Spent too much time with my increasingly normie friendly

I fell in the trap of trying to explain that the money is broken 😬

They still think that a new political party or a new leader or a new investment or whatever can fix the chronic problems the uk faces

And now I’m about to spend a week with my other half’s family.

This is why people book bitcoin events.

Wish me luck!

Most podcasts are mental masturbation.

Last night my wife called me an alcoholic. Not in a mean way, just matter of fact. Since the Melbourne Covid lockdowns I’ve been a daily drinker, about a bottle of wine per night, the wasted money alone is a tragedy, then I also think about my kids..

I know Im supposed to seek medical/professional help but I’ve always been one to do it myself. I don’t know anyone on this app so I feel like a can say this here, even if no one reads it just writing it out and throwing it into the void feels better than nothing.

It’s 5:30am, shitty sleep as usual from the bottle of wine. The last bottle was a wedding gift for the both of us but ended up being my regular Wednesday night.

Day 1.

There are only two types of people in this world. Those who load the dishwasher with absolute geometric precision and people who are wrong.

Years ago, when my ex and I were discussing some things after we broke up, he said to me, “I’m sorry I have been critical of your emotions. I realized that it was uncomfortable for me to see you in your emotions and pain so I tried to make you wrong for it so I didn’t have to feel my own shit.”

Me being “fragile” was a consistent pattern in our relationship. Now, I am so clear that that was a reflection of my own beliefs playing out in him. But hearing him say that really clicked something in.

When you start to see the bigger picture of what is playing out, it begins to shift the whole dance.

Because when we don’t have language for what is happening, it’s very difficult to have a relationship to it.

Having language for a sensational experience and relational dynamic creates an opportunity to separate ourselves from it.

And with that, (combined with deeper capacity work) comes agency.

I see so many couples where there is this gap where they cannot meet each other. Like a black foggy hole between them they keep circling but cannot meet in.

One of my gifts is that I can see the meeting point. The very spot of truth that, if acknowledged, would create more energy and movement between them.

I used to see this with my parents and it would frustrate the shit out of me. Many times I would inappropriately jump in to translate for them in order to soothe my own sensation. But now, I use this gift to illuminate things for men and women so they can see and feel the dynamic that is operating more clearly.

One of the things I am doing with this REUNION series, is giving language and a practice field for specific relational areas that often give us challenges. Not so things can be fixed, but so you can have more literacy of what’s happening and therefore the ability to relate to it differently.

Witnessing is one of those areas I see an opportunity for. It has the power to really transform connection and the individuals involved.

To witness is to take your hand off the wheel of control.

It is to stay on your mark and let someone fully be as they are.

It is to trust.

Next week’s workshop is going to go deep into Witnessing, for both men and women. I’m opening it up as a standalone workshop.

If this is resonating with you, and you want a frame for you and your man or woman to work with in those stickier spots, I’d love to have you both there.

It’s on Tuesday November 25th at 3pm EST.

$99 per person and there is a recording.

DM me for the link.

Singles are welcome as well of course.

I fucking hate paying taxes to these war-mongering kleptocrats.

White or Gold?

I was reading The Beginning Of Infinity and it was breaking my brain.

Then I was like why is thinking so fucking painful?

Deutsche’s work made me realize that we mistake coherence for truth because our brains are optimized for simulation, not verification.

But if we compress reality by creating better explanations, we can re-simulate it more accurately and edge closer to truth.

This hurts because it breaks the old coherence. Every new insight like a neural demolition.

Essentially the mind grows by breaking and reforming itself over and over again.

Which is why real thinking is unpleasant, because it’s a process that if done in earnest destroys parts of your own mind.

But nothing new can form in your mind without this painful fracturing.

This means that collapse is necessary for renewal.

And if it’s true on the individual level, then it’s likely true on the collective level as well.

Which means we cannot stop what’s coming and further more why would we want to?

Because to stop it is to retard progress and our understanding of reality.

If you love humanity, you hate the state.

1 month of #NoFap down; going to keep it rolling through November (maybe through end of year?)

Every man needs to do this. It's such a great personal challenge, and the physical/mental health benefits are noticeable & significant.

...Oh, and it helps defund the Porn Industrial Complex, and the insane amount of money they funnel into Israel.

If you're out there and have heard about the #NoNutNovember trend but never jumped onboard yourself, do it!! Start today and run it through a few days into December, to check off that big 30 days milestone 🏆✅

I promise that you will gain a TON of value from it.

read Wendell Berry.

that’s it. that’s the note.

Join Orange Pill App and the Bitcoin Writing and Books group. Look for pameladb.

you can just go visit your grandma

Serious question: for those of you that enjoy my podcast, what would you like to purchase from it as a result?

Working on a growth strategy, and looking at revenue options, and it would be cool to offer something people actually want to pay for

Equally, would be nice to not have endless ad reads to "monetise" but some other route

#asknostr

Do you mean a Bitcoin node? There is no such thing as a ColdCard node.

People in the '60s were so politically charged, angry, and revolting against the systems that divide people.

The mid-late '60s and '70s brought about such a shift in consciousness with the peace and love movement.

We are living in similar times.

Energy flows where attention goes. Awareness of a thing is much different than being consumed by it.

We must not allow ourselves to be distracted from what truly matters; what we want to see in the world.

The more we give attention to what we don't want, the more we feed it, the more we empower it—and the more we give up our creative power to bring about change.

We need another peace and love movement; an elevation in consciousness. This is where I'll be spending my time and energy.

I encourage you to join me.

— Ava Aum

#IKITAO

GM.

You wake up daily in a world where the majority outsource their thinking to institutions that profit from their ignorance. The courage to think independently and live by principle isn’t just personal development, it’s a form of resistance against intellectual slavery.

Should I read the bible?

Welcome. I am a writer. I’m part of a writer’s accountability group. We get together on Zoom and just write for 50 minutes. We’re on hiatus right now, but we should start again. DM me if interested.

⚡️🌍⌚️NEWS - The Earth is Speeding Up.

If you're under the impression that your days are getting shorter and shorter, it's not just a subjective sensation: scientific data reveals that the Earth's rotation has been accelerating slightly in recent years, reducing the length of our days.

This variation, imperceptible to the naked eye, is measured in milliseconds.

What remains most intriguing is that the exact causes of this phenomenon are still a mystery.

Have you tried Meetup.com