just listened to some old voice notes i recorded back when i took singing lessons

might have to get back at it

Lunch🍕 #foodstr

Since when?

Takes one to know one

That wall looks so sick!

I don’t eat bread anymore. Gluten is terrible for your gut and the seed oils and sugar are horrible for you.

And I don’t mind former criminals having jobs but it’s just a weird flex lol

I grew up in America. In the same show Timmy’s dad is a complete moron

I watched Malcolm in the middle a lot too. The dad was a spineless idiot.

Fathers are almost always spineless, dumb, or deadbeats. Sometimes all three.

Is there a weirder flex to put on a bag of seed oil sugar bread?

You don’t think it’s even a little bit funny? 😂

It’s kinda refreshing to see a different silly side when I’ve grown up seeing grown men be bumbling idiots that are terrified of their wives.

You don’t think it’s even a little bit funny? 😂

It’s kinda refreshing to see a different silly side when I’ve grown up seeing grown men be bumbling idiots that are terrified of their wives.

I never said to anyone I was bullied. I did not leave because of what someone said. I was looking at my own behavior and not liking how I was acting. It’s not because I’m a woman and you’re a man. It is actually possible for someone to have issues going on besides what you see and hear on the internet.

Basically, I never had social media of any kind besides nostr recently. At first, it was such an awesome experience and I truly enjoyed being a part of it, but having access to that many people and that many opinions at once became overwhelming. I started to notice trends and felt pressure to be a part of them.

I think what triggered me was the assumptions and it shouldn’t and it’s not your job to make sure I’m feeling confident with myself. It wasn’t one occasion, but there have been many instances where I have made a joke or said something outlandish and the immediate assumption is to judge and educate me. Contrary to the speculation, I have in depth researched seed oils and actually make an effort to avoid certain ones, but don’t judge myself for missing a label or my patients who cannot afford to change their diet (I know it’s insane to imagine, but I actually have a master’s degree in science and much of that degree was in nutrition).

So why would I care? Why do I let it bother me that my entire life, I have felt automatically placed in a “dumb blonde” box? I still don’t really know. I honestly don’t even know if my own assumption that everyone automatically thinks I’m dumb is even true. I’m a human being and I have flaws. I really don’t mind admitting that. That’s one thing I like about myself, when I see something I don’t like, I’m honest about it and make an effort to change.

Those closest to me know what has been going on in my life offline and I appreciate and adore every one of you. In conclusion, my experience on nostr recently has illumined a new opportunity to grow and work on something I didn’t realize was an issue for me. I just felt like I was all of the sudden interpreting and becoming argumentative over insignificant things and that’s never been who I am. Nostr is not the problem. Men are not the problem. I am. I only have control over how I behave, speak, and interpret life. Lastly, I encourage everyone (myself included) to understand the difference between fact and speculation. There have been many assumptions as to why I left, but the only person who can answer that question with any ounce of objectivity is me.

P.S. I’m fine. I’m smoking a joint in the bathtub reading a book. Please don’t worry about me. Hopefully, I will be back soon when I’m ready.

ok ill try putting a little composition together (:

i always used to play it mechanically like typing in a really long password 💀 -have only recently begun the practice of spontaneous grooves

An engineer promoting integral environmental healing on IG was censored (for violating community guidelines) for spreading the topic of chemtrails. I told him about Nostr in a private message and sent him a link to nostr apps. My message has disappeared! F*** IG, f*** censorship!

Is it actually possible to use social media to share feelings and not be judged for them? To express unhappiness or something unpleasant? Is it alright to express yourself publicly in a venue where you subject yourself to the world like that?