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FiddleHodlHomestead
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Violinist and teacher, building a homestead on raw land in between lessons and concerts. Fascinated by how we can develop resilience in our lives, in our families, in our communities. I'm excited about freedom tech and circular economies, and am deeply grateful for the devs and advocates who are helping build tools for a better future.

I would think this would undermine the narrative.

Unless they think all the roman plebs were driving pick-up trucks? I guess I could read the article to find out their reasoning but there are about a thousand things I'd rather do with my time...

I just bought some fodder trees from Nick Ferguson (rareplantstore.com) with btc. Thanks to nostr:npub15879mltlln6k8jy32k6xvagmtqx3zhsndchcey8gjyectwldk88sq5kv0n for the reminder. I'm still in early days of stacking and don't have much, but these trees are pretty much the ideal low-time preference good-quality investment. Also I want to contribute to a new system and I don't think only hodling will get us there!

From this handful of bare-root trees we can propagate dozens (hundreds) more and use them to feed our animals. Sheep, goats, cows and rabbits will all make good use of fodder trees, and once you start drying or fermenting the leaves, you lower or totally eliminate the need for winter hay.

#resilience #homestead #sovereignty #circulareconomy #permaculture #livestock

Ha! I've given up - at this point I just assume he's right.

I don't remember our recipe but my family loves making and eating it.

One tip I do remember: partially frozen meat is easy to cut into thin slices (or whatever thickness you want).

It's nuts. A few years ago I tried to take several thousand in cash out of my bank account. The teller wanted to know what I needed it for.

"Excuse me?!"

"It's for your protection."

"It protects ME for you to know what I'm going to do with my money?" šŸ¤¦ā€ā™€ļø

Bitcoin aside, this has never made sense to me. Is it illegal to have cash? I know that the assumption is drugs or smuggling, but are there actually laws against carrying cash?

Also -one thing I forgot to mention: the plan should be written down and each guideline extremely clear. Clear enough that following it is a simple yes or no and could be objectively verified.

Figure that when you’re clarifying your intentions 24 hours in advance, you’re tapping into your ability to think in terms of your long-term well being (your future, including how you want to your actions to support your loved ones, etc). In the moment of dealing with the urge for the destructive behavior, it’s almost a different you: your primal or lizard brain is in control. It interprets the impending discomfort as true danger and it will rationalize, justify, wheedle, bargain etc in the moment to get the dopamine hit it thinks you need.

So it’s important that whatever plan you make in advance is so clear that there’s no possibility of blurring the lines in the moment.

haha! yes, probably not easy.

The fellow in the video left with his groceries but with workers yelling after him. I don't remember if they followed him out or if there was a further confrontation.

There's a video (from the UK, I think?) of someone paying in cash even though the grocery store doesn't officially accept it. Apparently most places have a law that stores must accept legal tender, so he left the cash on the counter and walked out with his groceries.

I advise clients to work on one thing at a time. It can be what you perceive as the most damaging behavior, but you can also choose the one that feels most manageable to tackle.

It may seem odd, but the order doesn't really matter. The skills you develop in one area will eventually help in others. What matters is that you pick one and stay on your own side as you move through those feelings/urges.

Good luck! it's definitely do-able. I probably said this above, but I wouldn't approach this as needing to resolve all past trauma to address the behaviors. That will feel impossible! You can be someone with a rich and messy past who has destructive habits and you can be someone with a rich and messy past who doesn't have destructive habits. It can be helpful to get therapy for trauma (that's not something I do) but addressing your behaviors doesn't depend on it.

I have no experience with drug addictions, so these suggestions can apply to other addictive behavior but not sure about hard drugs. Some folks use them successfully for alcohol but I haven't coached that.

Rather than think that you have to heal past trauma (which is likely an overwhelming thought and tends to make us spin in more unwanted behavior), you can make a plan relative to the behaviors and allow the feelings that come up when the plan and your cravings collide. Simple in theory, challenging but effective in practice.

An example with addictive/emotional eating: make a detailed explicit plan for tomorrow's food. Generally best not to make it super austere, just something you'd like to stick to tomorrow.

Tomorrow rolls around, and let's say that all is well - you've followed your plan to a T - until it's 8pm and you desperately want the snacks that you usually have around that time. Your brain is used to the dopamine hit, your body is used to the sugar, and everything in you is screaming that you MUST have the snacks.

That feeling of desperation is just a sensation in your body. If you sit still for a moment you can start to identify it: tightness in the chest, a feeling like someone is pushing closed the entire upper part of your back, rocks in your stomach... something like that.

Here's the good news: the feeling rarely lasts more than 90 seconds and it's usually around 60 seconds. Your brain will tell you that it's an emergency, that the feeling will surely kill you, but you can learn to just sit and allow the urge to move through you. Don't analyze it (not "this is because XXX"), don't fight it, don't argue with it, don't mock yourself for having it, don't try to distract yourself from it. Just allow it.

Over time - as you practice allowing those urges without acting on them - they start to lose power. You basically re-train your brain so that it stops interpreting the denial of the urge as an existential threat. People who practice this find that they can allow intense feelings even while going about their day, but in the beginning it helps to stop everything and just sit gently with yourself as you let the wave move through you.

If allowing the urge seems unbearable, get curious about the feelings: the sensation of rocks in your stomach - what color are the rocks? what shape? are they round or jagged? And so on. It keeps you in an observer state without resistance.

I've seen this work for porn, eating, destructive relationship habits. I know that it can work for alcohol but haven't seen it directly. The benefits go beyond the dissolution of the habit; you start to develop a kinder relationship with yourself based partly on respect and gratitude for keeping your word to yourself (by sticking to the plan).

The 24 hours in advance is important because you need enough distance from the urges to be thinking clearly about what's in your best interest.

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Hey, Nostr…

This is an #introductions post, but it’s not my first npub.

I’ve become quite close with many of you over the course of 2023. I consider a number of you to be real friends.

But I haven’t found the courage to open up some of the personal struggles I’m facing. Partly out of shame, partly out of the fear of validating my failings by putting them in writing.

But what I do know is the love and support and kindness that exists among this crew, and I’m feeling like I could really stand to lean on that energy a bit right now. I’m hopeful that, even through this anon account, there’s room for friendship, freely given.

I’ve struggled with a range of compulsive/risky/addictive behaviors for a long time, but it’s gotten harder lately. It’s the devil I’ve danced with since my teenage years, and it’s been especially difficult lately to align my active behavior with my heart, intuition, and personal goals.

I believe I ā€œtrainedā€ my neural pathways to lean on various dopamine/reward pathways in times of stress during my adolescent development - or, to be honest, from a much younger age - and these mental habits have become deeply ingrained.

It’s not one specific ā€œaddictionā€ the way that people often struggle with, but my tendency to fall into patterns of substance abuse and other ego-inflating activities goes through cycles, which I’m just beginning to understand come from very deep, old parts of myself, and it feels like things have been escalating farther outside of a level of baseline acceptability lately.

I can point to various moments of trauma or conditioning that led me to try to self-soothe in these ways, and I’ve developed compassion for the parts of myself that are ā€œtrying to helpā€ even in self-destructive ways.

But I’ve had a harder time with everything lately than I have in a long time. I don’t feel able to share this with my partner, but I am recognizing that it may be too much to handle on my own. Because I’ve tried for years. Self-imposed rules aren’t enough, because they don’t heal the broken parts. And I’m afraid that I’m risking the things I hold most dear, including my loved ones and my own self-worth and self-respect, if I don’t find a way through this.

I know some of you have faced things like addiction, trauma, loss, and personal failures. And I’ve seen the beautiful people that you are. I know and recognize that beauty in myself too, but I’m continually undermining my own happiness and fulfillment. I’m learning to pray again, to turn inward and connect with myself. But I’m also deeply stuck enough that I keep ending up in those patterns that hurt my heart and betray my soul.

I don’t even know if anyone will see this. If the default relays on this client have wide reach. If my VPN is effective or if I’ll dox my identity here.

But man… I sure could use a few kind words, advice, or encouragement from others who have been in a similar place before. If you’ve read this far, I already deeply appreciate you. You’re probably one of the friends I’ve made this last year šŸ«‚

Sending good wishes and sympathy!

I've (professionally) coached folks through some of these challenges and will put a few suggestions in a reply to this post.