). Transition lenses are amazing. I highly recommend them to anyone over sunglasses. They don’t change the colors much, just adds a slightly cooler hue over everything, while keeping things very even. It also really helps with a sensitivity to light/dark contrasts that is new for me.

The 2nd visit was related to a small irritating bump I was feeling under my left eyelid. I was convinced it was a tiny bump that was growing on the inner eyelid, except it wasn’t. Turns out it was “debris”, and he just removed it. And now my left eye feels comfortable all the time.

So these two experiences have taught me something about myself (re: my attitudes towards going to see doctors). But this post is too long and I need a break so, that’ll be part two.

#eyehealth #vision