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Thank you so much, Marie! that means a lot.

♥️ it's good to receive the gift of beauty in your eyes.

Era uma vez uma coletora de lágrimas que passava o dia inteiro coletando as águas caídas dos olhos de quem chorava, fosse de tristeza ou alegria.

Ela pegava seus baldes cheios de emoção e regava as florestas do mundo. Olhava de cima, orgulhosa, contemplando o trabalho que fazia. Nunca tocava aquelas águas e nenhuma lágrima dela saía.

As plantas cresciam belas, mas, de alguma forma, limitadas. Ela começou a se esforçar para provocar mais choro a cada dia, mas a verdade é que, em algum momento, as plantas continuavam parando de se desenvolver, como ela percebia.

Intrigada com tudo isso, sem saber o que fazer, girando de um lado pro outro, do alto de sua vigília, a coletora caiu e, pela primeira vez, sentiu com todo o corpo o chão.

Pela primeira vez sentiu as águas rolarem em seu rosto. Caíram suas primeiras lágrimas. Ao mesmo tempo, águas começaram a cair do céu que se misturavam com as suas.

Ela se uniu às flores e chorou toda tristeza e alegria de sentir. Agora as flores cresciam e se desenvolviam tanto que ela não mais as olhava por cima. Deixou de ser coletora de lágrimas e agora só vivia.

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este é o segundo conto de uma série de pequenos contos sem revisão que escrevi em 2020

I've been thinking about translating the cards and book and make them available online, accepting Bitcoin. I'll bring them here for more tests and I'll see if it makes any sense.

ei, Mariana! eu vi que você foi recebida aqui por pessoas que ficaram incomodadas com a sua publicação. é bem ruim mesmo chegar em um lugar estranho, estar tendo desafios pra viver a experiência e (não) ser recebida quando você comunica isso.

queria te dar boas-vindas aqui e te dizer que tem muitas outras pessoas e inclusive programadores interessados em saber as experiências de quem chega e que talvez se sentissem incomodados com o seu comentário, mas não achariam que isso seria motivo pra você ir embora ou qualquer dessas coisas que falaram com você.

você experimentou o damus? eu não tenho iphone, então não sei dizer, mas já ouvi boas coisas dele.

se você estiver aberta ainda, posta a hashtag #introductions e fala um pouco de você e dos seus interesses que as pessoas podem te ajudar a achar gente interessante.

Era uma vez uma semente que caíra do bolso de uma menina que passeava pela floresta.

Passou por dias frios, chuvosos, foi pisoteada e afundou na terra. O que ninguém sabia era que a semente soterrada naquele exato lugar se transformaria em gente.

No instante em que parecia tudo perdido, da morte iminente, brotou a menina, saindo da terra como se fosse planta.

A menina vestia desde sempre um chapéu feito de folhas. Pensava que tinha de ficar sempre assim, cobrir sempre sua cabeça com aquele acessório feito de planta. Tinha medo de mudar, perder o encanto e voltar a se tornar semente.

Um dia encontrou um lobo que contou sua história e era também mágica. Ela nunca se encontrara com ninguém que a entendesse tanto.

O lobo parecia saber de tudo o que existe e ela passou a segui-lo. Depois de um tempo o lobo criou uma armadilha para a menina. Ela caiu num buraco fundo e escuro e precisava ficar lá sozinha.

O lobo todo dia chegava lá em cima e perguntava como ela estava.

Primeiro ela não entendia o que ele queria e ficava furiosa. Com o passar dos dias ela começou a pensar que o lobo a estava ajudando e ela só não compreendia ainda. Depois dessa resignação o lobo não voltou mais.

Desesperada, ela não via saída. Chorava o tempo todo. Passou dias sem comer e beber nada, já que o lobo não levara mais comida.

Quase sem forças, a menina levantou-se e, sabendo que era seu fim, tirou o chapéu, em uma mistura de fúria com desistência. Quando o fez, seus cabelos vivos expulsaram uma chave de brilho intenso.

A luz iluminou o espaço e à sua frente ela avistou uma porta. A fechadura tinha justo a forma da chave. Ela abriu.

Voltou para o mundo e se viu semente.

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escrevi em abril de 2020, em um encontro online com um amigo querido, inspirada na imagem de uma carta. eu escrevi 18 pequenos contos nesse estilo e agora fiquei com vontade de compartilhar aqui. vou ver como me sinto.

I have my doubts if someone with destroying aspirations can be so selfless to plan to destroy me. they probably are trying to take something they think is missing in their lives.

I agree about not silencing anyone. if we are trying to silence our called enemies, we are probably doing that to ourselves - to the parts of us we don't like and want to hide, especially feelings. and I don't think the way to change is to hide or silence anything.

allow the frustration to come but don't let it overcome the artist in you.

I think your drawing is beautiful and I felt inspire to draw my own hands (I really don't like how they look).

when there is some important change about to happen, we start to focus on that and it gets so hard to wait. allowing ourselves to feel all that comes while waiting will certainly get us to where we are here and now.

I imagined you talking to your mother about yarn or both of you in silence just feeling each other's presence. or you seing a bird or the window, or the floor, or anything and just remembering you are in this moment. it was like something that will show itself and you don't even have to look for.

but before it shows (if it isn't already), just feel what comes seems to be the only thing we can do.

I don't think any of the things I said is necessary, I just wanted to remember you that you can feel all you are feeling and hold you hand while you do that.

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You guys still don’t understand what I’m saying, nor did you properly read what I wrote. I wasn’t even disagreeing with you - but I don’t have time, nor do I care to fully explain it over and over, sorry 🫂

Who cares what I think anyway, I’m just a women. I’m wrong. Not like I know anything about how some women on this earth like to communicate or what makes SOME of us feel special. INCONCEIVABLE.

I couldn’t possibly know what true love is, without you telling me. It’s not like everything I do is motivated by love. I mean, sure I have had hand written love letters and poems exchanged for almost 3 years with an old boyfriend I loved and who loved me, who actually read way more poetry than me. But other than him, no other man on this planet would do that, right? There are no men on nostr who have ever written poetry for someone they loved, that’s for sure, because every guy in the world is the same. Fact. Would be a waste of time, they’d never do it.

Despite what my old friend Joe (who’s in a 14 year relationship) used to tell me, compromise isn’t key, it’s all about how you want to express love and receive it, the other person be damned.

Like, imagine if music was poetry and musicians wrote songs about people they loved or heartbreak? Nobody has time for that, and who would even want to listen to it? I think women would hate love songs. It would be so unrelatable and make no money. Nobody would memorise the lyrics and it’s got no future. Hope they never do it.

Love poems are only 4000 years old too, fucking Hollywood trying to brainwash us even back then. And of course you know me really well, how I express love and like love expressed back to me. How I was first introduced to love - early teens reading some asshole named Shakespeare, this lady called Jane Austen and some bloke named Ernest Hemingway. I know, they sound like a right bunch of tossers, honestly. They obviously know nothing about love. Nobody has ever resonated with and related to their writing.

It’s always been a conspiracy by centralised media to get us to sit down and use our naturally creative human brains - can you believe it? Those bastards. Why would we want to tell someone in a creative way how much you love them? All humans communicate and express love the same way, right? There is no other love language, but the practical (though lovely) serious foundational love language. Passion, fun and romance is overrated. Butterflies feel awful anyway.

You didn’t hear it from me, but I heard Lord Byron used a female ghost writer. He’s a man! Men don’t talk about love. INCONCEIVABLE. Bloody Hollywood, eh. You guys know best so I’ll let you carry on.

You’re right, I will never find a man that would write me poetry, again. I love being misunderstood and loved how condescending your note was, it really highlighted how well you guys communicate. I’m not allowed to have my own opinion or a personal experience that are true to me. I’m just wrong. Honestly, never listen to a women, we are always wrong about love and communication 🫡 trust me, I know.

Don’t worry about that sound, it’s just my mic dropping. nostr:note17hxnh3kf33jv463at9nez3yr0e43x824fmrseafe5pnl666d2e8sqculh3

my husband and I started writing love letters to each other last year. we've been together for 12 years with two kids and this was very important to me at the time. it helped me get through the insecurities that were arising with the changes we were experiencing, and to mature, as the relationship required.

I fell on the street last week and my knee is still recovering, my connection kept dropping, I think it interfires with the sound and the language makes it a little hard for me to understand everything, but I loved it anyway. I think I'll get headphones and it will be better. I don't think I was able to get the things right, but it felt great to try. thank you so much, Heather! ♥️♥️