From your mouth to gods ears.

You also need to learn it's a two way street & if you don't respect your man or try to belittle him you will get treated like a bitch. True sight is at a miles distance. Attitude & motivation is key success empowerment come with respect love & commitment. If you can't commit you don't deserve to be in the dating game, if you can't empower someone don't expect them to empower you. Like a two way street traffic flows from me & you so lets make clean energy & do it right. Okay?

Already my morning has to be started with grief. I decide to do something nice & went out & bought someone half & half. This is the response I get!

"Why Did You Go Out?"

Me: To Get You Half & Half.

"It's no big deal"

Me: If it's no big deal why don't you say thank you then. You have to start the morning being fucking nasty to me for no reason? You ain't happy till you walk out your room & piss somebody off. Last time I think about you & decide to do something nice for you!

"I don't even have my coffee"

Me: You didn't say anything yesterday about coffee go fuck yourself & get it yourself cunt!

What else will this day fucking bring it's only 10AM!

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I bumed into 2 women who I use to know a long time ago they were barbie dolls now they look like used up crack whores. It's ashame to see how they changed because they we're beautiful now they look wrinkled & aged only 32 looking 40 or older damn. When we were younger they didn't wantnto know me & when I was around with gelrouos they barely talked to me.

Now they wanted to act like they know me got their numbers like they were always my homies. I don't trust women for the life of me one telling me she lives in a project complex not to far from me. The other one didn't say but they asked what I was doing for work they just wanted to know if I was making money probably to see if I have something for offering.

Truth be told I always wanted to get with these 2 woman their cousins & I think they both be screwing the same dudes together. It would habe felt like an achievement if I did it back then. I look at them now & say if I get with them it's not even impressive their beautys gone & precious is diminished. Like most of these women out here they probably fucked half the bourough because we had stupid shit back then & girls being stupid acting like hoes fucking everybody like skittles they gotta taste they rainbow except it's white & it came from every race for sure.

It's ashame because we only have one life to live & you do not need to try everything just to say you have. It's better to have some dignity with restraint instead. I didn't try to fuck every race to prove i'm not a racist but a lot of these girls did because it was a trick to get them naked.

Imagine in your high school all the ethnicies saying this have you never been with my race are you a racist bitch? No no okay I'll go out with you next day yeah I fucked another race. All these girls proved was that they had no shame & they we're willing to be hoes ruin their lives & live in shame because they don't give a fuck about their choices back then or today either way it puts an effect & the memories are stained. Now you fucked up in life by making a single mistake & we can see it all or assume it all either way it's correct.

So i'm sad that if a possibility exist it's not they way I wanted it & now i'll be disgusted with myself. I don't want to be with used barbie dolls after they fucked everyone else. I'm first or go to hell I don't sit around & wait for my turn i'm so sick & twisted for my last relationship my heart is gone. The only thing I want to do is abuse these whores I got into choking & slapping even pleasure from pain If I have sex again it's going to be my way & I will be the abuser to relieve my strain even if it's a portion it's a relief to the suffering I have all day.

So once again I say it's ashame that two barbie dolls became used crackwhores as they got older in age if they try to fuck me I will put them in pain it's only justice for being stuck up cunts back in the day treating me like I was shit insignifican't & something you can just ignore away. I had a crush on one since the second grade but I was so disgusted when I saw them yesterday.

#totheyoungones You don't need to fuck everybody to prove your copastetic, not prejudice, or anything. Have some dignity, discipline, & restraint because everyone you meet will try to fuck you some way. You only got one life don't do something stupid & create a permanent stain. Your body oder changes as you fuck other races & people pick up on that they don't need to let you know by saying it they will just avoid you like your a plague & you may never know why.

It's only one life & people will say without shame it's not my fault you fucked up & here you are with your dumbass go away.

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i lay myself down to rest & the pain begins in my head. Soothing pain rushes & spreads all around & down my neck, when I close my eyes I hope to find release but instead all I hear is I hate you over & over again. You betrayed yourself & it cost you times 10 over a feeling of love i'll never have again.

I pray for extinction to come because I am defeated & evil has won. All things come to it's end & throughout may I shall be swallowed by the darkness once again. I wonder if I will ever be free of this torment my heart & body feels like it will never soar again.

I will never be the same!

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Yup & part of that goal is to find someone who wants to do that. Once I find the willing in a short time the money will bring the vacations. The vacations will bring happiness & the cycle will come to a full circle.

Then we could do anything to make money just needs a little start up love. Creativity is such a gift when used in everything you do.

I don't want to work I just want to make $10,000 or more a week by fucking someone on all the hubs. Then we can wander, take pictures all day, & have fun at the same time.

Your Mastodon links are dying you might want to use some other platform for file linking like matrix, guilded, or conversations.

Thanks I try but it's not easy dealing with this everyday. I try to meditate, medicate 💨, & either one don't work. As far as a therapy goes it isn't free has no guarantee & they want to put you on pills that sideeffects increase the risk of suicide tendencies. I'd rather not do therapy unless it's some here go on vacation for a month & do whatever. I would go sky diving, swimming, try to get a back massage, & hope that over relaxing will somehow defeat this. But the problem is relaxation gets me worked up into this feeling comfortable bothers me because i've been abused so much I feel unworthy of a good feeling.

Most people like to go to bed for example me i'm absolutely terrified really with no exaguration i'm scared to death to go to sleep. I don't dream anymore I only have nightmares & relive all my events every time which causes my tossing & turning i'll wake up multiple times either wanting to scream or just sweating to death. I prefer to stay up & black out because when I do I don't have my nightmares.

I try ratonalization with thought but you can't some people do messed up things because they are just a bad person. It's hurts me the most because I was a very strong willed person but one thing after another for many years I went through a multitude of things. I feel war torn, like nothing matters everymore, praying for my end just to be released from this pain. It took a lot for me to change into this everyday I feel I lost apart of myself i'll never get back.

I try my best to go forward but when I look at my scars or feel my fractured bones it just clicks in my head i'll never be complete again & it doesn't get any easier from there.

How about a natural touchscreen keyboard like windows 10's when using a 2 in one or tablet?

Another day feeling sicker then shit sorry I haven't posted in awhile. I've been going through stages in my cycle of #depression I've been through a lot of things some things people should never go through.

People don't fathom how evil their actions can be the effect it causes on another person. I didn't believe #ptsd could have a profound effect I imagined it would be hearing noises & day dreaming of the events. #truthfully it's a lot more then that the best way to describe it is it feels like fingers running across your scalp soothing & relaxing but in that same exact moment of comfort you feel pain like nails digging into your head. It scared me because how do you describe feeling pleasure & pain in the same moment you can't it's like wtf?

I can't tell what bothers me more the soothing feeling or the pain. I can be going about my day perfectly fine nothing wrong & with the snap of the fingers i'm there stuck in that moment it feels like a shock go pull some fake gum i'll wait. It makes me cry when it happens I don't want to cry but it feels like a compultion I just have to.

I spend all night tossing & turning because I can't sleep I feel tortured I keep myself up till I black out because when I lay down as soon as I put my head on the pillow it feels like I just put a knife in the back of my head. Everything just comes surging to the surface & I think it's because laying down head on pillow is a sign of relaxation & comfort it bothers me I can't have it. I'm scared of things that don't make sense because I feel damaged inside.

I try to get by I work make some money not enough of course i'm always starving & lucky to get one meal a day. #America has become more fucked up to Americans & I am the living proof of that. On top of all that the cost of living keeps rising but do our checks nooo. It doesn't matter what anyone preaches crypto that, stocks here, invest there. People who show you rather then tell you are real if someone ain't showing you they are just getting your hopes up.

With my cycles I fluctuate back & forth from wanting to be a progressive person to wanting to die. I been through so much I am convinced that I am on this earth only to endure everyones pain. So many people hurt me, took advantage of me, beat me while i'm down, & i'm just hurt. You know sometimes I wish I could just get a hug. You would be surprised to know I haven't had a hug in 5 years. People have become so shallow & isolating yeah I haven't given or gotten a hug in 5 years.

I wish someone would help me no matter how hard I try it's never good enough & I was not born with privliage like many others. I feel I am a slave everything's out of my control my desires are ignored, I am doubted everywhere I go or dismissed like I am incompetent I always have to prove i'm right & when I am I get condescended.

I really wish I could snap out of this mental cycle because before the bad things happened to me I was fine but now I walk around everyday feeling like damaged goods & i'm not good for anyone or anything. I feel defeated, beaten, & unworthy because I am not loved, cared for, or appreciated. I'm the small percent that slips through the cracks takes all abuse & shit life can give you. Do I ever get a break no it just continues like a domino effect. One day I pray I am free I hope God will bless me & somehow through someway I get a million dollars & then a sign that says now go fix your life around with this for you have endured it all.

Not everyone has parents who love them or siblings who give a fuck about you. Not everyone has money to give you things you need like clothes, food, a car, or socks. Not everyone grew up with I believe in you, I love you, I know you can do it. Some people grow up around I hate you, I can't stand you, imbosile go to your room, I wish I never had you, your not capable of anything, useless mentally ill imbocile.

I never had a chance at the start & I didn't hang with the cool kids because being poor kept me apart even at a young age kids know where the social classes of society are. The question is does anyone in humanity left have a heart?

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Ubisoft doing their less is more bullshit again got AC: Mirage I knew what to expect & I still got it on sale. Baghdad this time eh I see why they called it mirage "Assassins's Creed: Iraq" wouldn't be a suitable seller now would it. I wonder how those people are handling it over there?

I bet their angry over the history not being correct oh don't try to tell me they weren't blowing themselves up back then. At least this games got some great music but I don't like being forced to stealth after Syndicate, Rogue, Origins, Odyssey, & Valhalla put me on to just run in & fuck everything up. Never the less I must explore Basim's memories & see what he saw in his teens-mid 20s before we get to how he left Iraq & went ro england.

Don't you hate sequel prequels I most certainly do this should have came out before Valhalla did. The events are 20 years before he left for England & met our Evior so here we go with back & forth I hope the ending is worth it. So far all i've seen anyways is guards after you gets the most epic music ever so far every song is religiously serious with lives at stake.

I bet the iraqi voice acting with subtitles is superb compared to their previous va in the career for Iraq they had to do it right. In english they say a lot of muslem saying without the meaning next to the subtitles they need to fix that. I am hysterical when these people scream allah & I can't help but yell yallahhh before I do anything in this game.

It's too funny I can't take this game seriously!

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Fake ain't no mulladvpn ads on sirr. What borough was that in

Fucking cock suckas this is why we need to riot & start making demands.

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Fuck that dude hes just a distraction from the real problem. It's not important theres nothing you can do about it but you can start with your local neighborhoods & be concerned about the price gouging.

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Absolutely

It's easy to use already please say what your difficulties are & I will see if I can point you in the right direction.

This is why they have tiny penises & balls. All that abuse & for what just to feel less?

What is odell

I just wanted to know how it works. If you don't know thats okay.