Welcome!

Welcome

Welcome Sir! I’d love to read that book. I’m curious.

Welcome Sir! I’d love to read that book. I’m curious.

I fucking did it. I hit my stacking goal today. Nothing left now but to keep going. See how far over my goal I can get before you can no longer exchange dollars for sats.

Update:

My mom had the test. They found a bunch of issues. They are going to attempt to fix some of them tomorrow. I'm being intentionally vague. Inquire via simplex if you want to know more. I realized that putting another person's medical info onto piblic nostr is kinda dumb. 😅

To all of you who have reached out with your thoughts, well-wishes, and prayers, thank you. I very appreciate you for doing so.

#randomthoughts #beaverupdate #thankful #gratitude

I don’t expect anyone to read this.

Just felt inclined to express.

Alzheimer’s is a bitch

My dad passed away six years ago this month, in his early 70s. He was the son of Lebanese immigrants and embodied that old-world work ethic: relentless, always working, and never taking time to relax. He owned a business and poured everything he had into family and work, leaving little room for hobbies or personal enjoyment.

I worked with him a lot throughout my childhood and even after graduating college. Eventually, I had to leave the family business, knowing it would destroy our already adversarial relationship if I stayed any longer.

When I was 14, Dad was diagnosed with terminal colon cancer. He went to the Mayo Clinic for surgery, endured a year of chemotherapy, and somehow survived. A couple of years later, he was diagnosed with thyroid cancer. Then, in the early 2000s, I started noticing his memory was slipping, and he was making strange decisions.

I kept telling my family, “Something’s not right with Dad,” but they refused to acknowledge it for nearly a decade.

Eventually, his dementia and Alzheimer’s became so severe that we had to close the family business and declare dad bankrupt. The entire process was an enormous pain in the ass. Shortly after, my mom sold the family house of 30 years, bought a small condo, and moved in to care for Dad.

Alzheimer’s and dementia are fked up diseases. In my dad’s case, he eventually forgot how to speak and was mostly silent for the last five years of his life. He’d just shuffle around with a big, confused smile on his face, completely lost but somehow cheerful. Toward the end, he couldn’t get out of bed or go to the bathroom on his own. It totally sucked.

Mom was overwhelmed with caregiving and we started discussing the possibility of assisted living for dad. Then, one Monday morning, she called to tell me Dad had developed a bad cough. By that afternoon, it had worsened, and paramedics took him to the ER.

A friend of mine, who happened to be the ER doctor treating him, said that Dad had pneumonia, likely caused by aspirating food into his lungs. His body had forgotten the exact mechanics of swallowing, and he inhaled some food. She was direct with me: “It’s not likely he’ll recover. You should start making arrangements.”

Dad passed away suddenly within 48 hours. That sucked, but honestly, it felt like a blessing. Watching someone who had worked so hard his entire life, only to be robbed of retirement and meaningful time with his family. The caregiving had become overwhelming, and the financial strain of potential family bankruptcy was looming over us. It was a shit situation all around, and his passing, though devastating, brought an end to his suffering and the chaos.

What’s bizarre is that just two days before my mom called about Dad’s cough, I had a celestial experience.

I couldn’t sleep and spent a few hours in bed typing out Dad’s eulogy on my phone. I can’t explain it, but somehow, I had the intuition that the end was near.

My biggest regret is that dad and never talked openly about our relationship as father and son.

I never thanked him for working so hard for the family & teaching me critical life lessons. We didn’t have the kind of relationship where we said “I love you” or “I’m proud of you.”

I’ve made a conscious effort to change that with my boys. Emotional candor, something I wish I’d had with my dad, and something I’ll never take for granted again.

Do you know how to use a garlic press?

Stand down. Do you know where garlic comes from!

Is there any bitcoin only purpose built computers?

Like purposely designed to only run Bitcoin client?

And now not just a normal node like a rpi/start9/tiny pc.

General announcement:

I will likely be even less active on Nostr for... A while.

I am moving to Maine.

My mother is in the hospital.

I'm frustrated with too many things to list.

Its not hard to get a hold of me if needed, but I won't be checking in on Nostr, so... 🤷‍♂️

So, for now, toodles.

Cranberry Wensleydale is friggin' amazing.

#randomthoughts #cheese

Anyone here run a Heatbit? Tell me what you think about it

Hands up if you're not watching this fight

Apparently Netflix crashed LOL

Closest guess for the day btc hits 100k gets a fat zap

My body feels good today and I am grateful 🥲

Been having back problems for so long, now that it feels better gonna get back in the gym and hopefully permanently fix this shit