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the real solution with dieting is to learn to respect your body and to be considerate of what you eat and why

the same thing applies to consuming information - using exclusionary diets ( like no Carbs or no Twitter ) may work in the short term but in the long term do more harm than good

you simply need to have a conversation with yourself and admit that your food choices are mostly driven by entertainment value and need to be realigned more with nutrition value - this is equally true of carbs and Twitter

you don't have to avod carbs or twitter but before you consume anything you need to ask yourself - why do i need this ? and 99% of the time the answer will be i don't need this and you will skip it.

there are things on Twitter that may have real nutrition value but you have to be honest with yourself. you have to keep asking yourself - am i wasting my time with mindless entertainment or am i learning something i need to know ?

you have to ask the same thing while eating - am i just entertaining myself or am i actually securing nutrients my body needs ?

people try to avoid having to think by using simple rules of thumb like "No carbs" or "no twitter" but such approaches are never safe and effective in the long term because they are too primitive. in the long term you can't run from the need to think - you will have to be in constant conversation with yourself on what you are consuming and why.

i wonder if there is an equivalent to counting calories when it comes to social media ? maybe set a timer and only spend 30 minutes on Twitter ?

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i just checked Twitter and there is nothing interesting going on there. but that's because i chose not to care about anything on there. you have to choose not to care about things rather than try to physically prevent yourself from being exposed to them.

my previous approach to dopamine fasting / digital detox didn't work because when i banned myself from X where i would spend my time hating on Israel and Jews it simply drove me to Google News where i kept reading articles on other subjects

i ended up wasting almost as much time but on things that were even less important than what i had already deemed to be a waste of time. so in that sense it backfired completely

and on some level i suspected this would happen which is why when i originally heard about Dopamine Fasting many years ago i said it was bullshit

but later i tried it and had some success with it so i started leaning more on it but as with any diet eventually you learn how to cheat and it stops working

a few notes: i didn't actually break anything

i *almost* broke a few things - but Robert Greene teaches that every win must be treated as an L so that you can learn from it and that's how i approach things

whereas a stupid bitch like my mother ACTUALLY breaks things and then simply blames somebody or something or whatever and never spends a second reflecting on what she has done ( typical for all women ) if i ALMOST break something i have to go to bed, get under a blanked and go to sleep ... and by the time i wake up i will have internalized the lessons of my recklessness that ALMOST caused me to break something

i just wrote that i broke those things to make it easier for you to understand. nothing was actually broken.

but the fact was that i realized that:

1 - i was FORCED into being reckless by lacking the time to consider how the device works before using it

2 - once i almost broke it i once again didn't have the time to go through my usual protocol of going to bed and sleeping on it to reflect on the mistakes and internalize the lessons

i just saw that the time crunch was ruining me, so i checked out.

having had about an hour of two to decompress and reflect i think it was NOT the dopamine fast / digital detox that unbalanced me but the sheer crunch for time

think i will continue with a less aggressive form of detox but with a different rationale. instead of trying to make myself more productive by eliminating distractions i will try to achieve a greater sense of inner peace by eliminating distractions. and instead of trying to be more productive to meet a deadline i will simply accept that i work at some natural pace and it will take however long it takes.

of course Elon would tell you that you have to work as fast as possible but if his employee who is forced to work 100 hours a week burns out Elon will simply fire him and replace him with some H1B from India.

working faster and harder works in the short term, just like counting calories works in the short term.

in the long term you have to realign your priorities to something sustainable.

eliminate from your life as many distractions as possible - but not to the point where you stop being yourself or human.

you should also work as much and as fast / hard as possible but again - not to the point where you become a neurotic wreck or a crackhead like Elon.

sometimes you have to take the L and retreat, take a step back to regroup.

i also like to blast music and drive dangerously coming back from the gym.

cars are a trap like this - the better you feel the more they get you in trouble.

this is what sucks about becoming old and wise - the number of things you can enjoy dwindles because you recognize most of them as traps.

about the only thing you can still enjoy as you get older is tinkering with various tools ( like those garden pruning shears i been ordering this week ) which is why when i broke them i finally lost it. because i realized i was giving up the last thing i have that i can still enjoy in order to meet obligations imposed on me by the world that never cared about me. i was betraying myself.

me on phone with mom: i am not going to pick you up

mom: why ?

me: because i don't feel like it

literally. i just don't feel like it. i will do whatever i feel like doing.

some boomer will call me weak for this. well, must be nice being a soul-less automaton like Trump, who doesn't even need to sleep - he can suck Netanyahu cock 24/7.

but actual humans like Elon Musk need to have an occasional meltdown and ruin everything for no reason LOL

it's not about a work-life balance. it's a balance between who you are and who you need to be.

Trump is lucky because he is who he needs to be - a Boomer Sociopath. Elon is trying to bridge the gap using drugs. I was trying to bridge the gap with my various dopamine fasts and detoxes.

easy for Boomers to say you're weak when the task is to have no soul and they are born without one while you are asked to kill yours.

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when i was in the shower half an hour ago and made the decision that i was going to quit on that commitment that was squeezing me like in a vise i felt a tremendous sense of relief

yes i also felt like a failure but on a scale from 1 to 10 the strength of the feeling of failure was maybe 4 while that of relief was like 7, so i knew then it was the right decision

i just realized i was at a point where the harder i pushed the more i was fucking up, and i knew that to "make it" i would have to push even harder and that was clearly not the answer

so now i will not do anything productive AT ALL and just do whatever i enjoy until i feel like myself again

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i give up

canceling my detox / nofap all of that

i worked myself up to such a frenzy that i basically started fucking up. i basically broke the cutting tool before even taking it out of the box because i was simultaneously anxious to try it and also in the back of my mind i had all the other shit i have to do and i knew i don't really have the time to figure out how the ratcheting mechanism works so when something wasn't working i just applied force rather than take the time to figure out what i am doing

i also broke several other things in the past 2 weeks ( from my car's key fob to 3 separate plumbing articles in two different bathrooms that i was fixing here at home ) in more or less the same fashion and it was all from the same hysterical feeling of running out of time and having to work faster ...

acting like this is NOT in my nature at all. my nature is to take a long time to examine things and understand them and NOT force anything, but i worked myself into this sense of hysteria where it destroyed who i am and replaced me with some kind of nervous wreck trying to juggle too many things at the same time

this is no way to live. i decided i would accept failure instead. i would rather be dead than live like this.

i was trying to make a certain trip happen by certain date because i had to do something somewhere on that date and every day i felt the time squeeze more and more until just now i basically said fuck it - i'm not going to do it.

i'm not going to be in place X at a time Y because to make that schedule i turned myself into the kind of wreck that my sadist Jew father always wanted me to be. and all of my sadist bosses wanted me to be. and i just became my own sadist father / boss.

so basically i told the boss that i quit. in this case the boss was me. sometimes you have to protect your sanity.

trying to push past your limits is not wise. the wise thing to do is to accept that there are limitations to what can be accomplished and that you may need to give certain things up.

i already gave up on women about 15 years ago. i will probably have to give up on many more things. but i can't give up on myself and that's what was happening with all these detoxes and trying to meet deadlines.

or rather i CAN give up on myself, but you do that by killing yourself, not be destroying yourself.

i was trying to create time and mental space by getting rid first of Twitter, then Google News then FapHouse - all so i could accomplish something. but ultimately it's what i was trying to accomplish that i had to get rid of to create the time and mental space to be myself.

called my mother and said i wasn't going to pick her up. can't waste my time and inner peace.

taking time out from the hamster wheel.

to project the right image it also helps to drive the right car and be dressed right

drive an elegant ( but not douchebaggy or aggressive ) car and be dressed like you're going to work

if you're driving an E350 Mercedes and wearing a Business Suit the cop will tell you to enjoy the rest of your day

if you drive an Altima and have a gold chain on the neck you are getting shot

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"it's sad because you could write an entire library of books explaining your case backed up by mountains of research and they will just call you "pedo" and honestly believe they won the argument because they called you a bad word.

it's the same as how ANTIFA think they won the argument if they called you a "nazi" and so on ..."

reminds me of a Joke ...

"you can't win a chess game against a Pigeon. he will knock over all the pieces and shit on the board"

never forget this !

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literally the difference is the words we use to describe it. depending on who is brainwashing the child we can call it "parenting" or "education" or "grooming"

the way the average person "thinks" is something is good or bad depending on whether a good or bad word is used to describe it. so:

parenting = good

education = good

grooming = bad

this extends to everything else as well for example:

freedom fighter = good

terrorist = bad

the subhuman retards who think this way call me "pedo" and immediately begin to celebrate a victory. they think a word has power over me just because words has power over them.

the problem with retards is that you can never convince them that some people ( like yourself ) possess intelligence. they think we are faking it. they do not believe that intelligence exists - they think its a conspiracy theory.

in high school for example it was commonly accepted among the class that i have sex with all the teachers and in return they give me answers to all the tests ahead of time. they refused to accept that intelligence can be used to solve problems and it is simply something that i possess and they do not.

it's sad because you could write an entire library of books explaining your case backed up by mountains of research and they will just call you "pedo" and honestly believe they won the argument because they called you a bad word.

it's the same as how ANTIFA think they won the argument if they called you a "nazi" and so on ...

and of course both of these types of SPITEFUL MUTANTS who are only capable of identifying us vs them and then using some bad word to call "them" while also promising to beat "them" up believe that they are "literally the opposite" of each other

you're not opposite of anything. you are both RETARDED. as in THE SAME.

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yeah but that is more a function of child birth than age i think

in a traditional society like around the time of Prophet Muhammad she would be

- married at stage 1

- have 2 or 3 kids already at stage 2

- be a grandmother at stage 3

- be exiled for trying to poison your younger wives at stage 4

- executed for being a witch at stage 5

good times back when men still had common sense ...

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what ? did that pedo really say that we should groom children for sex ?

well, the reality is from a moment a child is born adults are grooming them to be something the adults want them to be. it's just that the grooming is done by parents and teachers rather than by prospective husband.

parents teach children to always respect, love and obey parents.

teachers teach children to always respect, love and obey teachers and other government authorities.

a Muslim husband of a 9 year old girl teaches her to respect, love and obey her husband.

tell me - what is the difference ?

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no man should be asked to be with a woman past stage 3 on the Hillary scale

witches were burned at the stake at stage 5

stage 1 is for grooming

stage 2 is for breeding

stage 3 is for putting kids through college

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the 5 stages of devolution of Hillary Clinton:

1 ( airhead )

2 ( probably interesting chick )

3 ( maybe a trace of humanity still left )

4 ( bureaucrat with 1000 cocks stare )

5 ( witch )

i love watching the little Amazon delivery car icon move around on the map getting closer to me

even though i am not getting anything fun, just a humble garden saw:

https://www.amazon.com/dp/B001RD7LRO?th=1

i still can't resist watching it

2 stops away !

the suspense ! ! !

those idiots need to learn to put the captions on the sides of the screen instead of on the bottom.

jokes aside, for gay / pedo sex purposes this girl is hot. check our her biceps lol. but for wifey i would want somebody with bigger hips.

this is when BAP stopped talking to me - when i told him that the difference between man and woman is the width of the hips. i have small hips but not because i am super masculine - actually my mother has small hips too, so it's genetic rather than hormonal.

but regardless athletic performance in most sports comes from having narrow hips while birthing prowess obviously comes from having wide hips.

i am frankly not attracted to women with wide hips like Kim Kardashian because i am a pedophile who is into sodomy and cavernous vaginas scare me, but that is what you want for a mother of your kids unless you can afford $$$ to use a surrogate mother.

the girls that i am sexually attracted to which are slender / elegant / athletic i would honestly be scared to get them pregnant because i can't visualize them giving birth with their narrow frames.

i am also scared of having sex with girls who have had children with their blown our vaginas.

it seems the Greeks and the Pakis both got it right - women are for babies - children are for fucking.

this whole idea that women age like milk and men age like wine is honestly right wing cope

yes aging is more brutal for women but it isn't pretty for men either

it's true that women run out of eggs and men don't run out of sperm but that's just one aspect of aging - the others still apply

my point is that unless you're a billionaire like Musk who uses artificial insemination and even surrogate mothers to make babies you also can't put starting a family off indefinitely

for men it may not be a wall at 30 but i assure you men age too LOL

if you can marry a girl with money or if you can make her sign a pre-nup then it may be a price that needs to be paid to avoid becoming isolated ( having no kids )

of course this assumes she wants to have kids. i don't see any point in marrying a woman unless she wants to have kids RIGHT AWAY.

i had that realization about Video as a format.

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what many have realized about the Mercedes C63 AMG S E-Performance is that the car could have been a success if it was marketed correctly ...

the problem is that because such a car never existed before nobody knew how to market it ...

if the mental blocks of audiophiles can be fully understood a marketing strategy could perhaps be devised that worked around them ...

perhaps the Audiophile qualities of the system would have to be down-played to lower their guard so that they aren't so worried about being judged for having "bad taste" and instead the system could be sold on some other basis such as just being physically HUGE !

in fact that is the correct strategy. people with low IQs ( that is 99% of people ) are always impressed by things that are HUGE, this is why Trump always talks about how everything he does is "big" and "yuge" because he knows his rodent level IQs voters will appreciate it.

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and so i am in this situation where i can build a speaker that is at least 10 times better than any speaker ever made in history of the universe but there would be no way to sell it because even if i bring an audiophile over and make him listen and he literally pisses himself because of how amazing the speaker sounds he will not admit that it sounds good

because what if some expert ( whom i had no money to pay off ) says that it doesn't sound good ? then the Audiophile will be considered to have "bad taste" for having liked my speaker !

you think i am joking ? i am not !

imagine my speaker has the loudest, deepest bass he has ever heard that makes you literally come just by hearing it ? then he would simply be told that he has bad taste for liking such bass.

I AM NOT JOKING.

think about it - if you can convince men that liking teenage girls is sickening and disgusting - how hard is it really to convince audiophiles that liking bass is "bad taste" ? not hard at all and that's what they actually believe.

these people are TOO FUCKING RETARDED to be helped.

you can lead a horse to water but you cannot make it drink.

i can make the world's best sound system but i can't convince an Audiophile that it sounds good even if it makes them literally orgasm from listening to it.

I WISH I WAS JOKING.

if they listen to my system and come they will simply be embarrassed about having such a bad taste that they enjoyed a system with powerful bass.

the same way as if they were shown "child" porn ( with 15 year old girls ) and they got a boner they would be embarrassed about being a "pedophile" and act like they didn't enjoy it

because the average human animal needs PERMISSION FROM AUTHORITIES AND EXPERTS to like something

this is why Audiophile gear is all about psychology and marketing and has nothing to do with engineering or sound quality

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even so, if you want kids do not allow my comments to dissuade you from treading the beaten path. i don't want you coming back when you're 80 and in a nursing home and nobody comes to visit you because you never had any kids and blaming me for this.

and reality is if you aren't married it simply means you're not rich enough. if you are loaded with cash you won't be able to avoid it. women simply will not allow you to go single. because there is over a billion of them and they are all looking for a man with money to marry and your odds of fighting them off are zero.

even i almost succumbed but in my case it was my crush from when i was 14 trying to marry me for US citizenship, rather than for money. luckily she was still as much of a bitch when she tried this in our 20s as she was when we were in early teens so that helped me to say no.

but regardless it isn't really your choice whether you get married or not. it's just a question of whether you have something to offer to women or not. if you don't you won't be able to get a woman to marry you and if you do you won't be able to fight women off in the long run.

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Ben Shapiro adjacent Matt Walsh said that married men are happier and have more sex than men who aren't married. I do not doubt for a second this is true however here is the problem:

1 - they are happier for one reason only - because women don't marry miserable men. you have to be happy before a woman would even date you let alone marry you. a woman will only marry a type of man who makes 3X as much as he can spend and enjoys constant vacations in Europe or the tropics. this man in most cases will continue to be happy even with a wife. While a broke and miserable man will remain single because no woman wants him and will remain miserable. Thus statistically married men are happier.

2 - they have more sex because their wife DEMANDS that he fucks her. what he probably wants is to jerk off to porn but guess what happens if he does ? best case scenario is divorce and he loses the house and kids. worst case scenario the wife cuts his dick off. YES WOMEN HAVE cut their husband's dicks off for watching porn ( and for cheating ). so indeed a married man may have more sex but not because he wants to.

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one downside of dopamine fasting / social media detox is

WEIGHT GAIN !

when you're always bored you're going to eat more because you are only down to porn and food for entertainment and you can only watch so much porn

so actually social media is good for weight loss

but so is fentanyl

for example this cutter:

https://www.amazon.com/EZ-Kut-Products-Ratcheting-Lopper/dp/B00P01NIE4?th=1

fails for everybody in exactly the same way. the blade breaks always in the same spot.

you would think at some point the manufacturer would get a clue that there is an issue with blade design but no. that would be like expecting Elon Musk to stop lying or Trump to stop fellating Netanyahu.

this is why i hate how Amazon will group 20 different products together and combine the reviews for them as seen here:

https://www.amazon.com/Fiskars-Ratchet-Trimmer-Capacity-Riveted/dp/B0D88JR7B5?th=1

then you just get the average review rating for all the products and an AI summary of "custumer say" that gives you the average review of 20 different products. that way you won't actually know which of the 20 products have design flaws and which do not.

it is amazing that a company like Amazon can simultaneously be so successful and so retarded.

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a well designed product fails or fails to meet customer expectations in a wide variety of ways for different customers

a poorly designed product fails in exactly the same way for everybody who uses it