nostr is like a weed, it will persist because of the fact that no other protocol has enabled real decentralized social networking, and the stubborn hard core who will be nostr or death are not going anywhere else, most of us, the elders, perhaps you might call us, who have been in internet social networks since the 90s, will all say the same thing:

every social network gets captured, nostr lacks the levers that let those all get captured

sure, maybe some cluster of relays and clients will get captured, but there will always be the dirty wild proles outside the gates of the walled gardens, and we will run our own relays and build our own clients, with our own time and effort and mainly for ourselves and to enable connecting to other stubborn bitches like ourselves

it is true that social networks can be unhealthy addictions but when the control levers are missing, the harm is less, and the benefits greater because they are not being squashed to trade off for the interests of those who want to shape opinions and feed off advertising budgets

It's the algorithm

#RageQuitAlert 🚨🚨🚨

My dad used to say this to try to minimize the sting of not getting what you want: “if we had eggs, we could make eggs and bacon - if we had bacon”

Well, i’m not sure who needs to hear this, but it could be all of us

Just because you and me and others see amazing potential in something does not mean it will come to fruition, especially not in the way(s) we expect

Bitcoin has already shown us this by going from for cypherpunks by cypherpunks, to being for everyone - including the “commies” and “normies” and “trannies” and “joos” and “suits” that some of you shit your pants over regularly as if that’s a healthy mentality. It’s still heading towards what i personally believe is its destiny, full-blown global money. So that’s cool. Could be wrong, but that’s my highest conviction in terms of any belief regarding the potentially distant future

BUT, and sorry but i’m just being honest here… i am not so sure about nostr. I’m not saying it’s due to the predominant topics of conversation or the onboarding flow or the funding structure for development or really anything in particular

But the truth is that this is a niche community on the internet. A very small niche where a lot of incredibly smart and talented people enjoy each other’s digital company and many build things together on this dynamic, incredible, open protocol. It has a lot of potential for sure… but stay humble, i guess that’s ultimately what i’m trying to say.

Think for yourself and be honest with yourself. Double check three times daily that your head’s not up your ass and you’re not in a small deadend cult-de-sac, and if in doing so you find that you are, genuinely assess whether you’re truly ok with that

Personally i’m not ok with that and right now i’m feeling like that’s sorta what’s going on here. I am certain the potential is real, and i hope the potential for the potential to be realized is high. I guess i just need a break!

So that’s what i’m gonna do. If history is any indication, i’ll be back shortly. But in this present moment i hope i can give myself more time this time. I’m a poor mfer living in obscenely expensive fiat world. I have to focus my energy on productivity for the sake of my wife and myself and the son and daughter i’ve been having visions of someday raising, and stop embracing diversions

My sincerest apologies for expressing such uncomfortable feelings. Don’t wanna harsh the vibe here any further. This is 99% a me-problem to be absolutely clear (probably comes through loud and clear huh 🤣)

Pura vida, gfy, and keep stacking those sats little by little mfers. Keep doing and building cool shit and realizing more of that potential day in and day out. I’m rooting for us, i promise

But for now… peace! 🖖🌽

well, brassicas are a bit of a minefield too, in general, because of oxalic acid... cabbage, spinach, kale, etc, in the circumstances of me having what are clearly minor kidney stones (and yes i am guzzling water like a dog on a hot day)

lettuce is ok but it doesn't seem to work so well in helping the fat absorption - spinach is one of best, the baby leaves, because they are very low in oxalates and have good quality fibre, but here on madeira quite hard to find, and plenty of lettuce and brassicas tho, which is useless to me

gonna be checking the vegetables sections on my trip to the shops later today, try and find a good, low irritant, low carb fibre source

what about vegetables? Salad, spinach, broccoli-family and what I call "cicoria", similar to spinach, I think only in some part of italy is called this way.

i very strongly suspect that my intake of psyllium husk is to blame for the allergy reactions i'm getting

not sure why it didn't come up when searching before but there is a form of dermatitis that affects the hands, feet, elbows and knees mainly, consisting of irritating small red raised lumps that are very itchy and often the skin takes on a thickened, scaly appearance

Dermatitis Herpetiformis

i've been getting this since my mid 20s, and only just recently finally get a positive confirmation of what it is

it's a protein allergy and it is a symptom of celiac disease

the exact locations tend to vary, but barley and wheat certainly seem to primarily cause outbreaks on my hands and elbows, and i strongly suspect psyllium husk, which doesn't even have that much protein in it after that part is mostly mechanically stripped out, clearly triggers it in the lower body

the reaction is intensely distracting and irritating, and yes obviously i'm cutting it out because there was no other big problem happening from anything else, but it leaves me with the question about how to increase fibre intake

i can certainly consume more milk, i have whole milk powder currently and lactose that isn't digested can be turned into digestive fibre, but the problem is that the lactose tends ot end up causing me to put on weight and further develop symptoms of diabetes

if i don't increase my fibre intake somehow, i have problems with being unable to absorb sufficient fats

in the past, i found that spinach seemed to be one of the most reliable forms of fibre that i could take, than allowed me to eat a full 100g of fat (lard, at the time) and experience a great improvement in my metabolism and energy

unfortunately it seems to be a bit difficult to find around the place here

easy plant to grow though, but i don't know how much i have to plant out to get sufficient production for my needs

in any case, over the next week with the allergen eliminated the problem will go away, but it's really fucking irritating

one of the reasons i'm so skeptical about veganism at all is this problem of allergenic proteins, well, you can then add to this the problem of diabetes as well, because vegan diets are also high carb and will only make developing type 2 get worse

but at the same time, a high protein diet is not good either, and much of that excess protein above requirements turns into sugars and the excess protein in general causes increased ammonia levels in the blood which causes all kinds of problems as well

this thing boxes me into corners like the story of the cows who were starved by acacia trees signalling each other to increase tannin levels to intolerable for the cows to eat the leaves who literally were found all dead in a paddock surrounded by plants that normally they could eat... literally starved and dehydrated to death

european food standards have led to high protein, low fat meat being the primary available source of fats, and poisoned, pathetically limited choices in vegetables, which are also a minefield of allergies for me

oof, i hate this shit

well, drink the coffee, guzzle the water, do the work, and then plot the escape plan...

what you do in your twenties is really hard to escape from. i keep watching people (self included) try to break into new roles, only to revert to known patterns

Yeah i’m going back to nostr

youre biased 🤷‍♀️

#asknostr - which is the more #evil #corporation and why?

#google

#mozilla

#microsoft

#apple

spoiler alert: you are all wrong, they are all equally evil

only the individuals working for them who did good things are not, at least with regard to the good things they did

all #government registered #corporations are evil

all who collect #taxes are #taxcollectors and are evil

#taxationistheft

they don’t tell you this but ime giving up coffee, sugar, and alcohol makes life a lot more fun

having normal ass emotions and sleep cycles is great

When the first new Dungeons and Dragons player handbook comes out in ten years, as a once-in-a-decade-nerd-event, I'm like:

Ooof... Ubuntu Mate no longer fits on 4GB flash drive

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