eu escrevi isto em português no ano passado. vou deixar aqui assim, contando com a tradução automática.
desconfias do infinito que habita o singular
como se um fruto não trouxesse em si sabores tão diversos a cada mordida
como se a pele não fosse outra a cada toque
como se o olhar não mudasse a cada lágrima
como se os ouvidos, ainda que escutando a mesma frase, não pudessem ouvir camadas ocultas
como se os cheiros fossem estáticos sem nuances tão diversas a cada respiração
como se a boca não mudasse sua textura a cada beijo
como se os corpos não descobrissem novos modos de se aninharem a cada encontro
como se as conversas não tivessem tantos caminhos para seguirem quanto existem pessoas nesse mundo
como se alguém não pudesse mudar tanto a ponto de se deparar com o desconhecido em si, ainda que algo pareça familiar
that amazes me too! ♥️
and it's so beautiful that even with all the mystery and infinite possibilities of being we can relate to each other and feel like the person is talking about your own experiences.
one thing I realized is that I feel angry with the other person when I bother her 😬 I'm always trying to please everyone (I've changed a lot in this matter, but that's still here) and I'm usually successful, cause I'm always trying to pay a lot of attention to people, so my ego gets hurt when I can't - and it's worse when I do the opposite. if I wasn't trying to please the person, maybe I wouldn't do something that bothered her or if it did, I wouldn't be so disappointed when she was bothered. I guess that's an invite to be even more who I am. and that always starts with feeling what comes. but anger is something I hide a lot (and I realized that before I try to please people usually I felt angry but didn't let me feel.
maybe I'm saying obvious things, and I think there's something I'm not seeing, but I'll leave it here.
I was thinking that I couldn't believe someone wouldn't like you, but then I thought that I actually don't think anyone can hate others. they always hate their own projections about others. Ultimately, they hate themselves.
But then I started seeing myself and something I'm struggling with came to light. I really think that when someone bothers me I should take a closer look within myself - the person is giving me a clue and an opportunity to feel something I wasn't ready to feel before. But when I bother someone, I get lost in guilt, maybe, and I can't leave their projection l them. There is something about me when I bother the other person, but that's not what the person felt or thought. I must stay with what I feel when I face the fact that I sometimes bother/irritate people.
thank you, noshole! it cleared my mind.
I wrote a little book with some cards that's like an oracle. if you want to try it I can send you privately. it's in Portuguese, but I can translate it to you. :)
please, be comfortable to say no. ♥️
Scorpio moon too hahaha
it's intense. I really have to take care so I don't get lost in the cave of my shadows cause I'm very interested in these feelings we usually try to hide from ourselves.
what a beautiful practice! thank you ♥️ I will do that, certainly.
hahahaha she is certainly also lucky ♥️
that's so beautiful!
♥️ I love my mother-in-law and we have such a deep relationship! she is always there for me whenever I need and now she is also there for my mother. I'm so so grateful for all that.
thank you, Dan! 🌻
maybe it's something we will keep learning every day.
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thank you for that. I don't often celebrate and you reminded me I can, even if I'm celebrating only a moment of being human in a healthy way. this simple things are imense and I often forget that.
thank you! ♥️
I guess I'll judge myself again, and maybe I've already done that since that post, but it's clear that the judgements are not the truth about who I am.
now I'm thinking that I judge myself and believe in those thoughts when I'm not allowing myself to feel something - and at the same time I'm not letting the emotion go.
today I faced a mistake I made and I was able to just be with that without judging myself. I was always very hard on myself when I made the littlest mistake, but today I felt free from that. not in a way that I'll just start doing anything carelessly, but in a responsible way. and then I felt more open to express myself taking the risk of finding out more illusions that I believe in.
my grandmother was afraid of thunders too. one night she was at the hospital and I was there with her. it started to rain and she was scared. I set by her bed and stood there with her. I felt really strong being able to comfort her that day. it was a new years night. I don't often feel strong, but I guess she inspired me to be.
thank you for posting this. it brought me precious memories with my grandma ♥️
practice of self awareness, emotions and feelings, education
you don't have to be fearless. feel whatever comes, it will pass. sending you a warm hug and waiting for the new woman to come say hi. ♥️
I'm better now! and I practiced handstand yesterday. some kids were practicing handstand and other things and I got inspired and went there. it was a little bit uncomfortable cause other moms were there and I was afraid that they would see me and think I'm ridiculous (that's what I think when I do almost everything I'm passionate about). I practiced only for a few minutes, but I loved it! I'm feeling much more open to life and I really feel that my openess to practice handstand has everything to do with that.
thank you so much for that, Lois!
The more I try to run away from myself, the more trapped in myself I become