I used to suppress everything.

Felt like I had to in order to survive.

Parents didn’t care, friends didn’t care, girlfriends didn’t care.

Everyone was happy with me being a suppressed version of myself.

It was working for them and probably for me too.

One day it stopped working.

It became painful to be who I was “supposed” to be.

So I stopped suppressing things.

I started saying everything out loud.

This pissed a lot of people off.

The world shifted around me.

I lost relationships.

I made new ones.

People who respected me for who I actually was, not just who I was pretending to be.

Life is so much better now.

But it was painful for awhile.

My advice?

Break free.

That shits gonna stop working for you sooner or later.

Might as well be who you were meant to be.

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shadow work 🫂

I know this to be true yet still resist the action

It’s because you know there will be pain and we always seek to resist pain.

I've honestly never ran across anyone in the BTC community that dislikes you HODL. I can't say that about many. 🤷 So keep on keeping on. 🫡

lol oh there are definitely people who dislike me, but that’s life. I don’t need everyone to like me.

I'm sure there are, but just my experience so far. I've seen most bitcoiners attacked at some point in time, but never you. Weird 🤔

I’ve been attacked plenty lol mainly on x

I've been feeling the effects of this at work, nobody likes hearing the truth.

But I've got fuck you money and they need me more than I need them. So I just tell it to them straight.

I went through that phase. It’s fun. Kind of gleeful to be twisting the knife on everyone’s delusions. The best moment though is when you finally walk out the front door

I'll be giving out a few of these for sure 😂

😂👌

You aren't alone. I went through this today.

I agree, been there done that, if you can't be who you are then what the fuck are you doing....

Nostr definitely helps with this.

Proper freedom tech.

Indeed, it is painful.. but it's fine, it will be worth. Thanks for confirming my thoughts, and this hard choice.

I was listening to The Myth of Normal today. Gabor said something about the inherent conflict between attachment and authenticity.

Children often grow up learning that if they express themselves their parents will withdraw, which is a mortal threat to a child.

And so they learn to fake it, but when you wake up to that it can be incredibly liberating.

🙌🧡!

started being myself more at work and outside of work as soon as I became financially independent. I dunno why but that's what the trigger was for me, and since then I've been much more fulfilled

i too walked thru the fire. Its the only way 🫂

Nice post. I can relate. Authenticity is the way.

The older I get the less I give a damn about what people think of me. I am who I am. If you don’t like it too bad for you. 🫡

Bro that was me. I called my mom and told her things she would've never even suspected about my old self. She acted like she understood, but only time will tell. One thing for sure, I'm fully me and absolutely nobody but my wife understand. She knows/saw the evolution in me better than my own family. 😎

Same.

I predict that most people will get back to being genuine and authentic this year. Many will be tested. Everything fake will die.

Did all of that. Can confirm. The cage is locked from within.

we live hear once. I must say I should have the attitude of DGAF a lottttttttt sooner🧡🧡

I know deep down it’s nonsensical but I feel like I have to get rich before I can do this.

I felt the same way

But it’s not nonsense: authenticity has a price, like losing parts of one’s support network that validate one’s current identity and without whom/which (could be a wife or flat screen TV) one would feel vulnerable.

Bitcoin incentivizes authenticity.

That’s what FY money really means: if one’s an insecure asshole, Bitcoin sponsors and amplifies this. Same for good character traits too though!

I live this. I know I'm a decent guy, so what I communicate is just honesty. It's refreshing for most people except the incompetent and ignorant.

I like this version of HODL. I suppose this is the only verision I knew.

Old Hodl was less likeable. Or maybe I’m just being overly harsh because I cringe when I think back on myself.

Nope…you were an ass but hard truths are never easy to hear 😂

lol I know being confronted is the only way I would ever wake up and pay attention so I tried to do that for other people. Not the most Buddhist way to inspire and awakening but hey results are results lol

Signal has to be strong to get through the noise and results usually matter most. I routinely have had to dump cold water on people in various ways to get their attention but, like you, have been trying to find other less direct techniques - especially when the orange pill is concerned.

You're the same person but less stifled and censored. I can't imagine raising children and knowing that their parent is not themself but rather the loser version of Walter White.

💯

Needed to hear this tonight.

Same here, just trying to be me, not everyone likes it but I really don't care 🤷‍♀️

You are both people. Your choice to break free is the choice to be the person you want to be. Your actions dictate your character.

as i get older the list gets shorter of whose opinions matter to me, sometimes down to one name: myself

what matters:

being true to principles

staying focused

building what's meaningful

letting noise fade

status and being liked is temporary illusions

seeking truth requires solitude & letting go of external validation

building value requires clarity free from distraction of others' expectations

the rest? irrelevant.

Morning

Smart and brave move.

don´t suppress your desire to stack more sats

“Don’t wish it was easier, wish you were better”

One of the hardest sentences heard from my Sensei

Thanks for this!

IF YOU NEED A FRIEND GET A DOG THERES PLENTY IN THE POUND

I’m right in the midst of it.

Thank you for sharing.

Highly relatable. 🫡

I'm currently on this journey. It's good but tough. Real world relationships are being mended as I'm being the bigger person in both family and friend circles. I win & they win.

Thanks for sharing. Still working through this myself. Bitcoin helps. Faith too I feel.

It’s working for you!

But yet it’s not my true me

Sorry your butt hurt 🤷🏼

#haiku