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why did i expect your lunch to also be bananas? lol

this looks like a lot of fun nostr:note18lhlaettwv5kylqz0t57l655lf79kcncelzetx0jpes8xgqf2wpqk0qlak

since “he protected the first amendment”, wtf

tried to purple pill my dad, but he likes elon musk too much 😵‍💫

working out to failure to getting used to failure

see you at the 4pm meeting w the president 🫡

haha yeah for sure, i don’t even buy bread anymore unless im really looking forward to it, but when i would buy some regularly it always was that one

i like the weird flex, it makes consumers think 🙂‍↕️

interesting, i guess it depends on what we watched/read as kids.

what do you think is more harmful on our future generations, deadbeat dads or insulting dads? haha

or what do you wish you saw more of?

ok but it’s actually a great bread. plus, the american prison system is basically modern slavery, so let those trying to live a better life live a better life, even if it is by making bread.

(seriously tho, their thin slices bread is soo good)

dang i wonder what culture you grew up around 😭 i’ve mostly seen the opposite.

i think its sort of funny, in the way that i wonder why is that’s even on a kids show lol, (like how salty was the writer towards his wife that he felt compelled to make those jokes lol). but i guess it’s also as funny as i would find a joke of poor taste in a comedy show.

it’s interesting how it’s a reoccurring theme 🤔 and i guess comedy like that isn’t funny bc of what they’re saying, but because the person making the joke is a little disconnected from reality (and we all like to be disconnected sometimes)

Replying to Avatar Noshole

I never said to anyone I was bullied. I did not leave because of what someone said. I was looking at my own behavior and not liking how I was acting. It’s not because I’m a woman and you’re a man. It is actually possible for someone to have issues going on besides what you see and hear on the internet.

Basically, I never had social media of any kind besides nostr recently. At first, it was such an awesome experience and I truly enjoyed being a part of it, but having access to that many people and that many opinions at once became overwhelming. I started to notice trends and felt pressure to be a part of them.

I think what triggered me was the assumptions and it shouldn’t and it’s not your job to make sure I’m feeling confident with myself. It wasn’t one occasion, but there have been many instances where I have made a joke or said something outlandish and the immediate assumption is to judge and educate me. Contrary to the speculation, I have in depth researched seed oils and actually make an effort to avoid certain ones, but don’t judge myself for missing a label or my patients who cannot afford to change their diet (I know it’s insane to imagine, but I actually have a master’s degree in science and much of that degree was in nutrition).

So why would I care? Why do I let it bother me that my entire life, I have felt automatically placed in a “dumb blonde” box? I still don’t really know. I honestly don’t even know if my own assumption that everyone automatically thinks I’m dumb is even true. I’m a human being and I have flaws. I really don’t mind admitting that. That’s one thing I like about myself, when I see something I don’t like, I’m honest about it and make an effort to change.

Those closest to me know what has been going on in my life offline and I appreciate and adore every one of you. In conclusion, my experience on nostr recently has illumined a new opportunity to grow and work on something I didn’t realize was an issue for me. I just felt like I was all of the sudden interpreting and becoming argumentative over insignificant things and that’s never been who I am. Nostr is not the problem. Men are not the problem. I am. I only have control over how I behave, speak, and interpret life. Lastly, I encourage everyone (myself included) to understand the difference between fact and speculation. There have been many assumptions as to why I left, but the only person who can answer that question with any ounce of objectivity is me.

P.S. I’m fine. I’m smoking a joint in the bathtub reading a book. Please don’t worry about me. Hopefully, I will be back soon when I’m ready.

enjoy your break. it's always good to separate yourself from what hinders your growth. realization n acceptance are the first steps to becoming the best u. idk you, but it is cool to see someone bring something as human as vulnerability to the internet. have fun :)

“truth is the first casualty of war” nostr:note189h3cyfgyjs2af60rfwaes4ulvparq96r0lv3n5qffzl9gw3e3hsgytntk

Replying to Avatar 3shara

Kinda embarrassing (please ignore the bad drawing 😩). I must be a masochist cos I enjoy embarrassing myself on here, sharing bits of myself with you all 🤔. Feels scary but good.

I started drawing again - for fun - and i found some old stuff. Here’s an old film I made when I was at uni yeeears ago.

After months I scrapped the original idea cos I was so frustrated. I lost faith and passion because I kept getting conflicting feedback from my peers and tutors and felt that nobody understood what I was trying to do - my fault. I’m not the best at presenting. I so badly wanted to pull the idea out of my head and hold it in front of them, because they couldn’t see what I could. It made me doubt myself and I ended up scrapping the idea two/one weeks before the deadline and start from scratch.

I completely disappeared from the world, asked my then boyfriend for some space to work and became a ghost to my family. I sat down and decided to just draw how I felt instead of having an actual story. I really wanted to sleep and go outside - touch grass. It ended up paying off, they liked it (god knows why).

It made me realise that even though the people around you may have good intentions, they won’t always see things the way you do, or understand what you’re trying to do. You just have to trust the process, keep the passion, keep moving forwards, trust yourself and why you started doing what you’re doing in the first place.

Am I a pussy for posting this so early/late in the AM on a Sunday when I know hardly anyone will be online? Mayyyybe, but I still posted it 🫂

https://vimeo.com/940320974

i too want to fall from the sky into some pillows. 🛌 what a cute short <3 good luck on your next ones c: 🫂