love the piercings ✨
good morning :> I’ve got a 7 am meeting today 😵💫 love it tho. 
daily gratitude list + what I did today
omg also I made a grilled peanut butter and jelly sandwich. I am very grateful for that. 
Alexa, play hometown by twenty one pilots
journaling update to hold myself accountable: starting shadow work journaling again.
in October, I filled a mini notebook with difficult prompts to address some of my concerns around relationships. I genuinely think it made me more open to being vulnerable, something I was avoiding at the time.
since then, I have encountered a lot of behaviors from myself I don’t love (jealousy, insecurity, bla bla bla). while I have reflected in those moments and did counseling for a few months, there is still much room for reflection and improvement.
since I am home for the summer, I thought now would be a good time to do some self-reflection.
I didn’t take a picture but I made such a good fried egg for my bagel sandwich. it was just the right amount of runny. beautiful, delicious, godly even.
the urge to do eyeliner is not as strong as my distaste for having to take my makeup off
some things I got up to today 😎😎😎 
Ive tried eating meat a few times since becoming a vegetarian and I just hate eating it (texture, taste, flavors).
I was definitely moody before becoming a vegetarian.
anti-depressants don’t really work for me anyways :( I had more negative side effects from lexapro than positive ones.
I have been taking l-theanine which slightly helps but not much. I just think I’m broken at this point.
A big part of it right now is the weather where I’m at.
It’s been basically non stop raining for days. I can’t handle it.
so expensive thoooo
plus I’m a vegetarian so I tend to avoid things like that.
I enjoyed seeing a counselor for a bit for like a month and a half.
therapy on zoom just doesn’t work for me and that’s my only option rn.
plus, it’s complicated dealing with medicine bc I go to college out of state.
ugh.
I’m just tired of being depressed and having my emotions be dictated by my period
should I be in antidepressants again?
probably.
did they work for me?
not really.
The pipeline of rewatching one episode of better call saul to doing LSAT practice questions…
#humanitiesmajorcore